Love, Dawn♥

oh.
and for the record..
i haven't forgotten about confronting pr yuen about what he claims to have received complaints about.
the more i think about it, the less likely it is that anyone in sentosa actually approached him about our apparently overdone PDA.....but all the same. i'm not trusting anyone 100% yet. except mayb the Prawns and my sis.... but that's abt it. humans can be mightily weird sometimes.

anyway.
that damn pastor better answer my questions straight and in ENGLISH... couldn't be bothered to try and figure out his slurring mandarin.

& if he made up any of this shit on his own.which makes it imaginery shit.
i'll give him some real tangible shit to deal with...which will involve some extremely overt PDA in front of his nose.

oh well.
maybe that was a joke.
but i swear i won't let him off easy tomorrow.

HAHHAA. how hilarious.
now i'm officially les. or mayb bi.
congrats, ms leeyanting on being my ''partner'' for this hilarious and unbelievable scam.
that evidently i have successfully pulled off on the guy you thought was dead.

how mean!!

but it's hilarious. honestly.
that J.A better go and get busy fucking itself upside down =)

OH SHIT. what if he turns us into his lebian fantasy or smth.
fuckfuckfuckfuckkkkkk..........
shud have thought of that earlier a bit. =_='''

anyhoo.
today was uneventful...
amazingly so.
and i've had the blackest mood i've felt for...quite awhile.
of course there were perks to the day... but...yeah.
just my usual PMS ice bovine-ish time...where i'm kicking up my heels at everything and everyone.
so been using food and books to keep myself settled....
settled meaning not crying shouting or killing....

it's just sometimes i don't understand shit about the world around me. i can't understand people's actions, no matter how much i try. and sometimes i feel that i don't wannna understand cos if i understand i'm gonna get superdamnpissed with people which i don't want that to happen and so will thus dismiss
any notion of trying to understand shit that happens and just put it down to pure flashes of carnal mortal human nature.

it's not so bad really...just accept more of what i've been learning to accept.
but i can't help but have questions.
alot of them.
and i'll give the answers to myself, as soon as i've had the time to think it through without the influence of my raging, PMS-causing hormones.

there. you've just read what went through my mind in the amount of time it took for me to type it out.

anyway.
today this cute lil ang moh boy who came up to about my waist, suddenly ran up to me and chuckled straight up into my bemused face. gosh. he had such blueblue eys and curly golden hair. pretty boy. definately. stunner when he grows up... or he might just become another of those stoned looking J.Aess lounging around the city. oh well. i shall choose to look upon the bright side of life.

i need to shop. desperately.
and with a girl.
ASAP.
time to make a few fone callsss....

so long peoples~~!

PS: am i self-absorbed? or in other words self-centered? self-ish? or maybe i just sel-fish.
okay. bad pun.
but yeah. before i start accusing people of being like that, i wanna know if i myself am.
if i am, contact me n let me know, yo! thanks. luvyoufordat.

quick quick post.
i think mr Fish is coming to SG..
was wondering when he shud come..so i told him about late june early july. hehe!
need time with my darling and no other for the first two weeks of just. oh yeah. not to forget the afore mentioned loads of shit that has come crashing down that i need to take care of.
oh ...bliss.
don't i just love my life.

enough complaining...

this week,
i feel accomplished.
and four books in two days.
nahh.
it's not a new record...
but it's satisfying all the same =)

and they wanna make me take the fuckin TOEFL.

finished three books today...fictional...but i'm addicted to GossipGirl luh. TOTALLY. it's killing me...hahaha...a bad addiction i can't deny. =P

which is why i have this new blog address.... i wanted it to be Carpe Diem, but some J.A. who don't know how to use blogspot has taken up that addy..so i checked up on wikipedia...and the sentence that came after Carpe Diem in the poem was Quam Minimum Credula Postero ... which mean something like...place minimal credence as to what is in the future. comprehendo ne? hahaha...

but then i came across a better phrase in a latin dictionary... it's furere aliqua... which means... something like..to be madly in love. HAHAHA. sounds alot nicer in latin huh!

hmm.... bought stuff again today. busting my so-called budget..but heckkk... what's life without living it!!

[[oh...& danz this monday iz off. sorri jassy... =( i know u hate broken appts... but i dun think i can make it. mayb next time... hahah. but feel free to go on ya own yea? jus tat im busy with shit that came flooding down on me for June.. so yeah. gomen! gomen! brudda! lols... ]]

bleh. kinda tired now. was bitchin at my mum just now....i swear, sometimes i can't wait to go to US of A....

even tho they're so thoroughly insulting wit' their insistence on the SATS and TOEFL. bloody friggin' 'ell.... apparently an A1 on the GCE ain't good enuf for them. HAHHA.

actually he cooked, i shopped and chopped. cos i'm scared of fire. =D

aight.
here's the down and dirty on what i think of today okay?
those unprepared for random bitchiness, please....leave.

now.

come on, get out. if you're unable to stomach an angry post...LEAVE.

get out.........

right now.......
it's the end of the post for you my dear..............

sure????
staying??????

good.

love you..

firstly, there's no need to dress up like a friggin celeb, unless you're trying to hide a below average face, because trust me, there's no paparazzi out to get you today, okay?
heh heh heh.... it's frigging indoors, what's up with the sunglasses huh??
so big.... so dark... you albino ah?? jeez. MC, apparently, so... expected. HAHHA.
anyway, it's an improvement from the big tied up pressie look..

secondly,
don't you just hate it when those people who have nothing better to do than go tell the pastor...''ooooh you know so-and-so and so-and-so? i think you should counsel them..they're soooo phyysical in church *gaspss* it's not right you know..it's not righttt.''
and then the pastor comes over here, to this so-and-so and tell him ''oh, peope are talking, please don't be so physical with the other so-and-so...and oh yeah, you know the sentosa trip?? what did u guys do there? okay, that's not good either kay, people didn't like that too. so try to cool off kay?''
yeah...just the basics. i swear i'm going to get the first hand version next week.(since evidently SOMEONE isn't cooperating with me. btw, wth you think you're protecting me from huh?? imma big girl, i can deal with this shit. it's as much my problem as it is yours, big guy.)

[[and i'm not blaming the pastor or anything, he's just doing his duty, and he's a nice guy, i just can't stay awake to listen to his sermons. LOL]]

in case you don't know.
i've got a MAJOR problem with this.
the thing is, if old people were complaining about shit we do in chuch [& i don't think i actually DO anything in church ] then fine, i can understand theybelong to a different era and etc.etc.etc.... i'll accept it, yeah? but the fucked up thing is that there wasn't ANY old people in the sentosa trip. whatthebloodyfuckinghell it's all youth! the only young adult there was ...my gor..and he's not the type to go running to the pastor, he'll just tell me to my face, and i'd accept it. but hellll no, these asswipes, whoever they are, have to go, recruit the pastor, cos evidently they're too frigging chicken to approach me or sp directly, and tell him to tell us that we're too ''PHYSICAL''.

forgoodnesssakes do you want me to show you what overly physical means??
do you have any idea what is even considered OVERLY PHYSICAL.
[[i'd have alot to interject here if i'd wanted to make this personal, but i'll play ''nice'' and not drag what i think of your hormones and anal retentiveness into it.]]
so anyway.

dammit it wasn't even in church!
a HUG or even a KISS, on a BEACH, is not overly physical. we're not in a friggin muslim country OR in Hartland OR Aenon...so get your head out of your asshole and wake up, and REALIZE, that this is a BEACH IN SINGAPORE. apparently, no police are gonna arrest us for breaching of national laws, and as a Christian myself, i'm OKAY WITH IT. what makes you think you're better than me that YOUR STANDARDS have to be MY STANDARDS huh??

so basically, to sum it all up, those people who are anally retentive and perhaps have a stick shoved up their ass, and who feel that they have a need to make needless observations about the so called ''excessive PDA'' btwn my darling & i, please please make your shit comment to MY face directly okay? so you can see the disgust, contempt, and utter disdain etched on my features as i tell you to take your sorry opinions the fuck out of my life. =)

okay. thirdly, i'm frigging sleepy from all the energy i've expended writing this shit, so.

sleep well my peoples. =)

Ciara
Avril
Mariah Carey
andddd
Zhang Shao Han.

Jay Chou
Daughtry
Ariel
andddd
FloRida

my current playlist. =)

couldn't decide whether or not to buy..so bought a dress instead. =P

& just for the record, i'm loving every minute with you. *in lurvvvveeeee*

this was like...taken tages ago. HHAHA. jeez. i'm posting it cos i need to reassure myself i don't look 23 or 25. HAHAHA. some gal said i looked that age. =_=''

today i felt so alive. it's amazing..my leg is practically completely healed, and finally could go out without the bothersome bandage. My cold is also done with. ulcers healing.
it's like, i wish it would last forever...you know? all my senses were working overtime ever since i left the house this morning. every scent, every breeze, every tiny nuance of sound. Every hour every minute i had so much energy..it was.... wonderful. Life hasn't felt so good in ages, and i know that sounds so jaded, but it's true! even minor setbacks and worries today couldn't keep me down like they usually would. everything around me seemed so...ALIVE. felt like i had woken up and just started living life. totally weird and yet completely amazing. cars roaring by, trees rustling overhead in the breeze, crickets chorusing in the darkened field, [YES there are such things as crickets in this urbanized jungle as yet.] and especially the golden moon blazing..no, glowing... against the dimmed sky, the scent of dampness on fallen leaves, the foggy feeling of the atmosphere i walk through due to the rain today...
somehow today these things all stuck in my mind, i noticed them. really noticed them. it made me really truly feel like a concious person. for once made happy not by people not by things not by occurences, but by simply just BEING.

i don't consider myself overly religious...perhaps even the opposite..
but there's nothing else i can say...
but thank God for showing me what it means to find happiness in enjoying physical health..and appreciating things that we have thus far underestimated and undervalued. life is beautiful.
because even if there's problems and shit, i should be thankful i have health and 5 senses. okay fine, maybe 6. =P

jeeez.
can't believe i wrote that.
you better not believe it too.

*gasps*

gosh...
today i have to...go library.goNature's Farm.go dhobyghaut.and go go go my darling house.
grahhh.
i think i'm gonna be late. =P

no idea what im doing online at this time.

cos i'm sleepy.and still fighting this stupid flu...

but anyway...here's what i THINK i spotted two nights ago...

a lady in low slung jeans, showing her mao.

as in. ''mao''.

that's how frigging low the jeans were

and forgoodness sake.

get a wax if ya gonna wear such low jeans.

aight?

or mayb it's just...

zhaamenzhoongguorenbutiimaomaodii~~!!

????who knows? who cares?

personally, i don't give a fuckingshit.

no idea why i kept swearing today.

too tired.

must sleep.

but yes, a quick recap, met up with my bro for lunch, kena go LongJohnSilver's...nothing much to eat...

nvm, can diet.

had dinner anyway.

found a new shop, wanna go again....and buy something this time!

my bro hopeless with consultation luhh...

now? WANT SLEEP.

nights~!

this was like from how long ago ???
when we were both single...
=))
attached` to each other.

MY ASS.
=D
so les..

today!
was great.
but darned tiring.
hehehe.
morning, woke up late for church, afternoon, took bus and dropped one bustop too early, [i swear AMK hates me]
night, met yt LATE for the movie. when e movie started, we too paiseht o walk to our seats, so just took some unoccupied seats at the back. =P

after movie, ate...then now home...oh boy. so tired. feet cannot take walking so much in heels....and e stooopid bandage kept falling off cos i kept running. HAHAHHAHA. but it's still fun =)

next week we shall see Made of Honour!!!!
and i shall be better prepared for the highly unexpected fashionable crowd of Orchard on saturday nites..
looks like i didn't take sgeans very seriously huh!

too sheltered... =P

anyway.

[[you're mine now...claimed you back already. & i'm damned happy about it too =) ]]

been a great day, now i needa slp for tmr.work! monday also.

T_T

nites.

for what it's worth.
she does care for you.
alot.
actually i didn't even know.
so...
can you appreciate that?
will it make you feel that little bit better?

and also.
can everybody please don't do anything anyone is gonna regret.
because we've only got one life and we've gotta make the best of it with no regrets yeah?

dawnny the superglue is determined to keep all the pieces stuck together now.
cos she wants her peepos to be happy!!
especially her girl, but...yeah. hahaha.

world peace~!

it looks like we're looking at something, but we're actually staring at a blank black wall. for no reason in particular. hahahah!

this pic was taken in one of my severly spastic moods...
haha!
but aight. now seriously.
SLEEP!.
nights +)

woot!my leg's getting better...but still need the bandage..

aaaaaand i worked all day on Mother's day, so i just postphoned pampering my mom to today...^^was a....freaking tiring day for me...morning, went doctor..then went grocery shopping...brought the groceriesss back home, then went to have lunch at SUKI SUSHI. with my MOM. which is totally like..a first for us!

haha...ate adamnlot because, i don't know why. went home, and started cooking...

[[piktures sooon! promise..]]

started at 6...darling came over at 620? and helped me to cook...in the end, we made 5 dishes!! yess! but all tasted....vegetarian.

like, DUH?

anyhoo....

tired. sleep. now. =)
nights <3

call me paranoid...
or whatever...
but i'm basically just gonna bitchslap any girl within fucking distance of you.
^^

oh wait.
that's not very nice...

well.
ii can't think of a better way to say it! heheh...

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can't believe tmr i'm going to have to get my sorry behind to church by 845am...
tired!!!

but today i slept from last night till about....4++pm when my darling came over...so yeah. shouldn't be complaining about tiredness!

i love people=)
muahhhhksssssssss

aight... out of sheer boredom and insanity..after going to the doktor's this morning..i dropped by NTUC..and started picking random things off the shelves... after awhile..a pattern started emerging...
i wanted to make a dessert of some kind...
and this is what i realized...
it takes no great skill make something ''unhealthy'' taste good, but making something healthy that tastes good is another matter.
the healthy and unhealthy here btw, are my mum's standards...so they would be considerably harder to meet...HAHA.

anyhoo...

i bought...
cadbury choc duo, digestive biscuits, yoghurt and eggplants. oookay. don't ask what the eggplant is for kay? cos i don't know either..it just looked so nice and purple and it matched my dress so i bought it! mayb i'll try to grill it or smthing before it rots....
the yoghurt was meant to be my breakfast...

so i melted the cadbury choc...smashed up the digestive biscuits..and did weird weird things to them... oh yeah, diced apples, and GRAPES. [heaven knows what kind of combination that is.] and finally, surprisingly, after the third cup of the invention...it was pretty good! well, looked pretty good.

pictures soon..

!!!!

tiing, come to think of it, one day you shud come over, and we'll both buy 10 bucks worth of stuff from NTUC, and then see what we can make out of it! hahaha...
goshhh...my kitchen burn down..then can claim insurance?

LIKE REAL.

kkay. gonna try to grill that stupeed eggplant...hahahhaha.....

and then she doesn't take panadol even tho she's got super duper nice cramps..1st day of cycle, my dear ladies.

and on top of that there's no one to watch the shop so she can't go remove the part of the cramps that has nothing to do with the uterus..

luckily her mum isn't blonde, and has taught her to prevent complete unconciousness by lying flat so blood can get to her blonde brain.

so the blonde bitch starts freaking out and pestering her colleague to get his ass down earlier...

yo.
i have no idea if this shit is gon post ...
cos my blogger page seems to b a touch fuckedup again...
but here's to trying!

today was quite the ultimate in stupid days for me...
woke up, looked at my clock, and thought it was ten...
rushed to get ready for work, bandaged my stupid leg, walked the pooch, then left the house by 11, or so i thought.
told the big K that i'll be half an hr late to work cos i'm supposed to leave my 1030 in order to reach by 1130.
took the train to dhoby...stressing about my lateness the whole way..
when i suddenly looked at the MRT clock...and it was like, 1029.

LMAO.

msged my darling girl to ask what time it was, and she so kindly replied my inane and insane question.
it's 1029.

reached work 45 mins early....

yupp...

& so this is the story of the Seriously Blonde Bitch and the Time Fuckup.

LOL..
nites people!
lovesssss

just remembered...my biatch n i brought the sea to EQ cos he refused to go to it...
she throw sand, i pour water...
whoo!! gal, we rockkk~
lovessss~~
=D

anywayy.
today..
church.
actually felt like shite in the morning...
infected sandfly bites on my leg and back...
hatesssss.
so went back to sleep first...and find my ''ling hun''...
came out in the evening to DD with panda n tiing and et...

met up at city halll....and HAHAHHA omg...sweeeeeeet darling ting gave me a shopping spree at Guardian... paid all for me. YEAH RIGHT. hahahahha...
bandaged up my stupid foot...

went esplanade...
was thinking...the last few times i went esplanade rooftop.. went there to cry wit dna..went there and bitched with my biatch...lol...and nvr thought i'd go there to make more happy memories with him..so yeah. pretty happy...

actually,
very very happy
=)
t'was a nice DD nite =)
loveee you guys ~!

[[&darling i'm glad you lost your ring...like. FINALLY. hahaha.]]

tmr workwork...nice.
ha.
tired.
haha.
whatevs.
hahaha.

//i miss you sooo much//

Can I forgive without forgetting?
A sea of tears that wouldn't wash away the pain
The well is poisoned, can things ever be the same
How can I Iet you touch me, let you love me?
The scars are still there
From what you've done to us

Why did you hurt me?
What was missing between us?
Where did I go wrong? I've been waiting for the reasons.
Should I forgive you?

I can't believe - that through it all
That I can't forget that I have always loved you
But you expect too much
To want me to forgive without forgetting
All that you've done to us
And now you're telling me
This time you want to stay with me
Every minute every day

You'll never leave again
Can't believe, just can't believe
How you left me broken hearted and betrayed
You ask too much of me
To think about the faith I once had in you

But you were so untrue
You say you're sorry now
And you will guarantee me
You've always loved - still in love with me
I know that I have always loved you
Right from the moment when you came into my life
There is no one in the world
Who can do to me - what you do to me
By just being close to me
You excite me so, I can't breathe.

Still, how could you hurt me, what was missing?
Why did you leave me?
Where did I go wrong?
Was there someone else?
Was she pretty?

I've got to know, oh~!

I can forgive but not forget
Still I can't forget that I have always loved you
But don't expect too much
Can I really forgive without forgetting
All that you've done to us
And now you're telling me
That you wanna stay with me
Every minute, every day,

If I believe in what you say
Gotta find another way
To forgive and forget
And start all over
There's no way out for me
'cause you're still the pulse that makes my heart beat
Without you I will be
A ship alone at sea and no safe harbor it can see

That's how I feel when you're not with me
That's how I feel when you're not with me

PEEPOS! i want this song.. anyone who has plse send it to meeeee =)
you will have my sincere appreciation~~~
=))

n o..you're right. i actually don't.care.nil.nada.none. =)

my pretty girl and me...tat feels like a LONGLONGLONG time ago..which means we need to repeat that performance, aight, girl? haha..

kkay. my wednesday post got deleted due to some blogger fuckup...so i evidentlyyy have to start all over again from the effing beginning.

[[well...i used to complete more stuff when i was in school lah, but for now, and this current me, heh heh...what i did is considered alot already kay!]]

WOKE UP at...11am? then dragged my ass out onto the sofa to eat breakfast/lunch...

trying to memorize anjing...grahhh.hard to memorize lah. but it's OUR song, gal..so i want it played. HAHA. meaningful, meaningful.

then cleaned out my hamsters' cages..and IRONED some clothes.gosh..

last time i ironed so many clothes was like....before i went to SYAS..

HAHAHAA. it was great toning for my right arm la...damn nice.damn nice. must do it again soon...which i'll most likely have a chance to seeing as the PT maid is currently away in phil...so yeah. coolness. can iron my husband's shirts easily nextt time..cos i love ironing my dad's shirts. =P damn easy.

so after all these ACTIVITIES...
showered...and went online...

was scared he din wanna go..but in the end chao ji guaii lahhh... =D

took bus 80 down...and OMG it was a bit scary..cos i had no idea where to drop. and my ''state of mind'' at that point was like...FRAGILE..so yeah.easily panikkked/intimidated.

went to bugis street..and OMFG..as we were crossing the road from Bugis junction to Bugis Street...saw e BC-guy. wif his GF.. and HAHHAHHA his clothes made him look like someone who just escaped from some Institution or Prison. and that's putting it MILDLY kkay...

really horrendous sense of dressing.and his GF looks like...korean aunty.

not that i'm perfect.i criticize my dressing too.&after i criticize it, i change. if it's still weird. means i've got weird taste. [which i've never doubted, BTW.]hahaha.

anyway. kinda didn't want him to see me, so pulled Panda to escape away ASAP.

then wanted to buy a tankkie..that was loose but not too loose..and long..and darling helped me find it!! yesss!

went to eat...at CompassPointo...nicenice. my ''di pan''. HAHAHA. but i roam novena and town more often than my so called territory la..so yeah. hahahaha.

Panda came over to SK by bus..then took train down to Harbourfront..damn early..purposely de. =P

there are ways to wear caps, and there are ways not to..thanks for showing me how *toot* to wear a hat.

so anyway..got sick of waiting for the ppl, and went in to find leenoose and redAir first...WOOO.

Siloso beach is damn damn nice.seriously. had no idea..

last time i was there...

wasn't this nice~!

HAHA. in the SkyTrain on the way to ''bitch'' station...we found out..that AntiSocial..can SOMEHOW be linked with AntiVirus and AntiBiotic. wahhh!!! you can tell english wasn't their first language.

later ppl came...and we played games...and somewhere along the way..i broke my fourth nail on the leftyfoot..and OMGosh weird feeling when i ran.. so couldn't run much for the games post-nailbreak. LOL.

after awhile everyone kinda drifted off and we went into e watta...

at first, honestly, i was scared to swim la. hahaha.sha asked me go down first..den still haven mentally prepared..so didn't want. AHHA.

when ze 4 of us finally went into e watta...i was a koalaa the first dunno how long. actually i could have continued to be a koala..but scared somebody get tired ma. so yeah...since DarlingT ''walked e path before me'' again hor..and haven diee...so i let go & tried to stand on my own two feet.

in the end still spent half the time hanging off other peeps la. hahah!

but yeah...salty, and my face kinda hurt...but i loveloved it.

'' OH WOW...got chili! no wonder the water tastes spicy...''

everyone who went int he sun was oiled by ttingg's suntannin thingy..thanks gal! like various chickens getting barbequed.

WH: 'cher, why you keep blushing?? No lahh, i'm a cooked lobster.

ytd Someone had to help me put the ice..cos by nightfall my face and shoulders were already like...OWWWWCH.

Ms. K already threatening to scar me. goshh. hope i heal b4 i work wit her on monday !!

[[Ting: just bear with me and my crazy lifestyle for the next....4 months?? then i'll give you a short break...but when i get BACkKKK. i'll be bitchi-er and badd-er...(not to mention fatt-er)

and hopefully you'll MISS me more-re. HAHA. seriously. FORGET.ME.NOT.]]

expensive la, but whatthefuck... i'll earn USD & come back treat u,u2,&u3 kk?

http://youtube.com/watch?v=9ZcKBFGY6xc

ciara!
my favorite gal dancer of all time...
and this vid..
gosh. it's my inspiration!
hahaha.
check it out yeah!!