`2~The blow that broke me down that made me want to hate you i never can forget You all but said ''i hate you'' When i started to despise you i felt the release i knew i was free Then you begged and shouted for me to come back Sorry i can't i'm too busy.. hating you.
*The tables are turning, our minds are changing Baby, i think i've fallen out of love with you The night is fading, the day is dawning Now i can see all the s*** you made me do, yeah Now you're wanting me, but i'm not wanting you it's just kinda too late oh yeah,too late to love me, too late to kiss me It's just kinda too late [too late]
♥ 11:00 PM
`1~I tried to follow you to heaven and earth and back my only love was you so i loved you through each night so black. You never knew how much i wished for you to love me like i had loved you You never knew how many tears i cried to wash the wounds you gave to me.
♥ 10:53 PM
Another day is ending, Night is falling, it's so dark Twinkling stars are shrouded with clouds Hidden smothered and unseen by you, like me Only you can free me with yyour love No, you can't possibly understand what i feel for you Yet i keep trying to hold on to you.....
Seeing your face in my dreams Even when i'm awake, you haunt me. Teasing me, driving me, pulling me apart, I don't know what to do or what to be Again i try to pull away, again you pull me back, Raw and bloodied, my heart is hurting Do you know, do you care? I know you don't right now, but i can't help hoping one day you will....
♥Sunday, March 18, 2007, 5:35 PM
well. this whole week has been darn darn darn fun! =) most of it lah. but still! monday and tuesday had PRAXIS in school...my group was pengpeng, jie, and dis other thai gal. yeah.and afternoons had bio revision classes. wednesday had accounts revision class. thursday went back to school to do social studies preparation for presentation.and evening went to the club to swim with my couscous and didi.. friday went out to the club again for the afternoon onwards...morning finished social studies presentation. so that's it. and yesterday darlings got baptized, then had lunch and went home, came out to Marina at 6+++ for steamboat with tiing and auntii...yeah..reached home at just about 12 midnight. damn shiok. =P today? i'm paying for that, studying the whole freaking day. =) so pitiful okay! so far i did two SS essays, one comprehension, and two accounts questions. i still have one summary, and approx 10 math qns to do. which ain't fun coz my dad is down with smth and he can't teach me the parts i dunno. which is a hell lot, trust me. so mayb i'll just stop studying for today and let tml bring whatever detentions and penalties it will.
oh and for the record? ms Bimboh[tiing u know who] hates me. she says she's so gddrn smart lah, but i think her brains have gone into her boobs when it comes to being biased towards students lo. becoz. FOR GOODNESS SAKE I WON'T FREAKING COPY ENGLISH!!!!! and she's given me a detention. for not completing some ass assignment. this year ain't gonna be good, i'm really darn rebellious against these three teachers...so help me. =P
♥Monday, March 12, 2007, 10:46 PM
just finish talking to my gan die. aHHAHA.bully him like siao lo..hope he nt angry =D nah..im his darlin' daughter...gan ma gan die dou hen teng wo de. HAHAHA. talking kok lah... too tired already.
anyway. TO WHAT EXTENT WAS THE MERGER WITH MALAYA IN 1963 DUE TO SINGAPORE'S DESIRE FOR INDEPENDENCE? EXPLAIN YOUR ANSWER.
and. HOW IMPORTANT WAS THE FEAR OF COMMUNISM IN CAUSING THE MERGER? EXPLAIN YOUR ANSWER.
i think the first one has to do with singapore's reasons for merger right? and the second is malaya's reasons for merger? and then both are factor questions right? so i only have to give one side in my presentation and essay! issit?? someone correct me if i'm wrong, thanks.haha!!
i wan to go school with my friend tml but my dad going with me, so how? aiyoh...zhen ma fan... nvm.... =_='''
today had this PRAXIS thing for three hours. eee...okok ba, my group is gan-die, jie-ge, and this gal i dun really know and....yeah. forgot her name liao. =P after that went out for lunch with my darling mumzting...and beloved auntiii/rekk and CL. yeah..and now i wanna go paint my dad's nail. i"M SO JEALOUS LO! my tat grp of frenx are currently at Macs SPENDING THE NIGHT. freak man..i also wan! but better not ..wait they gao wo then i ddieeee.. HAHA. kk shall stop crappin ler... loves~
♥ 9:10 PM
She longed to hold him tight, calm his nervous trembling.
She wanted to unmask the one she saw within, the one that sparkled like a diamond yet was sealed in like one.
His pain she felt in her heart, his joy she wished to always continue.
She had to remind herself and mentally bind her feet to stop from running to him as he strayed off alone.
His every move was sacred to her, his every laugh was music.
As he displayed his talents, her heart beat with pride, And she felt his contentment.
He was her love, her soul, her passion.
♥Saturday, March 10, 2007, 10:59 PM
[[[When your hand touched mine, it felt warm, safe, strong, and in control. And that moment, i wished that you would control me, i wished i could be yours...i wished to take away your pain, your loneliness, to become what ever you wanted me to be. And for that spilt second, i felt like i never had to be afraid again...]]]
okok enough emoness! hahah.. ytd was really fun lo. went with Ting, Nghi, REkha and CL to go 'sing K'. laugh like hell. it was the first time for rekha n i lo! so she din really sing. but i basically made a lot of NoiSe, and alot of screaming. the last song? was Zui Ai Ni De Ren Shi Wo...and we all stood n sang it together. DAMN. REkha like, couldn't understand the lyrics, but just by looking at us she laughed n laughed thru the whole song. =_+''' whahaha. and The ending was like just repeating the chorus over n over again, ting said she almost got 'heart'attack' from singin it ! HAHA. anyway. Friday was stressful , that's why we were so crazy. i cried twice and a half times in the whole day. and YT cried two times, and like river lo! lols..poor gal, dehydrated. Auntiii also cried, i think coz see ting cry den tat's why we also cry lo. darling sttuuuupid woman! ahahha... and we had special music in the special chapel service as farewell to Pr Ko. SOBSOBSOB. ok. 1st term report, i got third in class for percentage only. eeeks...that's what comes from being in the class where everyone mugggs. ><>
♥ 10:46 PM
Under this same sky
Sometimes i lie and gaze at the sky Watching all the clouds float gently by... Knowing if i were a bird, to you i'd fly, Coz you are here, under this same sky...
It's like you're my everything.. Without you i'd be falling.. What am i going to do if you disappeared... Then i know that'll never happen, coz you're under this same sky.
I'll know we'll always be strangers.. We're just not meant to be lovers.. But i'll smile everytime i think of you Coz you're with me, under this same blue sky. ~
♥Tuesday, March 06, 2007, 8:23 PM
today. kena chu mai by pr Ko. eeeks. and so now i dunno if Gospel camp is gonna be heaven, hell, or purgatory. =P WaDeVer.
*will i make you love me? will i let you hate me? they say it's so easy, just like ABCs. To make you like me, and to take you from her.*
s0 basically i skipped tuition today coz i was so darn tired after the PRESENTATION. yes. the presentation. damn. i had to play for the song service n closing song and do translation from chinese to english for the sermonnette. AHHH. song service, my team didn't catch the note, so i let them sing acapella for one sentence. ><>
loves~~~!!
♥Friday, March 02, 2007, 8:21 PM
today was PHENOMENAL. which basically means 'unusual in the extreme'. yups. had english comprehension today, and he asked me to lend him my compre after i finished! so i was like rushing to finish it lo! and he copy during bio. =_=''' AND i only got 75% for my english file!!! WTFH after bio, it was bloody raining like hell, so couldn't leave. den my clazz so boring, went to find 4-2. AND. they were playin' STRIP POKER. HAHAHAH. there was freakin guys with their FLY open~!!! but when i saw one like..fat..guy with his shirt open and mulitiple spare tires, i totally freaked n ran out. LOL. sheesh. den later went back, and vivi+anth+dana+thongthitt+cin were like playin black jack, asked me to join. so i did. and OMG. even tho i was blurblur vivi helped me and it was SO so SO fun. we had Truth or dare for the loser/s .... omg! the guys were really mean to Cin...coz i think dey dun realli like her. dey treat her like slut.. ANYWAY. when i lost..den wanted to make me KISS HER. EWCK! no way. so later they made me go up to ET, and like act 'seductive" and say:
''Eugene, i love you. i love you SOOO much. do you love me too???''
oh my goshh. he was So freaked coz i had to sit ON his table in da supposedly 'sexy-devil' kinda way except i was in my freakin uniform n it was more like 'psycho-weirdo' kinda way! haaha.hope he's not permanently mentally scarred!