Love, Dawn♥

okay, bored so decided to post. again.
don't you find a guy who is witty much more appealing than ur average sporean guy?
I do. Someone who is quick with words, fast at grasping ideas, efficient at getting punchlines. That's my ideal.. haha... but then the challenge comes when i have to 'pei he' that quickminded person. then again...challenges are nice. =) okay.. the next thing...
he has to be not only witty but smart. i do not like those guys wit a 'bo chap' attitude towards study. Seriously. It's like they have no goal in life, no aspirations to succeed or simply do well. That does not sound like a good leader or even best friend, which is essentialy what a bf is.
And his smartness doesn't have to show thru his grades, it can be proven simply thru a conversation with him, where he would unknowingly allow u to realize he is a thinker. not just someone who goes thru life living from one moment to another and accepting life philosophies from ppl around him. He must think for himself, and think maturedly and philosophically.

okay okay what crap am i talking about nowww...
haiii

ciiaoz!

booyaH!!
in computer class..again. hahaha....
nevermind...at least someone here too...
haii...
as if i really care la... X))
anyway...i just realized it's been super long since i last wrote a short story...
so..
here's one..

Swinging lazily on the rickety porch swing, Angela gazed dreamily out into the misty lawn, her lips curved into a gentle, contented smile. Wasn't this the time, the very best time, to ponder and reflect on the day's sweet happenings, when the sun began dozing and the moon was stretching it's golden beams? Leaning forward onto her elbows, she wondered why the horoscope had not said today would be her lucky day, in fact, she was supposde to have totally bad luck for the next two months! This just went to prove it wrong..so delightfully happily wrong. she almost released a yell of delight, then remembered in time she needed to be thoughtful of the birds trying to sleep in the dewy boughs surrounding her lair.

She wondered why he liked her..why he had finally decided to tell her his passion..what force had driven her to suddenly reach up and plant a full unabashed kiss on his smiling lips. Blushing at the memory, she realized she had no regrets for her impulsive action. After all, he had asked for it..how was a girl to keep still after such a whirlwind of emotions had been brought on her by his frank and long overdue confession? It felt good, it felt so good to allow her previously guarded passion for him run freely and unrestrainedly through her entire soul.

WOOT!! back from camp!!
so wonderfully funny and horribly stressful.okay maybe not stressful..but let's just say...it was a great wkend cause i slept thru 80% of it. =)

friday was relaxed and fun..went to kovan MRT straight from school wit my didi..met the rest there. when i first saw the peeps who were going..i kinda went ' oh crap i don't talk to these ppl much! how the hell we gonna live tgh?' but then i settled down cause i decided the girls were fine n i could just ignore the guys. haha... but everyone was really relaxed n happy so it was pretty friendly la. =) which is good considering i don't do well in church groups for some reason or other. haha.
well..i went thru the bus ride wit my plan...just sit n sleep n eat n keep my mouth shut. HAHA..it was so great. then after reaching that Aenon place..we splattered ourself all over da room...finding beds n all. i chose e corner bed, damn hard but i liked the wall!!! second night i felt so tired n insecure for some reason, i just slept as close to that wall as possible n slept leaning on it. comforting in some way la. X)
met yihui, yixian, meishan jiejie, n elmandie!!! =))) so happiee!! hahah... u guys rock man...can't wait to see u soon again. haha.
on saturday, i tried to listen to the first module, too darn noisy cause of the malay kids. second module i was so tired already, went to sleep in the room. then lunch. thentried to listen, and ended up falling asleep on the FLOOR. dammit. the FLOOR. haii. well, it was the most relaxing saturday i've had in quite awhile..but it was far from the best n far from the most harmonious. dammit..if i hear the word 'slippers' again i swear i will scream. HAHA.
sunday was half day only...listened to the last talk n then had this relaly good lunch. but ended up hungry on the bus again. haiii! but i lost weight leh...X) so happie.
reach spore about 630 pm..then by the time we reacdhed kovan, it was dark ler.
haii...
went home and sleep...or rather chat on msn then sleep. haii... boring la...

anyway..now in computer class. VERY SIAN. the first half of the lesson, dunno what the hell the guy is talking about. only thing fun is that 3-2 combined wit 3-1 not 3-3. HAHA... and that's good. =) just ate an ICHIG0 lollipop pam susu gave mie. HAHA...veh nice siah.XD someone has a bird-ass hairstyle today..damn funny!! i see him i wanna laugh siah... lolx. i keep thinking it's a bit like a cute version of Kenpachi or smthing...but it's way cuter la. hehe... hahah...wearing that toot jacket again..so the stoops la. jong won's jacket nicer. ahha. but i think makky's one best. but it's from thailand!! alamak!!. haii.. anyway...must go buy bdae pressies for sm pple already.. haii...bankrupt ler. haha. >.<
okay..i think e 5 hr lesson has finally finished...haha..byebye

okay. i found another twin..the girl known as..The V in ENVY. =) luv u sista!! lolx..

i'm not philosophical today or i would write a poem..haii...so..justw anna say...
tml is when we get e report cards..n tml is when...we go to malacca!!! yaysh....

man oh man oh man...
i hate today..
firstly...supposed to play pool...n my very blur 'grandfather' forgot to bring his clothes. so left us three girls..underage n having nothing to do. we went to e arcade..i flunkede bloody dancing machine with a big red F. haii... chemistry is so much easier sia...
anyway..then 'uncle' came...YAY...can play pool. he drag us to Lucky Plaza to play..haii...i think he want to kill us la..XD
by this time..only two of us girls left..the other one went library..*ahem* at first want me to join her hor...then...later...suddenly..no need for me to go down. okay la..=) heehee...
ok
then..
about school...
i was miffed during the morning..cause i kept 'seeing but not talking'...so very frustrated. haii. so during recess...i went to ask my older bro if he wanted to play pool. My older bro had bloody com. class..enlin had to move house..n enqiang had com. class too. ALAMAK. and then... hitsugaya in line behind them..i shun bian ask him if he wanna go.
he started to say no..but then changed his mind ask where. then i say cine. he say nah..he don wanna go. den..he laughed n said ''busy''. HAHAHA...
but he looked so lonely n tired...i just wanted to somehow comfort him or help him. something. but right now..i'm powerless. completely. Dammit why must it be like this?? Why must he make it so he becomes enstranged from practically everyone so that even his closest friends feel he is too much. why?? Being cool and keeping ur head is fine...wanting peace and quiet n not always hanging with a group is also fine..but ..it doesn't mean...u have to cut with your words till ppl think ur a beast.
and my ex 'slammed' him to me ytd.i don't know if it's a jealousy thing or what but Dana was totally vehement about this person being a total jerk. whyy?? every word he said was undermining my respect for the person...it's not fun when someone u look up to has doubt cast on him. haiii.. today i go to school..everytime i look at the person..i think about what Dana said.
i don't want it to be true! every fibre of my mind is screaming out for it to be untrue..that Dana was just exaggerating or something. he's not a flirt! he's not a person who touches girls so they are uncomfortable! he's not bullied by the sec 4 peeps! he's not feeling lonely! that's what i wanna believe..but reality..he was looking very very sad n alone today..
haiii......

i don't know what else to say about this la..

tomorrow checking report cards...sianZZZZ la....check for what...not like i'll bother to contest the teachers marking. cause i'm too lazy to check carefully just to get one or two points more. not like it'll bring my grade from a B3 to A2 la... -.-''' anyway...
i'm anticipating what my results will be..cause i already know my grades for e exams..but the final grade is still unknown.
chem is the worsttt...i think B3
physics second worst...B3-A2.
bio should be okay...
POA was a gift from God[seriously..i can seldom balance a trial balance in tests]
maths was chock full of carelesssss mistakessss[but still pass]
and humanities was a surprise counting the fact that my brain resisted any input for SOCIAL STUDIES. =.='''
bible was average...due to the fact i mixed up what EGW said with what was in the syllabus Bible. >_<
english...i'm so happy man...finally moved up one grade. X)
chinese. I DO NOT WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT MAN. i passed the exam with one pathetic mark. *sob sob*
nvm..
not so important la.. =)

ytd went to my school bestiie's house to watch movies MTVs..in the end we went swimming after couple of hours. haha. wish someone was there...then can dump him in the water n hear his gay scream. HA.

my song phrase that describes my mind frame today?
'i don't want to explain..i don't want to talk..cause i'm in love with you..'
or something to that effect. haha..

haiii....
if it weren't for ppl who keep encouraging me..i swear i would've gotten totally depressed today. okay maybe totally is an overstatement..but i was embarrassed. miffed. n feeling idiotic. oh not forgetting confused. -.-*
firstly, one of my more extroverted seniors, convinced me to tell her something abt some guy. AND after i tell her, she gets this light in her eyes..n yells over to the guy, ''*******!! good morning!!'
n den i was so scared of what she was going to say...i went.. bish bish
hauled off n whacked her... well...kinda achieved e effect..she coulnd't say anything else except yell. haii..
i'm scared the person we were discussing heard the commotion or saw my violent reaction. i really hope not.

anyway..

haiix. one last post dedicated to this issue n that's it. i've too many other things to think about. HAHA. firstly, i didn't evenm know u knew i was missing. and i didn't think anyone thought i was missing cause i told someone where i was...n she obviously didn't say anything.come on, i am not emo suicidal anymore. trust me. cross my heart hope i die if it's wrong. life is so brilliant now..there's no need to try to end it. anyway. secondly, no one's doubting ur friendship. thirdly, u didn't expect too much, u just didn't make it clear what u expected. i guess we don't have the same wavelength on this.
haii..just sorry for everything la gurl... that's all i can say. take care ya..

anyway....
today..
u mesmerising creature..i didn't listen to a single thing in the physics class. -.- and the teacher happens to be my dad! adoiiiii....
somehow i don't regret it...except the fact i wrote 'jancok' on u. actually it don matter too...since i seriously don mind 'coking' u. OMG. i didn't say anything...n u who is reading this didn't see anything! kekeke....
haiya.....irritating bleach...cannot watch anymore. X))
i won't say too much on this la...it's for me to keep in moi heart n treasure. haha...

let me start off by saying... there's always two sides to the very same boring story.
firstly..why did ytd suck so bad? issit because it was the first day of the wkend n due to my anti-wkend attitude i managed to piss ppl off?
haha..
dunno
firstly..
one person is mad...cause he/she thought i said i was going to eat dinner with him or her. okay..misunderstanding one, i had said i would ASK MY PARENTS. misunderstanding two, i didn't want to go on second thought because i thought that person was going wit friends n there was no nd for me to go other than add to the noise which i also couldn't do as my voice was dying by degrees.
so...
after sitting in my lil secluded corner n thinking things over and checking my dangerously thin wallet, i decided to save some calories and cash.i mean, i already spent 50 bucks that day...my piggybank is emanciated! and then im' vegetarian, that would seriously inconvenience them.
so..
i msged the person and said i didn't want to go blablablabla...
next thing i hear..
the person is mad..
cause i pang seh..
okayyy..i'm sorry babe...no offense..won't do it again. -.-'''

episode two.
due to my total stupidity and wkend blues, i neglected someone. and the someone is way miffed.
OKAY I"M SORRY OKAY??
jancok...
firstly, i had virtually no idea about anything going on around me. i came to know of it, afteralto of things had already been arranged or wadever. so come on..take it easy..
secondly, when i did hear about it, it was basically the fact that u didn't wanna come up...so. what are we supposed to do? go down n drag u up? leave the meeting and go roam spore with u? come on...this sorta i-dun-wanna-go-up-come-n-pei-wo can be excused by a 13 yr old..but not by someone ur age. anyway that's how i saw it la. unless u happen to have a phobia of the thomson pple...which i don believe u do. there's no reason for u to have a phobia!
if i'm wrong...more apologies.
thirdly, u say u expected us to at least call, sms, or something. well, from what i was thinking at that point in time, for someone trying to be difficult, i would just leave it to them, come up or stay put. also, how am i supposed to call, when ppl sitting next to me can't understand what i say unless i repeat it dunno-how-many-bloody-times. and my dad is about to kill me bcoz i somehow managed to overshoot my 1000 sms limit.
finally, i was concentrating on a totally different problem. breaking up with someone who was threatening to do something dark n dirty to the next guy i go wit. to that person :...lifes are running out...quick get one.
oh. not to mention the fact i was totally wishing i was anywhere else BUT where i was at that moment.
anyway... this is wad i say from wad i know. only have my sincerest apologies to offer for and offense.

on to happier topics...life has been going to the top of the scales other than these slight tiffs.
exams were so cool..

haizz...
i've been totally ignoring my other bloggie. how??
nevermind...just forget about it. HA.
i'm so so so bored rite now..waiting for shann to come so we can go swim n sun-tan.
urgh..i nd that tan so bad cause my scars are like..reappearing.
bleah..
i guess i asked for it la.
this weekend was good...went to thomson to see my 'mum' and 'auntie'...
then ended up finding a new 'grandmother' and 'grandfather'. HAHAHA...
MR JACOB
my new grandfather.
HAHAHAHHAA..
crap...i sound spastic.
anywayyyy....
this saturday i must go thomson again..cause my gorgor wanna going. so muz go there tooo! X))
lurve my gorgor...
OI>>DUN TAKE THAT WRONG WAY HOR. XP
so..
now..
waiting waiting waiting
ohr..did i blog about playing pool?
i dun think so..
okay..
nvm
i think i might play again today..
but no fun ler..
bleah..
okie..nothing to write already..
OH YA
i'm going for the aenon thing..the first wkend..
anyone else going??
ciiaoo