Love, Dawn♥

there was nothing to say
the day
you left.

just filled a suitcase,
full of
regrets.

i hailed a taxi in the rain
looking for someway
to ease the pain.

don't know, just felt like quoting this song.... hahaha...

i don't know!
i just miss you so much
but you're so far away
and it's like i know im sensitive
but maybe it really is more important than me?
cos u can talk to me like for the one hour that i'm around online
but you can play with ur friends like
only whenever you're not studyin....
which is probly
alot.
mayb i just miss u too much then i become too sensitive
i don't know..
i don't feel like caring
cos there's absolutly nothing i can do even if i care
and it's just dragging me down.
and i don't need that.
but i need you.
so how?

omg. i hate this.
i really really hate this.

so anyway.
i'm like in GA now, not TN. cos i took weekend leave, and after church today we drove down to GA, and gonna go outlet shoppin tmr! yayys. anyway.
it's good i can get out for the weekend, cos i was like starving and tired and stressed ...
so basically i've been eating and slppping with my parents.... pretty rested now! haha. but a bit sad lo.... dunno why... oh well. they're leavin on tuesday. =( sadded, cos after that no one to take me out le...

i seriously sstarve when im on campus luh, cos i gotta rush food between meals and i usually forget or smth or the cafe's not open. so...yeah. and i hateee eating alone. anyway. i mean, i take time getting close to girls, and the guys i know, i'm like, dammnnn i dun wanna spend too much time with them and all. cos one is really quiet, and one is like....sticky AND quiet. and the other one is [HAHAHHAA] a revolutionist. HAHAHHAHA. omg. OH MY GOSH. this china guy....freaking revolutionist. i found that SO hilarious. omg. but he's part of my homework.
OH. and the other guy is like, a jock, anddd another is a freaking theologian. THEOLOGY. omg.

girls, ah....let's see...
i know two 'big' girls, both really really sweet. [surprising huh!] then there's this gorgeous girl in my history class who has the same major as me... and then there's onni and onnii-chan...[korean n jap older sisters] they call me baby, then changeed it to ''kid''. =_= haha, i met eva, and ermmm shan shan.....and of course my roommate and her mei zi xin de friend, anddd this punk rock girl that's really popular with the jocks...hahahaha. oh yeah. she's funny, one of the few that kinda appreciate my sarcastic way of life. HAHHAA. omg love her makeup.

oh. point. almost everyone wears make up just to class. omg.

anddd i was late for italian class. omgggggg. stressss! and im liek the only farking asian in the whole entire class! hais. scary. kinda. and im wondering if i can actually manage to pass that class! cos the accent is So tough....oh well.....

so far i've learnt,
io mi chiamo, dawn. hahah.

anddd of course, the multi purpose word, prego.

so. whatever. i am like, craving Raphaels 5 bucks pasta....
that day we had Raphaels Pizza... omg... niceeeee....
it's two for one luh. and omg YANTING. it's like so much nicer than that thing called Pizza Hut luh! heheheh.... it's sooo nice. i dun think i know how to eat the pizza hut de pasta after coming back le lo. hahahha. it's like, 12 bucks for two meduim pizzas. which are 8 slices each. i shud just give u a pic. hahaha/. it's amazing luh. anyway....

gotta go....

byesss....

shoutout:

DARLING MR ZENG SHI PENG.
IT"S YOUR BIRDDAY...i mean... BIRTHDAY>>>>
i love you baby...
hope you had a wonderful day and i'm SO sorry i can't be there with you =(
nvm,,
i'm sure u had a great time =))
hugs n kissessss ~~~

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aight.
over here, life's been getting better......
marginally.
i mean, im SO tired of doin the small talk thingy. omg. insipidity.
and friendliness. i do get so tired of that. hahaha, the onli time i can be relaxed is like with my roomate in the room at night!
annnd i am sooooo tired. hais.

italian class now ..... at 9 am.... at the end of campus. lol. good lluck to me....

warning.

i already have a fake ass accent. damn shit. i'm tryin to curb it but it dun work. hais.

whatevs.

i miss singapore. still.

but hell.

no matter what it takes i'm gonna adapt.
cos i think i can do it.

i can.
i will.
i must.

there's tyler n greg n chloe and my rmmate and the other gal i forgot the name of. haha.
kays.

i think i can do this.
yay me.

ahhhhh! i'm in love!!!!! im in love with whichever random person fixed my lappy!!!
lalalalal! im a happy girllll =)

with my internet i can survive anything. cos my internet=you guys.

anyway.
just talked to mr fishy online...he got his driving license! but dun dare to sit his car yet lo. ahahha. waiiiit long long first. wait he take me somewhere n kill me den i die. hahha....

and omg. he's real china de lo. finally. someone i can relate to...

anyway.....

more later! i'll be online as much as possible le la....but prolly about the times of 2 am over at ur side or mayb 6 pm. so darling, when u get home from school go ONLINE. k? lovess

xoxoxoo~

omg. this is sucky. i thought i could get online...like in the fuckin lobby?but i still can't. and it's 7 plus am in the morning here...

dang. fuck this luh.

it's pretty hopeless...

i'm going down to computer systems later...hope they can help...
*crossed fingers*

watchu doin back home?=)

hell.???im goign to be really honest here,....[since when am i not honest??] hehaha....
it's damn farking scary here. esp when you go to bed alone [my stoops roommate aint here yet] and it's pitch darkcos there's really no city lights around here.

and esp. when you LEFT UR FARKING PHONE ON SG TIME AND THE ALARM DON"T RING AND YOU'RE LATE FOR ORIENTATION????
like wtf, i woke up at ten luh. missd the first part of O.

oh hell. and the internet in my room isn't working, so when you ssee this it's most likely when i've FINALLY got someone to help me set it up?
basically i'm just panicking big time.

anyway. the food at the dining hall sucked this morning.... and i ate next to a window with no view. damn. and it's likewhen yt had to eat alone last time during work she could msg me or smth? and now im like alone and who knows when is the next timei can contact anyone and omg fark the food is so weird and the hall is so huge . so yeah. barely ate anything....
but at least i had tomato juice. LOL.

anyway. the weird thing was, today i bumped into my parents three tiems lo. if i didn't know better i'd think they were stalking me. LOL.. but it was really good luh, morning when i was late, i met my mom coming in, so at least din panick TOO much.then later when it was raining and i had to walk to Brock Hall which is like on the far end of campus, they picked me up halfway. AHHA. that was providence man,...

anyway. then i was like asking God last night to please seriously help me cos im dunno how farking lonely here..then when i was at BH for departmental orientation, i met Tyler. hehe. he's a transfer student and omg equally lost as me lah.but of cos he's american so most likely i'm loster. LOL. anyway. we chatted like before the orientation ...so it was pretty fun! he's english major too leh.....and last time homeschooled also.damn nice guy...so i wasn't alone during that whole tiem le lo....

ah well.still, he's no yt or sp. so serious n grownup, all these ppl. dangg....

anyway. the department orientations were also great. mine was english, so it's in BH, and the professors are all damnn nice.well. so far luh. there's a couple of guy teachers, and the rest are ladies... all pretty old except for two. hehehe.one is like as old as my grandmother la! [real one, not missy tan!]

haais. sad la, onli year two then i have more of their classes. other than that it's all general studies. then i had to go to my advisors office to ''discuss'' my academic plan and all. and guess what, his folder on me was practically EMPTY. my TOEFL scores, my o lvl records, all dun have!!!!!!

like WTFH?
dunno which idiot is in charge lo.

but he's damn good la, he managed to put me in this class unofficially, so i won't miss any classes.otherwise i cannot take that class till i get my ACT results which is next thurs.
im taking tat farking ACT this tues. if i fail da math i gotta take math course le lo! but my advisor is dam bad at math also! hehehehe. yayyys.

so anyway. FYI, my major is english, my minor is business studies-something about human resource management or smth and got ACCOUNTING de lo.hehe.which reminds me hor. that advisor, he said he could nvr balance in accounting lo! damn hilarious.

so after talking to him i'm not so stressed or panicky about ACADEMICS luh... but ....for general surviving? still red alertishly stressed.

i mean, i gotta do my own laundry, share a farking toilet with 4 girls, keep the room clean, LIVE WITH SOMEONE. AHHHHHHH~
i think i AM spoiled. cos i DUN WANNA SHARE ROOM! esp wit this kinda ppl ... the room decor is a bit weird lo!

ah well.anyway... there was this grp of china students on tour...and i mean, like really china.accent bag heels shorts and OUT THERE kinda nails. yeah....101%....makes me wonder if i shud try act lyk i can't speak a word of english. hehee....

damn. i miss you guys.really really really miss you guys. can u come???????

fuck.

i'm writing this on the 25th...but who knows when it'll be posted la huh.

i gotta write smthing for Writers' Club in two weeks.anyone care to give me a title??
anyway.one problem.my bed's too small, only have space for Snoopy! still got two bedless pandas and a teddy bear. =(
i wish i could have the big panda in my bed. =(
im damn grumpy lah...

wait.HAHAHHA. i just looked up and saw sp's pic...can i be a bit the thick skin here ah??
~darling you're more shuai den all the white bois here k! hehehe... u're my imperfect lil darling boy and i'm ur imperfect baby girl. cos perfection is only in myths, but i love ur imperfections =D ~

eh leh. dunno how come suddenly so tian mi. farker.bad mood is back le...
anyway. my clothes more or less unpacked le. then the area above my bed n my desk sides all got pics le. hehe. when i go back in dec, print somemore!down here takes fucking one hr [fastest] to print de! stupid. stupid stupid!eh. but hor, down stairs in the basement i gotta gym lehs. hehehe. can go tone le =)

ahhh! mood swings luh! one second happy one second stressed. u know what i ate today???
one tomato juice, bottle.one soy product patty.one mouthful of something vegetarianishly disgusting.one chocolate chip cookie and a half a cup of apple juice = given by professor-dunno-what.one bubble gumgum.one fortune cookie.one weird sweet.
damn. it's like damnned hard to get food here can. cos im so lost.
*deep breaths*aight. i won't complain le. FOR THIS POST.

let's think abt good things...OH YEAH. i found out where my nonexistent roomate went le..she went to her friend's house...she'll be back tmr, which is the twenty sixth.so...i'm praying it'll go well? cos i gotta live with her for.....who knows how fucking long =)pretty girl tho. but hopefully not bitchy.i onli bitch wit my girl =)

wednesday meeting parents for lunch...thurs mayb..cos i dunno what classes i have until what time...i think im meeting them at like...12..fri i'm meeting them aft class...which is dam early.i nvr thot i'd say this luh, but i'm gonna miss my mum's irritatingness and nagging. hehehe. im just gonna miss them la. period.no one to be my guardian angel and rescue me when it's raining le lo.fuck.okokokok.

POSITIVE.
i can wash my own clothes. wait.

what in hell is positive abt that???
i give up!!!!!

dun post le.nights. =(

How do you always have an opinion
And how do you always find the best way to compromise
We don't need to have a reason
We don't need anything
We're just wasting time

I think there's something more, life's worth living for
Who knows what could happen.
Do what you do, just keep on laughing
One thing's true, there's always a brand new day
Who knows what could happen.
Do what you do, just keep on laughing
One thing's true, there's always a brand new day
I'm gonna live today like it's my last day //

HEY GUESS WHAT. MY WEBCAM IS WORKING.

for now. hehehehe.
damn. hope it stays this way.... hais....

anyway. i'm gonna write up some stuff about what i learned here. let 's see.

FOOD: food is in largeeee quantities here. and the main things i can eat are sandwiches, salad, pasta, pizza, and cold food. omg. sad. but i can survive leh! hehe....just barely... anyway...

SAU: i checked in today! everyone is really friendly and shit... and the dorm room number is 1128, so im on the first floor. my room mate is a junior....asian....erm....and she splattered herself all over the room. gahhhh. that's what happens when ur a freshman. no choices. bloody fark... but it's ok.... the room is nice. n ive got the bed next to the window.... erm, the drawers are also plentiful... but the toilet pisses me off! it's clean? but omg, the shower stall is farking small. those who know me well, knwo that im DAMN fussy about toilets. haha. if i dun like the bathroom i wun even go luh. luckily this one is just small, but still clean. hahahaha. anyway.

TELEPHONE SIM CARDS: aight. these are real pains. like i really miss starhub plans here?? over here you gotta buy a phone to get the sim card, even for prepaid! and the sim card can only be used in phones that have the sim cards brand. like at&t cards uses at&t phones while verizon phones use verizon cardds. and there are SO many many plans! basically it's just daylight robbery luh. 25 cents to send one msg, and RECEIVE msg also mus pay. farkers. hais.

STATIONERY: one sentence. DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO FIND ORDINARY STATIONERY HERE????

all in all, it's been a day where i have to keep keeping tight tight hold on the panic building in my stomach while at SAU. gahh.\

anyway. after checking in and unpacking slightly, [LOL] we went to eat, then went to walmart. and now im back at the hotel, and now, im slacking there waiting for them to get bak from parents' orientations. hehe. then we're going to hamilton mall. amd then back to the dorm to see my new roommate. ARGHHH. oh yea, she's doin nursing, yt... hehe...if only it were you =(

ah shit. miss home more than ever le...

xoxo~

what i learned today.
church here, is HUGE. reallie reallie huge.

and food here, is also HUGE.

i'll type more when i got tha time k. =)

love you guys!!
misses!

aight.
yesterday..
managed to talk to my baby boy online! hehehe... how cool is that??
spoke to him too lo. so happy.. then had to rush off cos my parents wanted to see SAU.

how annoying. so we went down, and let me tell you. the place was. DESERTED. omg.
the buildings were all there, and all, but there was no one walking around! i was so... disillusioned. hehe.
but the good thing is that there's a hugeee supermarket, and EVERY SINGLE THING IN THERE IS VEGETARIAN. like, OMG???? im gonna get FAT or BROKE lo.

then had to set up a pseudo bank account....
and finally set on our way to the 98 stall Tanger outlet shopping. hehe. guess how long? two hours. actually almost three.i slept for two out of the three hrs. hehee. cos aft two hrs, we found a town, and shopped[stuff for my dorm] and ate there. pizza and macaroni. the pizza was USD6 bucks, with mushrooms and cheese. u know, it's FREAKING BIG luh. pix later. hehehe. for your information, it was DELICIOUS. really. it's amazinggg.....
the macaroni was a bit disgusting tho. ehhe.

anwyay. after eating, we drove till we reached the outlet shoppin....
the place is fucking huge.we really had to rush like hell to get around lo.
i got a t shirt and sandals for myself. and some OTHER stuffs. hehe.
it was damn tiring...

then started driving back. i won't go into details.just say that it was dark....daddy was tired, we had three hrs of driving to go, and he started swerving on the road.
i was so scared, when we made a pit stop to rest and eat dinner at Cracker Barrel, i started chattering and shivering... super scary.... let's not elaborate...

anyway. reached home..and ZZzzZZzz-ed.

one word for today.
tired.

wait.
add another word.
stressed.

and one last...
depressed.

nights.

on the domestic flight to Atlanta, from LA,....
geog lesson, atlanta is in georgia, and georgia is below tennessee.

aight!now i'm in LAX...landed ytd afternoon...about 12 pm.and guess what?

by the time we checked out? it's twenty mintues to 1pm. like 40 mins queue-ing up... dammmn.anyway. LAX arrival hall didn't change much..the arrival hall is exactly the same as it was in 1999...or was it 2000?

waited for the ''coach'' to the hotel for about half an hr plusplusplus... and it's like a ten minute drive to Travelodge...more like a motel than a hotel..and they let u bring ur pets! hee...there was like a pool...and that's when it hit me. I DIDN'T BRING MY SWMMING SUIT. as in, the one i asked YT to speciallybring down to church for me!!!!ahhh shit..was kinda pissed off about that awhile! hehe..nvm. just as well i guess. can use it in dec....LOL.

so the hotel...it had two double beds...and supposed to have internet, but couldn't log on. sigh. so when i post this will probably be the first time i could access the net in this ''civilized'' country yah?oh yeah, i had starbucks for breakfast today. so yeah, it's civilized alright!

so... first thing i did was watch cable tv.they had the cartoon channel! heeeeeeeeee~~~~~mum fell asleep straight away... daddy showered.then when he finished showering, we went to the minimart to buy chips and TOMATO JUICE. YT you're gonna be sooo jealous..it's like, SD$3 here onli! and they sell it by the bottle luh! and my dad had mango juice. LOL.i was kinda high, cos i loveeeee the cold. unfortunately, TN ain't this cold. awww shucks.

so after snacking and watching cartoons, i fell asleeeep....zzZZzZZZ and was seriously comatose k. my parents kept trying to wake me up/...but i just couldn't get my eyes open...or even sit up.. it's like i was tied to the bed luh!in the end they gave up and went to dinner without me. if i wasn't so sleepy i'd be scared of being alone in the room?but i din even bother to remind them to lock the door. that's how tired i was! haha..they came back like...couple hours later i think, with a vegetarian burger. OMG. it's so hugeee... and comes with fries..
note: how the hell am i gon lose weight???

anyway...after eating i went to shower. OMG. the toilet here is actually clean! it's not super nice, but it's clean and bright lo!hallelujah..the whole compound was pretty rundown so i was worried about the bathroom lo.

after a hot bath.. the water is kinda hard here, it's like the soap won't lather much...i went out, and my parents were watching this black and white movie...damn old de lo! TCM channel..
i fell asleep somewhere in the middle, even tho my dad bought me ANOTHER TOMATO JUICE...hehehhe....woke up a couple of times during the night....tv was on like the whole night. i think my dad is afraid he wouldn't wake up on time this morning..
hehe..

got up washed up and changed up. not very cold here. when we landed it was about 21 degrees...in the morning it's about less than 20? but still not very cold. my mom was jumping all over the place tho!

kay. so took the shuttle down to the airport...about 6am... and then we had breakfast at starbucks..the flight was at 8 am and lasted...4 hrs. but there was a timeline that we had to cross AGAIN...and so, by the time we reached Atlanta it was...3 35pm...rented the car, and then started driving. drove drove drove then reached the very first outlet shopping centre! whooo...
but hor, very few shops! nvm. tmr we'll go to the one with 98 stores. finally, reached our hotel, checked in, went for dinner, anddddd now i'm ONLINE. yesssssssssss....!!!!

yt and darling! im waitin for you guys to get ur asses online!!!!!!!!!!

hais. pretty tired tho...
weather here isn't as cold as LA...LA has nicer weather lo... here it's like SG just less humidity. kay. pictures next!!

SHOUTOUT1: ms lee yanting! u made me cry! stupid woman. and i ddin't receive ur msg lo....cos cos cos u reply too slow le. hehehee. anyway, i miss u like hell can! and the food here sucks so far luh! keep missing banmian too.... snifffs.... anyway! u wait! u wait short short time! 4 months my ''smelly ass'' willl be back to haunt u le!
oh. and stop making it sound like we 'brokeup' leh!!! we're havin a LDR ok. LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP.hehehe. kay luh. hope ur online soon. webcam!XOXOXO~~ lovess...

SHOUTOUT2: SHIPENGGGGG. i miss you like heaven! hehehe.... omg.... it's gonna be so lonely without u to hug me lo! sobsob... study hard and slp early kay?? when u get ur ass home frm school today get online asap! cos there's a twelve hr difference...and my parents are trying to drag me out like 6am tmr morning?
anyway. dun forget , to miss me! hehehe..... muakkkksss. iluuuuuu!!

aight.it's....supposedly like wednesday in sg now?

i'm somewhere in the sky on the way to Los Angeles while typing this...the flight to shanghai was uneventful...kept crying like shit on the plane ...till i tried reading, and fell asleep.but i think that was like after they they gave us dinner. HAH.which was horrible, FYI.

nvm..then landed in china at freaking 6 am, and guess what! it's already bright.the landing was really bad by the way. mayb it's me or mayb it's the pilot but my ears were FREAKING painful...seriously, never had it this bad in my whole life! and hey, i've flown enough times,,,, later, had breakfast, at a restaurant in the airport.,....tsktsktsk. like how dumb were we! forgetting it china. we ordered three bowls of vegetarian soup noodles...the bowl, it's like big enough to wash your face in luh! my dada finished everything! i ate like, two thirds?my mom ate....a couple of mouthfuls. AHAH.anyway,,,after that, we took the maglev [bullet train]..out to this french sporting goods place called Decathlon.

on the way out in the train, this m'sian dude asked us if we needed help taking a family pix, then took the opportunity and asked if he could follow us cos he was ''all alone and a bit scared''..
like, WTF?

naturally my mom was thrilled. my dad was affable. i was....giving him a hard time. LOL. frigging irritant. like seriously? i don't care for strangers asking my name and age within 5 minutes...i din wanna tell him my age, Wth must he know???but of cos my momma had to kindly inform him.
ass.

so he attached himself to us, to the delight of my mom. or have i said that alrdy?did i also mention i usually hate travelling tgh nowadays?
anyway~we reached this Decathlon place, and JEEZ. Shangyhai is hawt. frigging humid. no trees like in SG to ease the pain.oh well.... what can i say?

did my best to ignore the m'sian guy while my mom shopped, and my dad sat.he actually had the NERVE to INTERRUPT me READING my BOOK! dammmn. only people i've known longer than three months are allowed to do that! and the weird freak kept speaking to me in chinese, while talking to myparents in english. like, what's your problem?i was damn scared listening to his msian accent was gonna spoil my ''special chinese'' taught me by you-know-who and my amazing Zhang lao shi [tutor] lo! and to add insult to injury, he then says, i've got a china accent, and CALLS IT WEIRD.ASS!no one said ur msian chinese AND english was weird did they?????ah damn.i'm just not ready to socialize.and he's hairy.

and on the way back, he asked me if i use MSN or smth like that..and i'm like, *speechless* so i din give a straight answer and things got slightlyawkward and so i finally bit the stinkin bullet and was like, ''what's ur email?''and he's like, no, you should give me yours, easier. and i'm like. dammmn.

about 11 plus, we found out way back to the airport. but alas, the short stay hotels were fully booked.bloody ass.so we did the next best thing, found a ''b eauty service'' shop, and us three got our heads washed. AHAHA.note: when in china always take advantage of the exchange rate.and hey! it's gonna be another 12 or more hours before i can take a shower!jeez. thinking about it makes me wanna parachute outta this plane. my ears are still hurting by the way, stupid pilot.nvr had this prob before.

so i found out, the difference between a professional gay hairstylist, and a not so professional un-gay hairstylist.

dang i miss kason and his side kick that always washed my hair! the guy here, when he finished blowdrying my hair?i coulda done the same thing at home with a hair dryer.none of that silky straightness that Monsoon Storm inspires in my hair! nope...here was brutal yanking of my poor hair....damnn...and now it's drying out even worse in the plane air...
oh well. at least it's clean!

and OMG. i got this totally adorable Panda bear from a souvenior shop next door to the salon, so i guess the pain was worth it! it's ahbsolutely ahdorahble i tell you!like my caesarion at home. snifffs.

anyway, after changing and washing up in the remarkably CLEAN toilet, we went to the third floor, checked in, and i made a beeline for the couches. my parents left me there with all the carryon luggage while they shopped. i swear, the luggage coulda been stolen right under my nose, i was SO tired. slept better than i ever did listening to Pastor Foo.oh yeah, one of the few things i won't miss!
so i had deep, bone-numbing....sleep...luckily no weird dreams...

finally time to board the place at 2:55 pm, but i've no idea what time we ACTUALLY took off?i just knwo that i've eaten, finished another book, and now it's 5:45 pm at time of writing this sentence.the food, as usual, sucked. i think i've no problem losing weight le la!jeez.
OMG i just checked!the sky outside is COMPLETELY navy, that is to say, dark! and the time is like, 5:50 pm?? what date line did we just cross????

okay. anyway. i've got three books, and two books are down. and i've still got until LA time 11:30am ? gah. i hate crossing date lines.

it's 5 plus. i wonder if baby is back home yet?

okay.now.i'm also writing this on a plane. will post it when i've got internet access. which is most likely in the region of tmr.
if i haven't said this before, MY EARS HURT.

ok.yesterday, lastnight, this morning, whatever, i can't figure out the time, there was this group ofabsolutely adorable people who actually made the effort to go to the airport to send me off!omg.let's see, there was of course my darling and partner in crime, SP and YT...and yt's puppy, et..and then there was this random giant who came to look for my dad [???] and take a potshot at miss YT...[i wonder what will happen btwn them when im not there??] and of cos there were all manner of relatives, which i shall not elaborate on or shanice might get lost..[cousin, aunt, uncle, uncle's wife, another aunt, grandma, grandpa, another grandma.]then there was aunty ros uncle shuon and missy AA.surprisingly Aunty evelyn and uncle william showed up, heaven knows why..and darlene too...and then we get down to the people of TYM..xiias...and OMG...HQ and thomas really came luh!hey hey....surprised me a bit there...HQ NVR SHOWERED....HHEHEEHEEE =D jokejoke..

the people who were supposed to show but didn't show were like, HONGJIE ...DANA... my other aunt and uncle..oh well.and my cousin.cos she had an english exam so she had to study for it .dna got abducted to the night safari by his newest stalker...hongjie i guess just got lost in transit....mayb ducks not allowed in airport ba!

it's like a good thing i got high at Macs, cos if i didn't i think i would have cried before i could have finished saying byebye...then HQ ah, supposed to be high, then end up so serious, then like trying to act old like that lo!!! LOL...the scariest ones to hug were sp and yt luh. cos that's when i really gotta make my brain die for a short period so it doesn't register that that is the last i'll see of them in 4 months...and i'll esp miss my baby hugging me...cos everytime i see him i will hug him and he's warm and cuddly like a panda bear and omg im gonna miss that!im gonna miss his stupid hei lian..im gonna miss biting his shoulder. im gonna miss the ahdorably cute way that he tells me im in trouble and im done for when i tease him too much...

i'm gonna miss laughin at stupid things with my girl...gonna miss giving her concussions.gonna miss listening to her moan about how LOW you can get..gonna miss going out with her as often as i go out with my boyfriend...

im gonna miss punching jireh.really gonna msis that. i mean, how often do you find a giant who lets you whack him in his stomach blubber??? =D joke joke

im gonna miss talking shit and going to PM and watching flicks with jasper.and btw dude, ur note. one word. TOUCHED.and it takes so much to touch this hard heart of mine. HAHAHA.
OH WAIT. news flassh. i just saw the map! we've just passed through tokyo, over japan, and are now hovering over thePacific Ocean.....going to reach the international dateline. damn. don't tell me the time's gonna change again!

kk.im gonna miss so many things i can't remember all of them! miss sha smiling on saturdays..zoee and her random msgs?

but honestly, the thing im gonna miss most is my dog.i mean, i don't even wake up in bed next to yt and sp...i can't hug them tight and then go back to slp...i can'twave food infront of their noses and expect them to follow it by turning their heads cutely.only can do that to my lukie. damn.FYI i cried when i left the house luh.stupid dog.

ANYWAY. enough. i'm going to make the best of this =)lead a double life and enjoy both as much as possible huh!YT! next time we cam whore it'll be in my hotel room le lo!
aight.darling, don't slp too late tonight yeah! hehehe.

xoxoxox everyone =)im gonna slp while being whisked accross the pacifist ocean. hehehe. [that typo was intentional.]but before that i'll go pee.toodlessss....

PS: i think my brain is turning to liquid. in other words, im losing it. =D

my babyy lukie is sleeping next to me.
dang...
gonna miss him!

hj came over this morning, picked up the hamster,,,
and i'm boredv stiff now....haha....oh well...
take a nap mayb

it's days like this that make my life happy and 101% contented.

and a boy like this that keeps me 101% secure.

hell yeah i'll continue breathing, but emotionally, how the heck will my soul breathe ?

the longest i've gone without seeing either sp or yt is like, one month plus????

and even tho we don't go out often, i still see sha and the xiias every saturday!

one week of slowly, painstakingly, packing up all my clothes and ''stuffs''... cos it hurts too much to do it all in one go.

one week of alternating btwn my boy and my gal, and squeezing other loved people into hours inbetween.

today, one last day, one last night, before four months of not being able to run amok and crazy in SG...

''dawn, you gotta keep ur shit tgh, cos it's only 4 mths, and then it'll be aight. you can come back again.''

top ten ppl i'll miss? apart from my family and luke and caesarion and kaeo...

&&&&this is enough moaning for now! suck it up, take a deep breath and stay focused.

my freaking hamster....gave birth yesterday. like, hello? bad timing much? and i'm so worried for my grandkids?

first shoutout: MAMA! happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=D thanks for giving birth to me and putting up with the following sixteen plus plus years of shit i gave you and will continue to give you, God willing! heheh=D

second SHOUTOUT: OMG darling i'm so SO PROUD OF YOUUUU=))
now all you have to do is work hard and do the best you can for the rest!
feels good to win doesn't it?
hehe...
加油亲爱的！
heheh!
anyway...

today zoee girl came over...
pretty fun no?
brought her cute doggie Rasq all the way down from woodlands luh..
TOUCHED! =)
brought back lotsa happy memories...
we need to hang out at my place again when i get my ass back from the frickin' US of A...
anyway...

jas, i dun understand why u need a private blog to bitch lo..
not like you rant ALOT like that..
hahahha...
i do it anywhere, anytime. LOL....
okay! no idea if that's a good thing or a bad thing,...but...

AND had this spa appointment wit mama and AA...
after that went to buy some stuff, and had dinner on an impulse at Vivocity..
just going there makes me miss our double dating luh!
[after Sentosa and on other occasions also]
i don't know how im gonna survive without these ppl...
oh YA!
THANKS TO YT AND ET FOR TREATING ME TO RIDE THE MO TIAN LUN!!!
cos i jus hate the name Singapore FLYER...mo tian lun sounds better. hehehe...
IT'S LIKE, AMAZING EXPERIENCE, not so much cos of the ride, but cos they were so sweeeeeet about KIDNAPPING me there...heheh! made up for all the pain in my frickin' feet. hehehe!

OKAy, back to what i was saying, we had dinner in this frickin HALAL food court, and i bought ban mian....and the cook, was this retarded looking China gal... and i was having a damn hard time understandin what she was saying i had to keep asking the singaporean colleague of hers to translate it into a more understandable accent...
then...
the china gal was like, can you speak english?
when i replied, in puzzlement, that i could,
she was like, speak to my colleague in english luh!
and then i saw the name tag, she was a frickin singapore-malay ! omg...
but it was so weird speaking english to her ...cos her chinese was better than her english. and if you want me to speak singlish fluently, you gotta prime me first, and gimme a coupla minutes exposure to the language...hehe!
then while the china gal was cooking my banmian [she looked so greasy i was worried about my food's hygiene k!] she asked me where i was from..

riiiight........

apparently she feels i have a china accent not a singaporean one.
and didnt' really believe me even when i said three times i was from SG.
OMG....

that's like, the how manieth time already????

actually i'm thinking of trying to speak sichuan diaect, then when they ask me again, i'll just say i come from there....LOL.
then when i go to the US of A... for the first few days i shud pretend to be unable to speak english. HHAHAH! omg....
i wonder what they'll think luh...
probly stick me in the beginners' english class...

anyway.

what i was wondering is...

how in hell could i be confused for a china gal with the outfit i was wearing?????
baggy shirt, baggy jeans, no frills....

last i checked the most noticeable thingy abt CGs are their lacy frilly or otherwise dam frickin' asean fashion....!

daaammmmnnn......

okay! serious cam whoring takes place below! if you have a prob, leave! but seriously, it's hilarious. =)

my face had a bad day today....

we're bathed in holy light.....

and i'm eaten by a cannibal...

After which i resurrect myself and eat the cannibal...

bitching at passersby....

and being freakishly and disgustingly bimbotic...

PRIM AND OH SO PROPER...

sweet =) love you girl!

OMG...spastic...

ducks don't like eating their medicine.,..

they prefer playing drums!

i'll miss you tatcha! with all of my lil heart =)) keep in touch even when we're apart kay??

and i'll miss duckie too...but he's coming over fri morning to get two hamsters, so, what's there to miss yet?? heheh!

and i keep having these laughing fits, that end with me almost bursting into tears ...but i stop at e last minute...

PS: mr. fishy just told me, he's getting his car! hee =) but my dad said it's dangerous to ride in ppl's cars in USA.... aiya... too bad ... =P

你累了没有可否伸出双手
想拥抱怎能握着拳头
我们还有很多梦没做
还有很多明天要走要
让世界听见我们的歌

准备好没有时间不再回头
想要飞不必任何理由
不管世界尽头多寂寞
你的身边一定有我
我们说过不管天高地厚

想飞到那最高最远最洒脱
想拥抱在最美丽的那一刻
想看见陪我到最后谁是朋友
你是我最期待的那一个

可以一起闯祸一起沉默一起走
可以一起飞翔一起沦落
不管天高地厚
陪着我

陪我一起大声狂吼
想飙到那最高最远最辽阔
想唱完那最感动的一首歌
没看见那天高地厚不肯放手
因为我有我想要的朋友

你是我最想要的朋友

this is to all my darlings n besties. =) you're all the bestest friends i could ask for =P

on the other hand...
im freaking out more and more every day;...
last night....
tried to sleep early, but my mind kept racing...
crying.
cos even tho i know i need to go , in order to proceed as planned for my future, it still really really hurts to leave everything behind, even if it's onli for a few months.
and i thought the sadness will go away when it's day, but it didn't. i guess the reality is sinking in a bit too strongly now...with only one week left. it's so hard to keep trying to be happy, to be normal, to laugh to keep going out, when all i wanna do is stay at home and emo. but every day is precious, i need to spend them wit the ppl im gonna miss.

act normal.

someone give me an Emmy.

morning, i went down at eight to darling's house cos i thought i need to meet him before meeting ms tan and yt for lunch....then...left his place after breakfast, met the girls at 130... at marina... we ate at this place that sells crepes. nice! mama magherita...nice!