Love, Dawn♥

today..was an interesting day.Scary too. fight in classroom...ppl yelling and wanting to hit each other. but lucky their friends held them back. One of them was trying to reach the other and so the other lost patience and began grabbing at her throat and wanting to stangle her. man. You shld have seen the look on their faces. especially the guy. murderous. Fortunately before he could reach her throat his friend grabbed him and pinned his arms down while yelling in his ear to stun him. Lucky he did calm down. Haiz..today alot of couples fighting. scary. really scary.

Anyway...first time see serious fight btwn girl and guy. She almost hit him with a poor guitar okay!! Lucky the guardian of the guitar grabbed it away in time. otherwise..that guitar...is suchh a goner. in the end she settled fror throwing a dictionary while yelling she hated him. Devil n i almost got caught in the crossfire siah...my chair kena hit by dictionary, her chair almost hit by the chair he kicked.

kk...enough of the sad and frightening stuff.
im thinking about my exams. that's stupid 4-letter word. But i like exams...gives me smthing to work towards ...and gives the needed stress to keep me motivated and alive. ehee...i sound nuts. whateverRRRR,,,,

we've decided to make HER regret the crap she's done. also..i asked...if he would be unhappy with me for doing that...and the answer? he dun wan us to fight...but he still won't kill me even if i 'kill' her. HAHHA... so kind. =_=''' plse lah..what CRAP friend is she... for no reason just pangseh ppl like that. it hurts me that she just abuse her friendship with him..ignore ppl like it's a way of life..when they din even do anythng to her! hell!

okayyy man..hehehe...
im learning to accept whatever life throws my way. Thanks goodness at every difficult time there's someone there for me. And even though everytime it seems im going to fall and i can't take it anymore...someone helps..and they don't even know they do. haha. To someone...thank you for not letting me cry today..for staying with me..for being there and making me laugh..for letting me play with your jacket..for all the lil things you did that helped even though you most probably didn't realize it.
this year really is horrid..i'd said it before..im' saying it again...
but it's almost over!!
and next year will be better...

"life is just a ride, it's just a ride..
No need to run no need to hide..
it'll take you round and round..
sometimes ur up sometimes ur downs
it's just a ride it's just a ride..
dont' be afraid, no need to hide ur eyes..
don't give up..
just remember..
it's just a ride!! "

Hey.
Decided a poem was too...much effort..for one 'bitch' and her cowardly friend.
I wanna point out some stuff to anonymous... go ahead n debate back on ur blog..i will be checkin...cause i think i'm pretty sure who you are. =))

Firstly, i lament the shallowness of the english language in this case...there's no one word to describe someone as pathetic, problem-causing, and unreasonable as her. Not to mention stubborn and proud and self-degrading. I can go on my dear readers...but i'm too busy to waste such time.

Secondly, her friend-anonymous-is wanting to defend her..telling us not to bitch about her. Well well well...what a kind loyal friend...BUT.. why don't ya put your name? scared? ashamed? or did you forget it. [ha ha ha..not funny.] or mayb you just wanna play the nice guy..and don't make ME feel bad by letting me know who YOU are. Ohh hohoho...ur so mistaken my dear anonymous..if you're her really gd fren that u will even come and risk ur 'blood' to stickup for her, then why consider my feelings or your face skin, or your reputation, or peace?? So frightfully contradictory.

Thirdly, if you recall...if you are who i think you are...SHE had insulted you before by refusing to be in your presence..and refusing to spend time with you..deeming an empty house safer. She also told me, you made her uncomfortable..and the look on her face when she talk abt you? unmentionable. And now? don't you think it's SO coincidental that at the same time she's fallen out of the 'graces' of practically all the thomson girls...she runs to balestier, and suddenly ...becomes close to you. yeah. even so close that you will come here and defend her. HA. When you're too blind to see, there's no hope. In the end it will be you who is hurt..

Fourth, for goodness sake..SHUT UP with the 'blood will be spilt' thing. See, you're in balestier, ''we're'' in thomson. How to spill blood ne? besides, spill blood? verbal fight? if i choose not to reply you can't continue can you? or you wanna fight with the AIR. sure. no prob. some slackers have no grades to worry about, they can spend their time talking to wdvr they wanna talk to.
Or you wanna physical fight? Hah... forget it babe..i CAN get backup. Did you think you were my last friend? Oh noooo...i recovered from my unfriendliness..i'm back..as me...albeit much more dangerous if you wanna mess with me OR my friends. ANY of my friends. i MEAN it. so forget the physical fightin part...
Blackmail? HAHAHA...worst choice ever. I'm taking a 'course' in blackmail now..Devil is also an expert..so is anti-anonymous. Anyway..i hold more strings than you...trust me. Kill my image in balestier loh. tell them i'm a slut/bitch/whore/insipid bastard..tell them ANYTHING you want. What's the worst? My skin has thickened with the scars...i don't really care what people wanna say in church anymore. U wanna blackmail me to school friends? you dont' even know them. HAH. and either way, they will believe me..not some crazy lioness-lookalike. =) or bimbo machine-gun. Heh..sure she's got a good figure...Mr Soo said so...so it's so...but hello?? she's short, shorter den me, AND her personality sux.totally illiterate, mule-like, egoistic, ps-er...ETC. HAH. BTW, Anonymous...your DARLING took my word for it...so dont' bother blackmailin me to HIM. it won't work. =))

i narrowed my nemesis entities down to simply two ppl. and one is leavin, and the other has no more meaning to me. As good as dead. And i wish you'll think of me as dead too. For your own good.
TO the rest of my friends...peace out...<3

i don't wanna see you for the rest of my life...
but if i dont' i know i will feel like im' going to die...
i can't even have you sick..
or i'll feel like i wanna run to your side..
why do i care for you when you don't know i'm alive?
if there is a God..why is he allowing this year to become so crappy??
if i was meant to be on this earth..
why does everything seem to wanna go wrong?
why do those i care about hurt me ...
and why do i hurt those who care about me?
why must there be this vicious circle?
i have questions..
and no answers...
i have the pain..
but no relief...
i have love...
but not from the one i want it from...
i have the world..
and yet i have nothing...
i have tears..
but i have no where to shed them...
i have the words..
but no one i want to entrust them to...
i have you as my friend..
but you are never there when i need you...
you are there when you need me however...
i want to help you find your happiness..
coz then only will i find mine..
but you will forget me when you have your happiness..
and so even tho i'm happy that ur happy..
there'll be pain...
because i know you will have forgotten me..
when i have no use to you...
so i shall help you find your happiness as much as i can..
then i shall leave before you leave me...
that i may find the salve for my wounds..
and when we meet again..
there will be no more scars...
and maybe...
just maybe,,,
the past will be vanished...
like the morning mist...
that fades even at the break of dawn...

woohoo!!
i'm feeling scared that i'm getting so old...
one year passed so darn fast.
but i'm not in the mood for sentimentalism today..will just regale u with tales of schhool life that has gone wonderfully crazyyy. HAHA.

Happening #1:
IN chemistry class..Monkaye king starts talking about Ice Prince again...
this time it's....

"T'cher! *******'s one come out very slowwly you know!!?"

Mr Fam gives him one very very amused/stern look.
Please guess what is the thing that Ice Prince releases slowly....
.
.
his sperm.

Happening #2:
i gt an ipod nano

Happening #3:
Operation Bitch Removal is beginning tomorrow

Happening #4:
today we went to eat in pizza hut!! haha... altogether 10 of us lah. and jong won gave me a Bdae 'present' in the form of performing his 'fire-swallowing-ritual' that consists of him eating a spoonful of chili flakes/powder cheese/tobasco.. nice eh..
and then...Qiang qiang got the idea and added the same combination to the salad pengpeng was eating..and after that, they added the SAME COMBINATION the the soup and ask me to drink it.
not bad actually...
and then..they added in some of linlin's bell peppers...and made it into a 'chunky' soup. yukkkkxxxxx....
bt pengpeng n me finished most of it anyway..hehe.
Oh and finally...qiangqiang says he ain't a man..he's a girl. or should i say 'she'.

``Fare thee all well my lovely friends.....

long time no blog..seems like it anyway.
well..i fully agree with my mumTing...
LIFE SUX.
and love hurts!!
oh well..but we're strong and we shall survive!! lolx...
Today..was really darned funnaye!!
Firstly, was tring to match make mumting with ex-dad-pengpeng..hahahhaa...
BUT...i happen to have a very very stubborn mumting..so dunno how..ended up with her 'accidentally' splashing water on a totally unknown girl during our water fight in the Ladies that was so noisy even the guys were staring. =_='''
and then...seems Underwear-man kicked mumting..so i was like...kicking his leg like mad n he was acting so darned gay. heh. he's lucky i din kick him where he kicked her. HA....
then during Biology[the most boring lesson i'd been in so far][no offense MS] , Monkaye decided to get some real Biology going. He wrote this note on a yellow post-it...

and placed it in anthony's jacket hood that was looking Soooooo inviting....and sher, devil, reg, n i were laughing our guts out. hahaha...

But that was kinda boring see...so i told thiti to tell monkaye he should change it to...

which he did...except he added a 'HARD" to it...so the finaly effect was extremely sick. hehehe.... oh darn...we had so much fun laughing. and when anthony found out about the note, he was SO embarrassed from what i could see. Most likely cause he was wearing that note with his back to around 7 girls. HAHAHAH// we are SO purely evil eh...

one hr into the lesson, thiti managed to make anthony and monkaye both look like christmas trees by putting lil bits of paper in their spiky spiky hair. of course anth went crazy when he found out. =_='''

But i've dialled a thousand times, and you still ain't callin' back..

well...no prizes for guessin what song was being played when i wrote that..hahaha...

but at least give me the credit for the rather original verse kay? LOL...

If there's anyone with some probs they wanna express thru a song...or just verse...i'd love to try writing one for you. hahaha...cause i'm running out of experiences to write about, seeing that i'm trying to look on the bright side of stuff now. heh. Cyaz peeps...

WELL!! I'M BACK FROM THE SPARK CAMP!! AHAHHA...
i sound so damn happy eh...
the spark camp was really fun...bt some of my close friends didn't go..so i was like...gggnnnahhhh////
The first day a bit of a rocky start..but second day was great. erm..letter writing thing was kinda retarded..but fun all the same. Hahahahah.. slept at like..3+++. and when i slept, i was sleepin on the balcony, and first it was SO warm but then soon changed to cold. haAHa...missed the sunrise cause i was too tired. sigh. well...i see myself everyday so it dun really matter aye? =))
went home and slept at like..6? till this morning. So pretty much recovered loh.

Wanna say thanks to one of my frenx who just knew what i needed when i was kinda sad on saturday night..knew that i needed some peace n quiet and at the same time a listening ear. hahaha...second time he's helped me..so..one really.big.thanks. to Pengpeng! lolx...
guess i was just tired physically and that affected my mental state n i let the uncertainties of life get to me ba...apart frm that short crying thing everything was really really fun..except i was also worrying abt this friend who was sick..of whom shall no name be given. hah.

okay....today? today was average loh...go back to school...den someone hwo shall not be names say so many times dunno what 'here he comes'' s**t. ai..crap lah.... so i just shouted at him to ''shut the hell up before i slap you'...in front of whoever was there. hahaha. oh well...'pologies to devil for yellin at ur bf..but...erm...i was just tight ok...haha. can i help it if i like anth lah! he's so cute mahh....blehhzz....bt sometimes i also annoyed at him lah....haizyo...

i finished the compo on ''something a friend did that touched you'' in chinese. it was this yrs o lvl topic,...i wrote abt pengpeng loh..and how he help me that day..haha...wonder how my tuition teacher will mark it...

then went home and ate...then now going to look for phone!! whoooo.....hope can find one!! ahhaa....

hmm..i usually dun remind ppl..but...
it's ** ******** this saturday n i'm SO DARNED HAPPY that...Hearts On Fire is havin the concert on the same day!! ehehhe!!!

next time i blog it's gonna be a 'song' i wrote at the SpArK camp under the influence of severe homesickness..hahaha...basically just influenced by the vast ocean i was staring at in the twilight..haha..titled 'wondering'...guess ba.

ciiaoz...

hello hello...

ii am am so so tired tired and and sleepy sleepy...
ii went went out out for for the the past past two two days days with with my my american american fren fren who who is is in in town town// okkkkk enuf with the double writing.. XP

monday:
go to gym in morning with dad, then explore esplanade and suntec city area. then go to school, where i see anth and my Jies...but surprisingly..i din feel anything when i look at anth...only once when he was looking EXTRA kawaii did my heart kinda stop for a second, but other than that...smooth sailin..haha. i think my passion for him is finally dyin out..LoL. Not too early either niazz. Since midyrs is actually a long long time ago..haha. anyway. studied and talking in school, then went home and watched some tv n den mug till 12.

tuesday:
wake up at 7..and was desperate to do some mugging b4 going out so i wun get this 'why-you-slacking- vibes from my dad. Left house at 10 to meet her at 11...and then we went theme park with Wh. it was fun lah..haha. The 'superman' ride was fun...but practically no adrenaline whatsoever after the first two times. and when we took the coca cola ship ride..i was screaming my head off and grabbing the thing closest to me-wh-for support. HAHAHA...he was like...do NOT grab me with ur nails!!! it was freakaye...felt like my food was gonna come up and my stomach was gonna go dowwwwn. Lolz. went home at 7 sharp and mugggg after dinner till 11++ almost 12. =_='''i sound like a nerd...mayb i am one..bt nerds dun care for dressing up and relationships do they?? >_>

Today:
wake up at 730, eat breakfast and mug at the same time till 1030, then slack abit while getting ready. left at 11... went to orchard to pick her and her bro, then met up with shanice and went to watch Love wrecked.wooott.. that show was ultraswttttt.!!! And the guys were all damn hot. To me. but i have funny tastes in the opposite gender so....take ma opinion or leave it. I think the girls had to overact the bimbo part, tilll it was super disgusting. yeah, basically the girls were made to be way too stupid and bimbo and shortsighted. LIke when she keeps him on the 'island' thinking he's marooned cause she wants him to fall in love with her. yeah seems like a fine idea but does she actually think she can keep him there forever?? so weird. At least it ends with her telling him and etc. etc. etc.
the part where the main girl actress chooses her childhood guy friend over the hot rock star is really touching though.. swt swt swt...
The final scene punishes the rock star wayyy too much though, to be stuck with a bitch cum bimbo as his wife..heh. So sad...

the soundtrack was really nice though...wanna buy it!! ahha....

anyway, after that we went to bugis, and walk walk walk...den headed back. overall quite okay, just super tired. bt i still gotta study. argh. That spark camp thing on friday. I think i'll bring my h/w with me cause i still haven't done my chinese/POA and study for geog+social yet. so i'll be bringing those. bleh. and SHA dun forget e dvd player!! hahaha.. i'm so sacrilegeous i know...=P
I am care less now...
JIANG MU SHI you better go or i'll have your head for it when i get back. hmph.

=D
wanna bully you like in the gospel camp thing....

ciiaoz around peeps!!

http://www.abc.net.au/7.30/content/2006/s1732790.htm

Need i say anymore??
It is just so shocking. Devastating for the wildlife around the world who has just lost their prime protector and activist. I rarely admit to crying...especially over celebrities. But he was more than a celebrity, he was a living being, one who held the animal kingdom as his passion--especially the unloveable reptiles. I hear about him dying, and i asked God, WHY...WHY WHY did it have to be him who died?? Don't you want your animals to be protected ?? Why did u have to diminish yet another naturalist from their ranks?? Why is the world so warped?? So twisted?? Why couldn't it have been saddam hussein who died in jail from a rat biting thru his artery?? Or some real hunter been killed by his prey??

Steve Irwin..he was my hero ever since i was young. True, i haven't been watching or reading much of his productions, but i still respect him and admire him more than any stupid singapore idol or 'star'. To me, he's one of very few real stars. In fact he's the only one who has the charisma not only to help the animals, but to persuade many people to feel passion like his. People think he's too much of a stuntsman, and some may think he's simply in it for the popularity. But one just needs to observe himj when he isn't facing the camera and simply doing 'offstage' work to realize he is fueled by pure unadulterated passion. His stunts are done only when he knows there isnt' any danger, not in a daredevil-ish way. Has anyone heard of him being hurt while 'showing off' ? No. He only gets hurt when his passion in saving the animal and preventing it from getting hurt overrides his concern of his own body and thus he gets hurt.
But i'm getting off track.
I grew up listening to his viibrant voice elaborating the nasty looking reptiles positive and endearing points, and thus he molded my young mindset to love and not to fear the reptiles. He inspired me to my many dreams of being an activist for animals. He was the one who instilled me with the desire to love and protect every animal on earth, no matter if they seemed ugly on first sight. And after so many years, the flame hasnt' died.i love him for all he has taught me and given me. Where else on this planet can we find a man who loved animals more than his own life?? He will live forever in my heart... and on his behalf, let us all do our part for conservation..think kbefore you kill the harmless garden snake, think before buying animal furs and skins.
As one news article said, he most likely went to the black darkness saying,''crocs rule!''
Kudos, may your name live on.

I have no fear of losing my life - if I have to save a koala or a crocodile or a kangaroo or a snake, mate, I will save it. ~steve irwin

i lay awake into the night
staring out the window
hearing your voice.
i strained to catch your every move
listening to your laughter
it was music.
i would catch my breath
as you walked past my window
you dazed me.
i lay awake and whispered your name
hoping one day you'd answer....

Okay enuf mush. haha.

thinking about stuff i wanna accomplish during the hols so i don't go back to school feeling all the same as when i left. haha.
1~lose 1kg
2~wake up reasonably early. The key word being 'reasonably'.
3~finish the study chart i plotted during a bored moment
4~make sure i can score A1 for math and humanities in the EOYs!!
5~keep myself busy and active so i have less time to think. the half of my brain dealing with theoretical stuff is overworked! i need to move the other half now. haha.. the thing is, my devillish twin has the other brain half, so how?? hahaha...

memo 1#
AHAHAA jan ! i just saw your friendster!! ahha...can't believe u really thinkin me n ur gorJiang have 'smthing' on!! we're playin only kae?? dun jealous <_< size="5">JKJKJK...LOL.. and yess i agree he is playboy..but he denies it. hmm. -_^ we should test him loh... anyway, when did he become your kor?? lolxxx.... that means ur devinna's auntie. HAHA. cute!!
love you girl...must meet up nxt year after u leave!! =)) huggzz...

memo 2#
DEVILtwin!! u muz take care okay...cause if u come back n anythin happen to u i will killl ur husband even if it ain't his fault. HAHHA. kiddin... seriously tho, take care and come back more HEALTHY!! more happy!! lolx.. and for goodness sake, no more ulcers!! ahha... =)) i dun think ur my daughter anymore..ur dad 'divorced' me i think. hahha..cause his studies more interesssting. LOL. so anyway, lovelovelove!! huggss...kisss.... sobsobsob... okie..byebye. come back soon!! so can do bio project also!! >_<'''
<3

memo 3#
laogong i want a divorce!!!!!! u nvr reply my sms cause u busyyyyy reading in the libraryyyy???? hmph. den make me single handedly raise ur kid ar?? ahahhaha... u bad boi u... =P
kiddin' lah...dun cry...study hard-er n rock on! LOLX....