Love, Dawn♥

For my Community Outreach Project (COP), I went to two sessions of Flag Camp conducted students from Southern Adventist University. I had never heard of this outreach program until my friend called me up one Saturday afternoon and asked me to go just for fun. I never regretted attending that first time, and two weeks later I went again to complete hours for my COP. While helping the children at Flag Camp, I have learned several things.

Flag Camp is an outreach to children in one of Chattanooga’s ghetto areas. About 20 students from Southern will go door to door and ask if there were any children who would like to come and play in the Flag Camp. After collecting children from around the compound, they will all gather in a grass field that has a playground in the middle and basically just spend time playing with the children. These children crave attention and physical contact, they love to be carried and given piggyback rides or even rides on your shoulders. After about an hour of playing the children will be split into two groups and rotated for craft and storytelling sessions. Most children enjoy the craft session more than the storytelling as sitting still to listen is challenging for many of them. After both groups of children have completed both activities, snacks will be given out and the children will be taken back to their respective homes by the students who brought them. This procedure ensures that each child gets back home safely.

The first time I went to help out at Flag Camp was also the first time I have been in a ghetto compound. I was scared and unsure of what to do. However, one little girl who was approximately ten years old came up to me just when we were beginning to collect the children, put her arm around my waist and grinned up at me. Then she asked me to be her teacher. Another boy started tugging on my hand while looking at me with his huge eyes and asked to ride on my back. After less than 15 minutes I had forgotten about being afraid of this strange place and concentrated instead on communicating and playing with the children surrounding us. The little boy on my back was called T.J, and he was so tiny for a child of 7 years. He had a cold and wore a baggy windbreaker but he was still out and running around, playing with other children. It made me wonder where his parents were, and why they let him play outside even though he was sick.

One thing Flag Camp showed me, is how strong these children are and how quickly they have to learn how to fend for themselves. Half of them had running noses and colds but they were still running around like nothing was wrong. Then sometimes I would have a particularly sick child ask to be carried, and then just cling on tight to me and rest. It made me wish I could have a big house with many clean beds where I could put them to bed and make them just rest and get well instead of having them running around outside in the cold and getting sicker. There was one boy that I met the second time I went to Flag Camp. He was scrawny and had a huge jacket on that was too big for him. Phlegm blocked his throat and I could hear him struggling to breathe while he was on my back. His nose kept running and he kept coughing but he was outside in the cold. When I sat down in the sun with him on my lap, he quickly dozed off as he had barely any energy left. Seeing him so weak and miserable just made me want to cry.

I have learned to appreciate what I have so much more after going to Flag Camp and seeing the environment that the children live in. The interior of the houses are dark, the exterior of the buildings are clean but bare, the yards are tiny with bad fencing, and men wander around clutching bottles of alcohol. The children wear ill-fitting clothes that are usually stained and dusty. And yet even with this environment they are happy and enthusiastic. They smile with such genuine joy and contentment. Even just a simple snack or craft, even just the barest bit of attention you give to them, it makes them happy. If they are so happy with the little that they have, I should be so much more grateful for all the luxuries that I have compared to them.

I believe that the Flag Camp outreach program is very helpful and enriching for the children that it reaches. The children need attention and exposure to a loving and caring Christian environment. Flag Camp gives that to them. Several of the parents have expressed gratitude and encouragement to students participating in the Flag Camp, telling them that they are indeed helping the community with their small effort of helping out in the Flag camp. I would definitely recommend this experience to other students as it is an extremely fulfilling and rewarding experience.

i found this line from a song.. i find it damn cute..

IF YOU WEREN'T REAL
I'D MAKE YOU UP.

hahaha... cute right??? =P
anyway...
i went to the mall, did i tell u that?
taxi fare was 22 one way and 22 the other way. can die. and a creepy taxi driver too. damn. but the mall was pretty good. wish i cud have stayed there longer tho. ppl here just don't know how to shop. jeeez....
anyway...
now im gon write my COP report cos it's due on monday. dang. and then i'll study some history. then it's back to slacking!!! LOL.
tmrw i'll do italian hw and study some...thing... then slack again! wow.. i love this thanksgiving break. it has let me catch up on sleep and let me calm down and get mellow again. hahaha.
no more walking on the edge for now!~

anyway..
To the person who sent me a very touching email..
i really wanna tell you how much your concern means to me, and i really really appreciate it. It reminded me that there are people who care and worry.... cos sometimes all i see is the people here and well most people only care when it's convenient to care. but i just wanna say thanks very much for letting me know how you feel and i knwo that you understand why i sometimes do the things i do. in that case you should also know that i definately will not keep this up forever, and i do have my limits too. i can only ask you to trust in my judgement and know that below all my frivolity i am very much aware of what im doing, im not oblivious to it. it's just that i choose to do this for now... but i can promise i'll b careful while doing so! anyway. i can't wait to see you soon! =)
loves~

and now. i shall write my report. after which i shall post it up here so that you can all laugh ur bloody asses off ^^ wheeeeee~

PS: im listening to mr fam singing... hahahhahah~

im so sleeeeeepy.
today took a cab,, anyway. wanna write more new stuff i did.. lols...

23. called for and rode a cab to the mall
`cooked while drunk
`talked on the phone the whole night till 7 am.
`reversed two days and two nights. like slpping in the day and being away in the night. lol.
`showered when i was buzzed
`drank vodka and no throwing up , no nausea, and no hangover!! heee!!
29. danced in walmarts carpark

cant remember anymore rite now..... lol

I. Put your iTunes/Ruckus/Napster/etc.on shuffle.
II. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
III. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN, NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!IV. Tag friends who might enjoy doing this.

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
What about now-daughtry. hahahahahah nice response.... ^^

2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
eternity-zhang shao han. well yeah i guess...i'll be eternal? lol.

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
tou hao tian xin-zhang shao han... basically it means my dude is gonna be a sweetheart^^

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Freeze-jordin sparks. yep i sure felt frozen! lol.

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Killa-Cherish ft young jeezy...OK BEWARE OF ME NOW! LOL.

6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?\
some mandrin song that idk what it means! damn.. try again..
ok. this is better.. Love's excuse-Jolin Tsai... ah yes im always trying to find an excuse to love. LOL.

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Until you..Shane ward..awwww listen to the first line of the song it's real sweet =)

8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Say i love you-joli tsai...right.....i guess....LOL...

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
see the 72 sides of me-jolin. kinda true, like, i want ppl to understand me and im always thinking of how im different from myself in many ways. LOL.

10. WHAT IS 2+2?
super sunshine-cao ge. awww.. how.... random.. LOL.

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Sugar Sugar-tsai yi lin.. MY BITCH IS ANYTHING BUT SUGAR. WTH. HAHAHAHA.

12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
You Raise Me Up. huh. how true. but i don't like anyone right now leh. how? hahahah.

13. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
The person i loved first-m2m [the day you went away] wow. i have a frickin sad life/love story.

14. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Yuan shi de mei hao[the beauty of fading?] so im gonna be beautifully faded. wow. how...comforting.

15. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Ai dao zui hou yi miao ye bu wei qu-cao ge. [love till the last moment without hurt?] idk how to translate.. but yeah.. it makes sense... for my bf i guess haha.

16. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
WOW. can ku le zhang.jay chou. HAHAHAHAHA. the diastrous composition. WOW. thanks mom n dad.

17. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Shakespeare in love-layla kaylif YAY I LOVE THIS SONG CHACHA =)

18. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
No more Nights.... AWWWWWW! that's awesome. i'll write it in my will then.

19. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
mama mama-jolin tsai. NO COMMENTS

20. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Lil sister must be happy-cao ge. RIGHT. what does this mean???

21. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
BEI PAN! cao ge. HAHAHAHHAHAHAA. omg.

22. WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Ni Bu Shu Yu Wo Le-[you dont' belong to me anymore.] yeah that's kinda true i guess. im always scared of losing people i care about.

23. HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Lose My Breath-destiny's child. geeeez. great.

24. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Tian Liang Yi Hou Shuo Fen Shou[breakup after dawn] WOWWWWW AHHHAAHHAH! i feel so.....unloved... AHHAHA.

25. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Everytime i hear your name-keith anderson... that is....not helping. LOL.

26. WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
ok. another song i don't know the meaning of. try again.
ok got it.
Guai Wo Tai Nian Qing! [blaming me for being too young] HA! yes bloody hell yes. hahahaha.

27. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
the right kind of wrong.leann rimes
hmmm nice...

i can not WAIT to go back home. ARGH! =P

oh WOW it's bright out and im just goin to bed right now... hahah~
sweet~ =)

sleeping now~~~

nights babes~~

hungry.
and
im gonna go to bed.
to stop myself from eating.
baby if u read this call me tmrw n wake me up aight? hehe (:

anyway.
pissy rite now.
loves.

hahahahaha.

last night was awesome man...

i acted like lil miss babysitter which was SO uncool but that's cos i was havin a really weird day...

and felt the need to like....care for people... LOL....

but yeah.

deffff uncool.

next time,

i'm getting high first so i dun overthink things wit my girls.

HAHA...

but still it was purty awesome yo!

today missed onli one class and attended the other two.. proud of myself... LOL...

prolly cos baby called me in the morning for some reason i think i left him a weird voice mail or smth.

but then anyway...

got to my eleven o clock class on time. and passed up my essay by 4 pm. went to my 3 30 pm class and got 84 on the test which i studied onli one hour for. chapters 14 to 18. damn. if i studied like 3 hours i cuda got 100% huh. =P but anyway. i got 82 and 86 for two of my speeches... and then after speech i got back to my room, undressed, and wth... my friend is like, ''come out with us! it's the last day we all go out tgh'' cos then it's thanksgivin break n everyone's leavin....so im like yeah ok fine haha. run over to the dudes' dorm and then go to R.a.f.a.e.l.s to eat. AWESOME food ...... so goooood but guess what?

now im HUNGRY AGAIN.

HAHAHAHAH.

anyway after that we go back to the dudes' dorm to watch HAPPY FEET it's ADORABLE. hehehehe. tap tap tap tappity tap. then i saw this tiny dude walk past that looked exactly like a penguin. mwahahha. hilarity.

mr T looks like a penguin too actually... hmmmmm.... lmao....

but yeah. back in mio camera rite now cos im pretty frickin tired.... and ahhhhh dang everyone's gone! ha. i wanna be gone too. but what the heck. we'll see what happens. i got to pick up shit on thursday at da mall. sucks balls don't it. OH FUCK. i can't even go over da weekend cos it's my roommate's bday on fri. wtf.

ah ok now im pissed. hahahahha.

it was alright. cudn't get high and got pissed but at least i got a piercing AND a good movie.

hmmms. no. cos i had to drag my ass all the way to italian class on a wet rainy morning.

what past? people who need counsellors are fuckin weak btw crisairy. HA. bloody lil bitch =)

of course. alot. according to some people im onli a kid. hahahahahahah whatever.

hmmm.. love the curls~! LOL ^^

aight. life is kinda kicking me up and down in the ass right now but u know what I DON'T GIVE A FUCK. cos im COMING HOME. in three weeks. YES. and jus to see everyone back home again i'll take alllllll the shit that this place is throwiing at me. yup. i'll take all of it and still come out smiling cos i'm goin HOME. and that's all that matters isn't it?

HOME.

at night it's the last thing i think about. and it brings a crazy grin to my face. i'm kinda scared to go home cos i don't know what would have changed and what's been going down back home, but i don't care. i just need to be home. just even for two weeks. it will give me strength to own da next semester, which is gon be hell btw, i've registered for alll my classes already. hahahahaha . but i don't care.

im goin home.

hell yeah.

i'm going home.

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the wait is drivin me crazy tho! u know what i mean by crazy?? hahhahaha.... take a look at this...

and the biggest surprise of all??

this time it's for real... ~

done wit a sewin needle in my girl's room. yep. u shuda heard me scream~

Io ha una amica, E chiama Liza Tang. Liza nata a Cina, ma abito a gli Stati Uniti. Ha 17 anni e studente di nursing all’Universita degli Studi di Southern. Liza il suo compleanno E 28 Novembre. Ha molti amici e uno ragazzo. Il suo ragazzo si chiamo Sam Yoon.Ogni tanto loro di mattina prendono colazione. Liza tutti sta benissimo perche E innamorato! Liza ha I capelli neri e lisci, anche ha gli occhi neri. Ha le lenti a contatto, non ha gli occhiali.Liza E bassa, non alta. E piace un po’tutti i tipi di musica e giocara pallacanestro. Liza frequento le lezioni tutte le mattine, ma anche piace dorme a lungo- E spesso stanca! Liza giovane ore, E piace leggere molti libri. Liza E Interessante e intelligente, anche bella e simpatico. Io piace mio una amica, Liza.
[Words: 138]

that was my first italian essay...

hmm
today was interesting,

went to da mall...
bought two tops and a throw. ^^ a PLAYBOY throw. hotttt hot hot...

signed in to vespers then left!
went with some people to chattanooga!
was gonna go clubbing, but then it got late so we decided to do it tmrw. i hope we can do it...

*crossed fingers*

anyway...
we'll see.
im happy with my new clothes. =)

but im not so happy about other stuff..

however, the whole awkward thingy has been cleared up. i guess i need to be more sensitive n mature about stuff.. yeppp ^^ so it's all good now.

tmrw will take care of itself. =)

i love the last picture ~~~~

so pretty~~~~

aight. im planning on going to ATL again for thanksgiving. but this time with diff people...

cos all my friends are like going HOME and im stuck here so you knwo what? i m jus gonna get outta this shit dorm and chill in a hotel up in ATL. well that's the plan anyway. =P

rite now, important thing is, I HAVE MY SECOND LAST ITALIAN ESAME TMRW. and i gotta study for it. damn it. tired and emo. andddd stressed. idk why tho. life is pretty chill for me now..

goin to the mall tmrw...

planning to anyway!

so yea. last nite my heart was beating SO FAST and jus felt so anxious. couldn't sleep. i wonder why...

anyhoo...

im trying to chill now.. but my hearts beating raelly fast again. im gunna DIEEEE.

it's time for independence.
=P
cos relying on people for companionship and support ALWAYS falls thru.
but u know what?
it doesn't matter..
there's always more where they came from ^^

i'll be strong.
peace~!

HAHAHAHAH!
jus had a pretty awesome dinner at KR's with a couple of friends...
yepp it was pretty fun!
but now it's time to rest awhile, settle down for the 7 o clock worship, then prolly go study in lib with jdfy...
today will be a good day after all!

thanks to those people who made my day! =)

blehs.
i had a dream last night.
i dreamt that i went home.
the dream was SO fucking realistic.
it sucked.

cos now i really really wanna go back HOME.
dammit!

danggg. you can never be better than me.
you know why?
cos everyone's equal.
so suck it up and deal =P

anyway~!

how bored am i rite now. im supposed to be writing a speech! and it sucks balls! hahahahaha..
im writing abt why u shud be a vegetarian! and it doesn't work! cos there's TOO much information...
gosh...
can't take it....
i don't know how to condense or summarize or shit. im jus superrrr tired. =P blehs.

oh well. fuck this shit....

hmm...
new things to add to my list...

16. walking around campus while effed up and doing many.....funny...things....
17. drinking vodka wit mixers. damnn nice.
18. 'dirty/crazy dancin' wit girlfriends
19. walking 2 or 3 KM down a DESERTED walkway all the way to Dominos to order pizza, then eating pizza while sitting on the FLOOR and THEN ASKING THE DELIEVERY MAN TO SEND US BACK TO CAMPUS. omg..... this was seriously the most horrifying/hilarious/adventurous thing ever luh....
20. watching two horror movies in a row lying like sardines wit three other girls on two twin beds.
OH OH OH and...
21. watching drunk guys on webcam. OMG. hilarious.....
22. walking the greenway.

that's all for this week!

we'll see what happens next time.
sadly, i stayed sober all thru the weekend.
hopefully this won't have to happen again!
bleh! we need more sources!

you KNOW you wanna kiss us =P dontcha?

Asian, White, and Mexican~

you know what makes me wanna fuck S***hern more?

the fact that you can get in trouble for NOT GOING TO FUCKING CHURCH.

ok. now that just pisses me off.

cos i DO GO> and if i dont' go i just do COMMUNITY SERVICE. but jus cos i dun leave EARLY enough...

they kick my ass for it.

WTFH.

screw you S***hern... im gonna fucking go crazy n u ain't gon b able to fucking stop me. not even with all your crazy vesper/worship/church attendance shit. not even with all your fucking dress codes and other stupid shit.

im just really reallly pissed rite now. so pissed i could go do smth i really regret. but i won't. cos the time ain't right, rite now. the time is right to control myself. ha. bloody ha. =)

PEACE.

went over to my newest gf's room and got fucked up last nite.
and i MEAN fucked up. i was like...
ha bloody ha.
4 shots. of super strong shite.

we started drinking at like 9 pm..
finished by 10 pm,
and started wreaking havoc by 10. it was amazing...
i went to take a walk wit my friend..
and A went to talk to the guy she liked..
and then N went to her room and got depressed. so yeah..

in da dorm i remember....
messing around wit musik..
dancing...
talking abt guys..
falling onto the bed laughing like crazy..
kissing each other on the cheeks...
laughing... yepp..
then we decided to leave da dorm...

idk what she did..
but i did some pretty crazy shit.
called my boyf from my friend's phone..
and was like...
saying some pretty crazy shit...
but then it's like..
my friend got me back into the dorm back in time for curfew. =) loves <3

came back to the dorm, called some more random people...
this morning woke up with a fucking huge headache.

this weekend possibly goin to get high..
for da first time...

HEH.
i'm impossibly tired.....
but still willing to do shit!
this is how we roll bayyyb~! =P

ahhhhhhh~~

im soooo blardy exhausted....

u know?

hmmm...

i slept early last night tho..

anyway. can't wait for this weekend..

chicas gonna hang out....

=) ahhhmayzing..

but there's some loose ends that might need to be tied up..

mmmm...

annoying.. i wanna get chasers but idk how to get it....when u chase V wit S...it's a damn nice high. hahah.

speech test, finalize speech, study compconcepts, take comp test, andddd write italian draft oh. not to mention work out. hahaha. nice.... so we'll have to like, rush?

i gotta meet Parra at like, 3 pm tmrw...

blehs. and i was supposed to work out wit chloe!!!! so like, mayb we'll workout first then go see him. hyepps...

"WHAT THE HECK I LOST MY HISTORY TEXTBOOK.

MY FAVORITE ONE!!!!! "

andddddd i FOUND IT! yayyyyyy~~~~

hehehehhe!
great start to a prettttttyyy great day!!! =)
well, except for the fact that.... idk if i made someone mad at me but...oh well.... u know, that's how things go...
so so so so anyway...

had classes, but did pretty well in both classes, thanks to the fact that there was no quiz.. OMG i got a B- in my italian quiz!!! i thought i was gonna fail it that chapter was SO HARD.

so that was the second thing, then the third thing that made me happy was that i had NO QUIZ in history class!!!

then it was PASTA DAY~~~~ i ate SO MUCH...
and then accompanied some friends for awhile, heard that there's a TEST TMRW but that's alright i love public speaking tests... hAHHA!
but it was a good day!

i went to the dorm, had a gooood nap, woke up at like 5 30, met J for 'dinner' and went to the lib to studayyyyeeeeee damnnnn i did finish my essay draft two, finished the outline for my speech, andddddd even started on my italian saggio due draft! hehehe. so yeah... prettttty cool there~!

rite now, im gonna slp early! cos tmrw i wanna do alot of shite...

whooooooo~ enough emoing!! =)i'm more interested in being pissed now. LOL. i am writing this goals and values paper for the class that i simply hateeeee.... so yeah... can u imagine how great i feel about htat? hahaha cos i can just BS the whole thing.

u knwo what's the worst thing abt this paper? it's really personal, and the person who is gonna read it is this bitch who hates my guts rite now. haha =) u knwo what she sent me in an email? it's so awesome.. =P

Dawn,

It saddens me to send this notice through email, but your unresponsiveness to requests for one-on-one conversations leaves me with no other option.

You have a serious problem with talkiing during class. Not only does this demonstrate a disrespectful attitude, but you are missing important information. Even worse, you are disturbing others who do not have a vote in your decision to disrupt class. Such behavior is not appropriate in any educational environment, but it is certainly unacceptably immature for university classes. You have ignored all types of warnings and requests to stop this behavior. Therefore, be aware that if you conduct yourself in a disruptive manner in class from now on, you will be asked to leave the room for the remainder of class, and you will earn zero points for that day's attendance and for any work done that day.

My hope is that I will not have to follow through on this warning, that you will recognize the problem and correct it without further actions on my part. Also, I would like to address this issue in person with you so that you have a chance to ask questions and/or present your perspective on the issue. You obviously have a good mind and great potential if you can develop a mature, sensitive approach to your coursework.

X

OH MY GOODNESS,..can u imagine ME disrupting a class??? omygosh luh get a farking life luh huh.... it's like, i whisper in class. WHISPER.. not talk. and i simply cannot believe she accused me of causing other people to not pay attention. ask her to fricking look at the assignments of my seat mate and myself! i'm the one who actually bothers to check what assingments are due and pass them up! my seat mate doesn't give a damn abt it all. so u think she'll b interested in listening??? omgosh. what the heck. and furthermore im at the BACK of the class, how the hell am i disrupting anything? perhaps if her class wasn't so lame ass boring her students wouldn't be so easily ''disrupted''... omg.. stupid bitch.

i have nothing more to say .....

it's not that she wasn't happy..
it's not that she didn't have friends or laughter or smiles or the little things that made her contented..
it's not that she didn't enjoy meeting new challenges...
it's not that she didn't practically love everything that she experienced..
it's not that she regretted leaving.

it's just that she could never forget the feeling of walking away from them at the airport gate, walking away and never knowing if things would stay the same.
it's just that she could never forget seeing Her cry,
she could never forget his hand slipping out of her grasp,
she could never forget seeing them getting smaller and the future looming bigger,
she could never forget the letter that made her cry and laugh at the same time,
she could never forget all the things that she left behind...

and she hated it but the tears kept falling...

SUNDAY: it's AUTUMN!!!

SUNDAY: look at da pretty mountains!!!!

SATURDAY: on da way back from da ghetto!

SATURDAY: i think i looked effing high in this pic.. LOL

SATURDAY: more pics taken on the way back frm flag camp..

SATURDAY: love the motion effect!

SATURDAY: lovely autumn colours....

FRIDAY: at da mall!!! mai girls Anna and Chloe! =)

FRIDAY: you KNOW it, this is a kawaii shot! hahaha.. and then lil pink boy in the background! hahahah =D

FRIDAY: awesomenesss =) love this gal!

FRIDAY: my prim and proper brit girl. haha.

FRIDAY: love those mirrors they have in every frickin store here! hahaaa..

let's see!! here's this weekend in DETAIL. =)

FRIDAY: i took a very short nap, then went to the mall!~~~ i bought my bf's christmas present already!!!! hehee... i hope he likes it! and i bought myself a hoodie!! whooooO!!! my roommate saw me wear it n she's like ''omg u look so american!'' hahhahha what the heck!! i wanna have both asian clothes n american clothes, then i'll mix them all up and i'll have the best wardrobe ever!!! hehe =) hilarious... i mean, i think it'll suit me cos i speak both american english and singlish rite now, and i like american food and asian food, and i have friends at southern n friends back home, so like, it onli rite that i have asian clothes and american clothes too! lol.... yeah so anyway. then i went to vespers, and after that it was back to the dorm, and hmm!!! had a long and satisfying talk with C girl.. hope she felt the same way too!!!
then i came back to the room and had another long and interesting talk with my roomie! LOL. slept at like, 5 am. then, i woke up late for church, so i didn't go! sadness.. it was BCU too!!! dammit. loved it.

Saturday: missed BCU! so sad.. then went to....hmmm.... flag camp!!!!!!!!! so awesome!!!!!!!!!!! like we went to the ghetto!!! and OMG, the lil kids came and ran around us and as we picked up more kids, they started climbing on our backs! it's sooooo cute~~~ then there was this girl who like started talkin to me in this ghetto slang and i was 'whaaaat??' and then E translated it for me, it's sooo cute, she was like askin me to be her teacher! hahaha.. so yeah, we carried kids around, and i even let the really tiny ones climb on my shoulder! and then they'd ask u to run with them on u! and then help them play on the monkeybars or smth. it's SO sweeeeet~! so later we went back to the dorm, and i was SHAKING. i was like exhausted and hungry and then i called A up cos i was supposed to meet up with them, so then i ate a lil bit, but still was really dizzy n tired. went to walmart, got our shit, and then left... to go skating! HAHAHA... so funny!!!! like, i was high and skating, and while i was tehre i kept like trying to call yt and sp and a couple other ppl, but hmmmmm it was interesting.... there were black ppl all over n they were crumping and dancing and i was like OMG so HOT!!!! the girls esp were really good at dancing!!! hahaha! went back to the dorm early, cos things went kinda sour, and then later i brought my laptop out to the lobby to meet like E and A and N, it was hilarious, i was like unsteady and it was RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE DEAN'S OFFICE. and the stupid thing was that NO ONE could tell. no ONE could tell i was high. wtf. then later e realized i was drunk cos like, he smelled it on me. LOL. i mean, if i was sober, i would NOT be walking around in a frickin top that shows my bra AND belly and shorts with huge ass scars on my legs. anddd i wouldn't hug anybody and everyone jus so randomlly. HAHHA.
one girl asked me why my face was so red, and iw as like, oH! SUNBURN! and she's like, woww where? n i said, ''under the sun!!! duh!!!'' HAHAHAHAHAHA it was hilarious....

so yeah. i made a couple of phone calls after coming back to my room, and like, i talked to E, and i was soooo out of it that i started screaming on the phone cos i was high or smth? hahhha. wth...
AND AND AND I CALLED YT! yessssss~~~ it was SOOOO good to talk to my girl after like AGESSSSS. omg. it was awesome.

so i went to bed and had a horrible headache and lethargy this mornin.....

SUNDAY: uneventful! STUDIED! worship at 7 pm, was kinda weird, A is like, mad at me or smth,.... hmmm... then went to the lib to study wit jason.,. OH YEAH! one good thing happened today!!! i found someone who promised to teach me dance!!! and he's AWESOME. he's black, so like, it's in his genes...and OMG i lovelovelovelove it! he's gonna choreograph a song for me, then reserve a WHOLE FRICKIN AUDITORIUM and teachhh me how to do it. n he promised that he will teach me n teach me until i can do it like a pro!!! omg! awesomenesssssss im SO excited i can't wait! hahahah~~~~

okay, now, i gotta study fo mai exam tmrw... nasty shite... italian chapter 5... SUPER HARD... prepositions and their conjunctions...... im a lil tired, but i'll b alrite! =)

LOVES~

whoooo~ exhausteddd.... very very very exhausted! but then~~~

I FEEL AMAZING~~~~ SOOOOO AMAZING!

loved it!

but gonna head out wit A n SS n J to go drink wata...

ciiaos~

hmmm...
today we went to da mall! it was super fun, cos i went with awesome people =)
like, C girl, A , and E n i ... it was fun... and then later we came back n i went for vespers with A and A and a whole bunch of people... vespers was good... i hope tomorrow will be better though. i'm going for BCU church service at 10:45, i think it'll b good.

anyway. just one depressing thing... i realized how much ur value here is based on ur appearance. i don't like it... haha. even if it helps me, i don't like it, cos i know that on the days i ain't rockin' it.. then, certain friends aren't gonna be as enthu anymore. well.. what the heck. life's like that =P

so i'll focus on good things, yeah?
like the fact that there's still one more day of relaxation tmrw~
loves~!

THE WEEKEND IS HERE!!!! TWO DAYS OF NO STUDYING NO HOMEWORK AND NO STRESSSSSS~ whooooo!!!!

today-i'll either go to the mall or sleep, either one will be perfect ! i dont' care either way.. LOL... cos i really need sleep and i realy need to get out of here too..

tmrw i'll be going to church, probably,..... then sleep. or donate blood. blehhh...... idk yet... then i prolly will go out in the night...

sunday will be studying for sure.. i need to study for italian test on monday, AGAIN, and also catch up on my history reading, i have like 200 pages to highlight and summarize. badddd idea.

but whatever!!!!!! it's the weeekkkkendddd~~~~ i shall stop worrying now~ and RELAXXXXXXXX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAAYYAYAYAY~~~

let's rock da aviators~~~ impossible, cos i looked so sleepy n fat,,like a cat... lmao..

Today i liked my outfit.... hehehe... i thought today was gonna suckk but it got better progressively. i mean, a weird message in the morning greets my tired eyes, and then well, just really exhausted the whole day.. however, people were really nice today so well yeah, it was good... hahaha... OH and then i had PASTAAAA for lunch... mmmmmm~ it was goood. OH and i got an olive too. LOL. olives are niiiiice!

well yeah, but i gotta study now,.... for real.....

i miss alot of people right now =( esp those i havent' hung out with for almost a week, and ESP ESP ESP those back homeeeeeee. ohhhhh 5 more weeks!!!!!!!!!!! whooo!!!!!!!!!!!!

SOME of my Favorite People at Southern~~~ wheeee~~

My one and only roommate~!

my crazy C girl....

we're sooo cold out watching football!

My darling onni on her 21st birthday! whoooo~

My 'Study' amigo~ LOL... jalapeno cum jumpin bean...jkjk!.. =P

aight. today this is my to-do list....

italian manuale & fare...approx ten pages..
impromptu speech which i hope won't happen to me,..
a huge ass assignment for computer concepts..
history reading of about 20 or 30 pages...
and not to mention I WANNA SLEEEEEP...

oh well...
it's time for me to startttt studyin!!

OH BTW, the academic stress is finally kickin in. can't believe it. started like yesterday, and it's a total rushhh man.. like getting high on stress. yuppps. i was running around like crazy esp towards night time, and i had to RUN to the library TWICE in one hour. kaos... then i got this amazing rush and like, it's hilarious how people were like ''wth is wrong wit her!!!"

yep. so im thinking that i need a lil bit of sleep, and i'll make it thru this day and that horrible todo list!!! LOL... tmrw is friday already!!!!!!! let's do this~!

yepp..
same old feeling of life passing me by....

i might just make this blog private so i don't have to feel bad about how much i whine here...

i'd get pissed off reading what i write anyway! LOL...

but u know what.
if u don't like reading it.

BITE ME.

ok. i seriously should stop writing...

wheeee~! i kinda like my new blogskin better..... hehhee...
and my roommate's back!!! yayyss~

okay so here's the thing~ i had an appointment with my advisor today, but he wasn't in! like, wth, he had a family emergency. poor Dr H...so yeah, i waited for a half hour and didn't see him... so anyway, i was also thinking of donating blood but i'll wait till saturday to do it with some friends. LOL. if i do it on my own i might passssss out. =P if i do it with friends then just to save face i'll stay concious, u know? heh heh...

so yep, today was uneventful....in italian, it's called noioso! [boring] i gotta go workout later with C-girl, so i'll deff have to rest up now, either that or take my computer test. i think i'll do that. lol. yepp. compuoter concepts wo lai lo~!

then later i'll work out, go for worship, and OH do my english homework. nasty. wait. i think i have to do my english homework FIRST because....i gotta finish it and print it before 11 pm! wtheck..... aight. *deep breath*

here goes!

thoughts: if you dislike me going out with other people so much , maybe i should give you a detailed list of all my friends that i go out with? aand maybe i should tell you in detail what i do and who i do it with? well, don't i already write everything on my blog? if you misunderstand my blog then it's not my fault... and besides, i asked you before and you don't wanna know about my friends here, you said it's nothing to do with you right? so stop freaking out about how you can't trust me and how you can't have faith in me. cos i haven't DONE anything wrong. i really honestly haven't done anythin that i cannot tell you. and if you say you feel unsure of me because of what happened last time, then i can say the same thing about you, so don't even go there. =_=''' yeppps... anyway... this is something you've gotta deal with, i can't help you here. i just really want you to focus on your last two exams, cos then your O lvls will be OVER ^^

i am at a loss for words, actions, and thought. i need 12 hours of continuous sleep, or mayb 24. life is whirling past me again, and it is hard to catch up. this time it's the studies. idk what im supposed to do, prolly start studying harder, but it's hard to do that when ur exhausted from IDK what. so yeah. i should start with sleeping for 14 hours... and that onli is possible on weekends, anddddddd weekends are usually packed. bleh. so here i am, with a shit load of things to do....

speech preparation,
essay draft 1,
lotsss of italian hw,
and about one inch of history reading to catch up on.

not to mention my computer concepts hw, which i HAVE TO PASS UP before i forget.

shit shit shit shit idk what to do..

my list of new stupid and random things i've done and enjoyed....

1.longboarding!
2.getting drunk n throwing up. [ewww~]
3.talking to homeless people!
4.playing volleyball in cold sand!
5.Walking in the dark
6.Going to the doctor's on my own..&getting shot in the ass.
7.climbing a two storey high pole and jumping off
8.giant rope swing.
9.staying out all night in a car.
10.going to a black church
11.watching a movie that costs 3 dollars.
12.skating in an indoor rink!
13.stayin in a motel alone wit friends =)
14.skipping class!
15.riding big ass rollercoasters! =)

there's more to come! for sure~! ;P

loves!

emo mexican and crazy mexican...

da [dirty] fountain...

love this pic~ haha...anna and the General

pretty tree~~!

FEDERAL PROPERTY MY ASS.

hot halfnaked dude....=P

chilling out by the fountain...

the loco Messicanos~

Anna n Mua ~!!!!

she's a really cool girl, no idea why we never met before saturday... same campus leh!! stupid... LOL.....

aight that's all da peeektures for now! STUDY. for real. LOL....