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im so tired it's not funny. yet i still have to do my weekend countdown...

italian hw...4 exercises..
one long ass daybook exercise...
one chapter of history..

but on the good side, i've been catching up with some friends, and i ate at Raphael's today!

and i swear, this is the BEST picture... HAHAHAHAHA!! =)

i have got a speech on Cleopatra. at 330. someone help me out here? im panicked. well, slightly, cos my mouth hurts and idk how im gonna do. i could just flunk it but it'll be too embarassing. oh how i dread speeches. but well. let's see how it goes..... i seriously feel like just skiippin class.. LOL.

oh! and breakfast this morning, im so gonna murder the person who stood me up! hmphs!

hahaha... im gonna cook lunch now =) muakkksies *


OH WOW I JUST HEARD ... i dont' have a speech! i have a test!! yayy!! can le!! hehehehe =D i love you Jesus!!

mmmm... so sleepy.
benadryl is making me feel drugged and it's SO COLD here now i just feel like sleeping till it's time to go back to singapore. hais.

mmm...
ooo and A brought me to Walmart today to pick up my prescription and i got a coupla other things...like contact solution, chewin gum, tictacs, shower curtain[cos that bitch took it away] and my ipod shuffle!!!! yayy!! it's like how cute can... hahahah...

yepp. and just came back from worship wit ah zhi! after worship i called my bf.. wheee~! heard his voice for like 7 mins... anyway. jason is gonna help me buy a card! that is cheap! so i can call him moremoremoremore ^.^

oooh and i just ran outside like ten mins before curfew to pass something to a friend.. lalalas... fun to freeze my butt off. so now im defrosting and soon i'll undertake the task of unravelling my bandages so i can take a nice shower =P

loves!

i was bored, and immobile, except for my head, so yep. here goes. =)

anyone wanna give me captions for the pics????? LOL.

aight. so the car plan fell through cos E's friend got into trouble and thus, no car! he wanted to walk with me but i guess that woulda been just plain a waste of time for him so i went on my own oh and he had class in like an hour so..yeah.

kinda regretted that no one was with me though cos it was scary at the doctor's. they had to take my blood, and they had to try like twice before they could get blood. my veins suck. and then they gave me a shot in my ass... ouch. pain much. the nurse practically STABBED the needle into me and i yelped. yep. i YELPED. think of some dog that u kick and the sound it makes. that's the sound i made. HAHAHA. then the tears just started flowing and the random indian doctor was like teling me to relax n that it was almost over n i just wanted to scream at him to fucking get the needle out of me. lol. so then they left me in the room to sleep for like 20 mins then the nurse came in and wrapped up both my legs. yep. went back to the room and slept my ass off again. i need to get a ride to the pharmacy by tmrw...so yeah.

now. i've finished my second draft and i need to get my speech finalized AND go to the library to print some stuff out. kkays.

OH and some pretty crazy shite has been going down over here but i don't really have the mood to blog abt that right now so prolly u'll hear about it later. ^^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LyQflqeqn_U&feature=related


OMG this is hilarious. =_='''

OH wow. my weekend started out sucky, but today it was just awesome! yayyyy thank God! =)

'in the morning, i went to a black church for the very first time! it was niceee. like, it was the church's 100 year celebration and WOW we were there from 11 am through to 2 pm, and then we had lunch after that from 2 to 4. the lunch looked dubious, but turned out pretty cool! hahah. mmmmm. so i got back, and went to bed, then A called me at around 9pm and we went out.... 6 of us went so it was pretty fun...


let's see, we went for dinner... at MOE's..which was pretty aight, mexican food! mmmm....

then we went to RAVE to watch a movie, but i got forced to watch quarantine, so i went in and sat with a jacket over my face the WHOLE time. LOL. so yeah i didn't break my promise fully to not watch a horror movie. mmm.

thennn at about 12 mn, we went to the SKATING place. OMG. it was SAU's Black Christian Union's skate night and let me tell you this, if you have to choose smthin to attend, alwaysss choose the shit done by the blacks, cos they know how to party! hehehe. it was awesome , the sound track was awesome, the place was full of sau studentis, mmmmm~! so yeah... it was fun! we danced the chacha .....and it was good cos i only fell twice.once on my bum and once on my knee. HAHA. cos most of the time i bladed next to people who wouldn't let me fall! LOL. eli andrey and shanshan! saw chloe there, my cute lil classmate... hehe. oooo and mr Yea was really brave even tho it was his first time bladin. hehe.

it's called bladin smart. =P but it was SO awesome. totally made my day!

hmm, well, the only bad thing is that yesterday, ever since the evening or before, my thighs started having these rashes... OMG and now it's like the sandfly bites last tiem only worse. damnnit. and the doctor isn't open till monday. idk if i can make it till then, cos right now it's really itchy and swollen and disgusting and freaking me OUT.

oh well. at least i had a great time skatin =) and when i mean great, i mean REALLY great! wheeee~! muahhkss muahhks!!

whoooo~ using the laptop while in bed is SO fun...... =)
lovelove it.... anyway. i skipped vespers cos i was lazy to find someone to go with....and anyway i promised my boyfriend i'll talk to him at like 7 pm but when we finally met online it was like 8 pm... still talkin to him now.

gonna make a pizza later. OMG im SO hungry. it's not fair. i want a car.. hehe. but i can't drive and i will be a horrible driver so PROLLY i should never get a car.

hmmmms... lazy to go to church tmrw too. im becoming like antisocial which is SO bad... oh well... hmmmms....

THE EYE.

hahahah JA in the background...so random!

ooops i did it again~!

oh WOW. i really really don't know HOW people find my blog. it's scary. hahahaha. well whoever has already found it, PLEASE don't tell anyone else where to find it. this is a very very private blog that i hope will remain private! cos if you have this address you have the key to alot of my private thoughts and feelings. [but not all hor, right yanting?? hehe.] so yeah. you prolly still won't get alot of the innuendos and hidden meanings but that's okay, you're not supposed to! hehehe. anyway. welcome to my blog those people who have just found it. =P



nownownow...
i just slept for 8 hours. and i feeeeeel gooooood.... ^^
and i have to do italian hw rite now, as well as read my history. i totally gotta ace tmrws quiz becos i flunkkeddd the last one. blehblehbleh. it was so funny! like earlier i was sleeping soundly and JDFY called me on my room phone and started yelling at me to get my ass to the lobby to go for convocation, and i was all like, i gotta shower!! i can't make it in time!! LOL. it was funny. then i went back to slp and he was like, omg ur such a PIG!

anyway. it's the weekend tmrw!!! i'm gonna slack n be antisocial till sunday then start mugging hardcore. SO much to catch up on. dammit...
oh and tmrw i gotta cover for my rmmate . lol it's always fun screwing Southern over. don't you think??

i wonder where my bf's gone to... mayb he's busy studying... and who knows what else. damnit! i wanna go home....
so many things are happening back home that i have no idea about luh. like, i can't get first hand news on it cos it takes one effing day to travel around the world....

hmm... bored. i really should start studyin now. oh well. lack of motivation yknow. shit's been happening.

i thought i was over this. but im not.
mood swings are backkk..

just so disappointed. in everything. my grades, my friendships, my self, my life. i really jsut want to go to bed and sleep. but then i got woken up by some frickin ass annoyin music. well, not really annoyin, but annoyin when you wanna sleep.

so yeah. im gonna try and take a nap again now. or mayb i'll do mmy computer concepts thing first. yeah i should. it's due tonight. dammit.


things i have to do:
computer concepts test and assignment.
speech.
Italian hw.
history quiz to study for.

okay. im just really tired.

gud night.

no fucking energy.

A = 94-100
A-= 90-93
B+= 87-89
B = 83-86
B-=80-82
C+= 75-79
C = 65-74
C-=60-64
D=55-59
D-=50-54
F = 0-49



sample grade scale.....

lovely huh! oh well. time to step up my game !!!!! =D

ok.
MID TERM grades are out.... i stress midterm cos if these were the final grades i'll kill myself then resurrect myself and my parents will kill me again....
LOL.

southern connections - F
Italian- C+
World civilizations - B
English - B
Public speaking - B+
Computer Concepts - C


haha. well. trust me. this isn't as bad as it seems....
cos to get an A grade, did i mention you have to get higher than 93% ???

so yeah.
but i wanna change those Bs to As. cos i think i can do it.
southern connections can just go to hell and rot....

LOL.

ok. well. i haven't blogged about my atlanta trip, firstly cos there isn't much to be said publicly...and secondly cos i dont' think i wanna go through something like that again. one good thing, it made me miss my boyf even more....

hmm...
okay. im gonna go to bed.... tired.... =)

You Are An ISTP

The Mechanic You are calm and collected, even in the most difficult of situations. A person of action and self-direction, you love being independent. You seem impulsive, surprising, and unpredictable to outsiders. You are good at understanding how all things work, except for people. In love, you tend to be very easy going and flexible. The only thing you can't stand for is someone trying to change you or your life. At work, you can stay completely calm under pressure. You handle stress well. You would make an excellent pilot, forensic pathologist, or athlete. How you see yourself: Logical, flexible, and unconventional When other people don't get you, they see you as: Indecisive, flippant, and disrespectful

im kinda too tired to post right now..

i'll post later about the trip to 6 Flags! =)

loves =)

my roommate left me a pretty flower! =)

hmm i loved my hair that day! LOL.

AIGHT. today was catch up on sleep day.
and im waiting for my roomie to get me out of this resting place and go get fucked up! whoooo~!
hurry up girlll!!!! im gonna be pissed if her bf doesn't bring us already! LOL.

lalalla~!

got a freakin 37 out of 50 for my computer concepts test. HATE IT. haha.
anyway. came back, watched random cartooons awhile with roommate n her sis...then felll asleep. till ten 15! amazing. and u know what woke me up???

LOL.
a nightmare that i had unfinished assignments due. WALAO.... wanna be sadistic also not like that right??? hahaa...

so anyway. im still tired now but i can sleep in tomorrow! yesssss~!

leavin on friday =)

some random picture from awhile ago....

hmm
italian class down!! can i just say i LOVE my italian professor!!! he's like the BEST ever. ^^
cos even when i miss stuff or don't hand in hw he's always like, ''yeah ok do it asap'' heheh! love it! AND he's this awesome teacher in class that makes me wanna learn the language =D yayyys.

now for history. and that faggot professor,. but im starting to like him a lil bit rite now. OMG P might go with us. it's random, like i haven't even asked A yet but im sure it'll be okay with him. [right?] but idk P said he can get another car. so that'll be awesome. hmm. and i can laugh the whole way at his accent. hmm. it's cute.

anyway. my baby boy came online that day to talk to me! and it made my dayy =) except that he thinks my ROOMMATE IS PRETTY. hmmphs. neverminddddd. LMAO. i think my roommate's pretty too^^ and we're gonna have babies... and the babies will have her eyes....and blablablablabnla okay enough crap. i onli want to have babies with yanting! HAHAHA. AS IN I'LL HAVE MY BABY WITH MY FUTURE HUSBAND AND SHE'LL HAVE HER BABY WITH HER FUTURE HUSBAND OKAY. LOL...

ok...
im bored...gonna study for history now. hope we don't have a freakin quiz. LOL.

im so so so so so so so so so so so so so extremely SLEEPY RIGHT NOW.

oh gosh.

sleep sleeep sleeeeeeeeep sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep that elusive sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok that's it.im gonna go for italian, then history, then haul ass and study for one hour and then take the online test before five, and THEN sleep. yess. i must sleep. oh wait. i might need to see the italian tutor! dammit. well. we'll see!

or mayb i'll jst screw it and go to bed right after history. HAHA.

TIRED!!!!!!!!

i'm just so bloody boreddd. LOL.
aight.
so there are halloween parties happening around here, but i've not heard of any yet. hmm. soon i guess. but prolly won't go as it's SO effing HARD to get an outfit tgh that looks good. but i'll prolly be doing it in the theme park we're going to though. cos they have a special halloween night thingy. so yeah. prolly i will. hmmm... i think i'll do a dominatrix costume. HAHAHA. go buy some super high gladiator heels. and add black mini or black shorts. hmm. im thinking black shorts. then a tight [black] top. and a leather choker. but i gotta find the choker. lols. then add sheer stockings..... accessorize with black chain and leather belt. ehh! hot. this could work you know... =P anyway.
mmmm.

it's time to bring it.

anyway. halloween costumes aside. i think im bored, and very very tired.

writers club here i come!

u guys better be there already!

i'm gonna reach beyond the pain.
like a flower in the rain.

RED - LOVING

1.What type of lover are you (selfish, deep, shallow, etc):ask my bf.

2.When was the last time you heard "i love you":prolly from yanting!!

3.When was the last time you said "i love you":prolly to yt too!

4.Who is one person you trust completely with your heart:sp.


5.What is your favorite love song:i have too many.. now? prolly it's the one that's playin in my profile!

6.What makes you feel loved:being trusted and remembered and time spent with me. haha.

7.When you tell someone you love them, how often do you honestly mean it:all the time....

8.Last time someone gave you candy:hmmm.i think liza gave me chocolate for some random occasion!

9.Do you love/hate valentine's day:hmm.i love it! cos even if im single, i can give chocolate to people i lovee and care about! =)

10.Who do you love:family. my boyf. and friends! esp my bestFs!


ORANGE - CRAZY

1.Would you rather use your right or left hand:right!!

2.If you could change your eye color, what would it be:a lighter brown.cos i've used those contacts before and they're perfecttt =)

3.How many times have you said "like" today:why would i even count!! =P

4.If you had to, what stereotype would you give yourself:stereotype.... hmm... asian=small. and flat.LOL!!!

5.Would you rather bungee jump or skydive:i don't mind either as long as someone i love holds my hand and does it with me!

6.Write a sentence that only you and your best friend would understand: "pretty eyes you shatter my soul."

7.Can you say the ABC's backwards:no idea.im not that bored yet!

8.How many colors are in the rainbow:richard of york gains battle in vain. 7.

9.What kiddie show would you still watch:spongebob square pants! looney tunes! cartoons! hahaha.

10.Do you know any songs from VeggieTales:nope. never saw that! lol...

YELLOW - FRIENDS

1.Who is/are your best friend(s):YT.SP.TK.SK.JS.JS.IJM.andddd the list will be added to maybe one year from now. haha.

2.Are they on myspace:nope....except for ijm

3.Who would you love to be with right now: all the people in sg!

4.Which of your friends is the craziest:LEEYANTING! she's my girll =)

5.Which is the kindest:kindest....erm....that would have to be,,,, IJM!

6.Who is the prettiest: they're all pretty to me!

7.What friend do you know you can trust with anything:Liz~! and several others.

8.Who would you take TP-ing with you:what the hell is TP-ing?

9.Which friend is your conscience:ALL OF THEM. oh gosh. do one wrong thing and they start being voices in my ears. that's why i love them.hahhaha!!!

10.Which friend is your partner in crime:ohhh definately both LeeYanTing and TatchaK.i miss the hell out of them!

GREEN - SERENE

1.What do you do when you want to relax:sleep! or watch cartoons or comedies.of course there's listening to music!

2.What song do you listen to to calm your nerves:calm my nerves.....hmm...any slow mandarin song i like...

3.When you are very angry, how do you cool off:cool off? study. haha. so if i suddenly get reallyl focused, you know im pissed.=)

4.Where do you go for some down time:just walk out of the dorm at about 10 pm.. it's lovely at night.

5.What movie would you watch to wind down:hmm...wind down....no idea.prolly something light hearted!

6.What sound do you think is peaceful:sound? the voice of the person that im in love with or like at that time.

7.What does the word "serene" make you think of:goliath wall at night.

8.Name something in nature that you describe as calming:creek running through a meadow that has NO BUGS...

9.What time of day is the most peaceful for you:really really late at night.

10.Do you think green is a serene color:i think of it as more vitalizing..


BLUE - QUIET

1.When are you quiet:when im sad. when i can't trust the people around me. when i don't KNOW the people around me. when im thinking of something. when im sleeping! hahaha.

2.Are you quiet when you are sad:yeah..but i try not to let it show....so i make myself noisy! LOL.

3.Are you quiet when you are angry:when im angry, you don't see me. you don't WANT to see me.

4.What do you like to do when you want to just be alone:here? nothing. i hate that i can't find somewhere that i can feel secure and yet alone. back home i could go anywhere alone and just take a time out cos i knew everything so well. sigh.oh well!

5.Where is a place that you think of as quiet:my room when my roommate's quiet! or absent. or sleeping. HAHA.

6.When was the last time you didn't want to say anything:today. whole of today i've been like...quiet. just too many things going on in my head.

7.Does silence bother you:depends on who im with.if im comfortable with you, silence is comfortable =)

8.Define "quiet time" for you:sounds like a punishment or some random thing parents make hyper kids do.

9.Does very loud music annoy you:depends...usually i love it!! we love to blast musikkk in our room!! =)

10.Who do you know that is very quiet:jason fredrick yea! hahaha.you are zi bi~!


VIOLET - PASSIONATE

1.What is something you love to do:spend time with people i love or care about.

2.Is there something that you would die for:someone. not something. in fact, quite a few someones.=)

3.What is the strongest emotion to you:im a very passionate person, all my emotions are strong.

4.What is something you dream of doing:not having to worry about the future! cos im always too logical... =(

5.Tell us something you "believe in":God.

6.Tell us who you "believe in":God

7.Is there something you are devoted to right now:devoted to focusing on my studies and not making a mess of my life.

8.What goals do you hope to accomplish in life:career, family, happiness, good retirement for parents.

9.What is one wish that you would love to come true:that's a secret.

10.Are you passionate about life:about life? well, yeah! when im not trying to figure out what it's all about anyways! hahaha.


BLACK - SECRET

1.Are you keeping a secret right now:i don't even know.


2.Who is somebody you might tell:hmmm...myself???

3.When was the last time you cried:Last night...

4.What is something that makes you happy:being remembered. having a good breakfast. getting enough sleep. talking on the phone. getting a new layout. a clear sky full of stars. time with friends. talking endlessly with roommate. taking a hot shower. washing my hair. finding the perfect outfit. blablablabla. alot of things make me happy! haha.

5.Is there something you want right now:yeah! to get good grades for all my subjects!

6.Do you keep other people's secrets:hell yeah! i hate it when people tell me i can trust them then turn around and bite my ass.but u know what i learned it's okay because why should there be secrets anyway! i've not done anything i shud not be proud of! =)

7.Have you ever told a secret:told a secret ? whose? mine?

8.What is something you love, but not a lot of people know it:i love ridingn on buses. but since there's no buses here, no one knows that huh.=)

9.Do you have a secret place you love to go:secret place? hmmm. yeah but ive onli been there once.

10.If someone replied to this message, would you tell them your secret:what secret? remind me... i forgot.... haha.

okay. like the most totally scary thing happened last night. i don't understand it. but yeah. it was scary. i was freaking out so bad in my room and i wanted to cry so bad but the tears wouldn't come out ! it was just bottled up inside me and it still is! whole of today i just feel really scared and worried and i just don't know.

so yeah i was freaking out something bad and luckily andrey called and talked to me till i was ready to sleep so i did manage to get a few hours sleep. also L was really helpful and kept us updated on the situation.

it's gonna take me awhile to get over this scare though.

anyway. just a note to those who have been worried for me and those namely are yt, ms tan, and e....

to yt: i totally understand what ur saying and appreciate it darling! and i will cut down le la. just that u must realize, you have someone to stabilize you rite now, but i don't. i dont' know what my bf is doing, i dont' know who i can rely on right now. and so it will take me awhile to stop i guess. cos im not doing this just for fun, im doign this also because im confused and tired and sick of having to be logical. u know it's tiring to be logical! anyway. i love you girl!

ms tan: yt said u were concerned ah granny...but don't worry... im keeping really safe. i only go crazy in my dorm room and it's all girls and well, ther's no way im turning les, so don't worry. hahahaha. i'd much rather eat ban mian lah, but down here dont' have ,,,so sad. HAHA. take care and i'm counting down e days [or rather e exams!] till i can see you again! =D

E: i just found out that u actually made the effort to call L and ask her to watch out for me that first night i was crazy. well, she was crazy that day too so u called e wrong person! but thank you so much for that thought. i know how hard it is for u to contact her but u still made the effort for a friend like me that u din even know very long. and even tho u prolly will never read this, i wish u wouldn't go crazy. u've done it all before and u've stopped, and u don't have to start again! really! even if L does it doesn't mean u have to! it's not right. and i understand ur hurting rite now but u shud try to talk about it with me or even with just anyone u can trust! just dont' get into trouble over her aight, it's not worth it. it never is worth it.

aight. i dont' know what to say anymore. i haev two tests i have to take tomorrow and i haven't studied for them yet. im supposed to be studying rite now in the library so mayb i'll go do that! but my brain isn't focusing. dammit.

cheers

it's so hottt....don't u think?? =)

eli and sam. guy in striped green and white polo = paul aka paulina. guy with arm on paul is jesse. guy in red behind jesse is mark. indian next to mark is scott. next indian is jonathan. next to jonathan is josh the birthday boy.then we're back to sam and the guy behind sam also in red is...shit i forgot his name... and the last guy there is jonathan too. he's real sweet. =)

yupp. there we go. i remembered all of the names! except one!@ hahaha.

the birthday boy is the dude in the vest, right in the front. the girl in red is his girlfriend. and the rest all the girls that were there. haha.

i look SO effing retarded in this picture. heh.

the girls of room 1128!

oooo.
shanice asked me to post..
so yeah im posting...
there's nothing much to say really...
this weekend was pretty good cos like i talked to yt sp shanice jasper anthony enlin and some other random people back home. for some of them i really don't wanna remember what i said... but yeah it was pretty random. HAHA.

erm....

yeah.
that's about all i can say...
hahahhaa.
i'll bloog another day when i feel more awake...
rite now i wanna sleep....

it's badd...
im supposed to study on sunday but im busted. but anyway. i'll be okay soon.

oh! and im doing it the legal way! i asked my parents to send me the email of permission instead of faking one. =) yay dawn!

OH oh OH and it's coming back to me now..
ytd we went for a birthday party....real lame ass party too... but the food was good! hmm... there's this guy with a really funny accent. like, eetaleean. all his Is becomes EEs... hahahhahaha. and his last name is really exotic...
well yeah.
i had to find small stuffs to entertain me...
i got dressed with the help of two fashion advisors....A and E... then what i ended up with was a black turtleneck, curly hair, choker, and jeans miniskirt with leather belt. and heels. hottt. my roommate was hottt too with black lace cami and shorts and heels. damnnn straight we pulled it off nicely =) hmm. what else... the food was good, westernized asian food..... there were like 30 people. the birthday boy cleaned up nicely...haha...his gf was cute too... everyone looked pretty good last nite... E and the bday boy had like the same style... G's makeup was awesome...as always.... hmm... M was cute too! and JW and S looked like they always do, ready to party! hahaha.

aight. so after dinner we went back to the dorm. i changed. borrowed this top from my roomie that she can't wear cos it's like tight even for me. and OMG it's HOT. hahaha. im so wearing that next time and posting a pic. hothothot. and i wore it with shorts.... mmmmmmmm. i'd turn me on. LOL. yeah. that was good. so anyway. went to walmart...met A S2 and J and J and T there... then met E on the way back... hmm.

got back to the room....
and played around till about 5 or 6 this morning. hahaha.

this morning got up early to go with L and S and A to the mall....S was working, so three of us gals walked around and had lunch. yupp. i got one nail buffed by an israeli. hahahaha. hilarious.
and now im BACK. and im gonna slp and then get up and DO MY HW. which im sure i have alot of. dammit. not fun.

nights!

my right elbow.

my right foot.

my left arm...

on my hip...

on my leg...

whooo~!
today was crazy.
like i had this super burst of energy..
don't know why..
but yeah.

and then i SO have to succeed. it's a must. i want it more than ever. this is me. the old competitive and super motivated Dawn is back. apparently she's back just in time because i have major exams tomorrow for Italian and History[world civilizations in case ur wondering] and basically i have to study for it. like. right NOW.

i want to do well. it's my priority now. there's nothing else more important that screwing those exams papers.

it's time to step up my game~

[PS: if you wanna date a slutty party girl like that, be my guest, i just didn't think my friend would be so stupid. wait. if you're so stupid, i guess i can't TRUST you! I choose my friends based on the company they keep, you know? and anyway, i hate for my friends to get hurt, which you so totally will. so yeah. maybe we should keep a distance. a very large distance in fact. take your sad immatured lil self outta my life right now. i'm moving on to better things. fuck.]

i remember .
i remember the places we used to go.
the musty library carpeting, the bright macdonald's lighting.
the night skyline from Esplanade, the bustle the hawkers made.

I remember the things we used to do.
the long bus rides where we'd talk and talk AND talk.
the times when we'd play on the MRT train.
the times when i'd glue myself to your side and thus attached try to walk.
the times when we'd go shopping cos i felt oh so vain.

i remember what you used to tell me.
When i thought of the future,You'd ask me not to be afraid cos you'll never leave me.
When i was insecure You'd tell me you never wanted me to leave your sight.
When i was sad You'd tell me not to worry and just simply Be.
When it was time to sleep,You'd wish me sweet dreams each and every night.

i remember what happened when i left.
at my home, we couldn't smile, the luggages drained our laughter.
in the car, i held so tight to your hand, it hurt.
when saying goodbye, i hugged you last, hoping i wouldn't falter
but still i cried, walking to the plane, it simply hurt....

and now i remember...
when it rained...
you gave me my first kiss.
and the rain stopped....
the sun came out again.
=)

see this song Everything by Lifehouse. it's amazing.

anyway. apart from that. i'm still tired. i'm still disillusioned. but i'll cope, yeah?
i just wonder how much bitchier i have to get in order to protect myself.

on a lighter note.
there's this kid whose really hilarious.
everytime i say hi to him, he pretends like he can't hear me.
and when i walk away, he starts yelling after me.
so then i pretend to look at the stars cos they're SO interesting...
LOLS.
payback's a bitch =)
but it always makes me laugh =)

also just had lunch wit C.... later going with Liza to her speech class cos she needs to use my HAIR. lol. today was gonna be this horrible hair day for me but i sprayed a whole lot of hair spray into it and it turned into one of the best days i've had. so there, new tip. haha.

and here's the thing, i'm thinking of going on a trip this midterm break.
without my parents knowing.
it's going to cost me like a hundred bucks.
but i think it'll be worth it just to get out of here and get fucked up.
well, we'll see what we'll see. =)

i wish i could have been there for Yanting's birthday = '(
really, i do.
and im gonna have to miss 3 more of ur birthdays, girl!

today was pretty fun.
met J and A for dinner and 'games' and study in library.
got my second draft done for essay two in college comp.
erm...
played air hockey billliards and foosball....
ate at CK's...was awesome.

well, here's the thing....
im tired.

so like, i'm going to bed rite NOW.

=)

i just think it's sad the people i feel most comfortable around and most able to trust are guys. wth.

i'm pretty tired of not knowing who my friends are.
i really am.
exhausted in fact.
that's why im going to bed like rite now. =)

xoxoxo!

driving at night is loveeelyyyy =) if u trust the driver!

the bowling alley. SG one better!

by order of heads: andrey, shanshan, jay, jason, julio....

i love the bacckground in this pic don't you? hahah!

shanshan jie! she's super strong! haha...