Love, Dawn♥

oh ok. so girls' night? was totally off. we did have a girls' night, went out for it. hmmm. taco bells. and made new friends.

actually.
i still don't remember half of what happened.
which is weird for me.
must have been the painkillers i took for my cramps.
lol.

i shall spare you the details.

but suffice to say i'm had enough of makin new friends for awhile....
=P

see, right now i have the cramps, but no bleeding. and it hurts.
and it's useless, cos my PMS is still gonna stay.
gahhhhhh.....

had tuition with shan2 and factory yesterday...it was fun ...fun for me! h
ope it was for them too =P
basically we finished their grammar hw and read part of one of my lit assignments.,,
took almost two hours. lol. need to improve on the timinggggg.

after curfew, we had a parttaye in the girls dorm. a real party....with crazy girls... =) it was pretty fun....last thing i remember was watching Live Free Or Die Hard with slowly drying contacts. lmao!

ooo ooo ooo and my day was pretty fun....seem to be throwing off my depressione. hope it lasts?
had good classes, good food, and good fun.

for the most part =P

yesterday was a bad day.
i got pissed at alot of people.
well. not alot of people.
but let's just say black people were annoying the crap out of me. blehhhhs.

first, at convo, this RANDOM dude i nvr wanted to be close to again for the rest of my frickin life came and plunked his butt down next to me. omg. and he put his arm arnd me and i was like.....oh shit i'm SO taking a shower after this...
i was texting my friend, who was sitting RIGHT NEXT TO ME.. and she was like, wtf is this guy.... and i'm like....hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. goooood question. lmao.
texted Factory on shan2's phone too....old man types SO slow. hiyo. n he said he will help me kick d guy's ass but he didn't. hmphs! hahaah. jus kiddin....
but anyway... after that one hour of sheer discomfort..... =P
he texted me while right next to me and asked what i was doin next weekend...
and i was like, what's on next weekend..
lmao!
apparently! i've forgotten that it's the Vday banquet.
which i'm now definately not going to go to because i only wanna spend Vday with my special somebodyyyyyyy ^^
this shall be my last year that i give candy to two dozen people. hahaha.... =P

SO THEN, i get a text telling me i have dance practise at 9 pm, so i go. and guess what. some random black dude who works at the gym comes and tells us that we have to have SLEEVES on. like, wtf, of all the times i went to the gym, i only wore sleeves like twice. -.-
and now randomly on a day when i'm totally pissed cos i can't get the dance rhythm right, you tell me i gotta put on SOMETHING that has sleeves. and luckily this other girl had an extra hoodie...or he was gonna ask me to go back to the dorm and get something. i was like, ''dude, are you serious??''and from my expression i was just about ready to bite somebody's head off. -.- and he's like, ''yeahhhh it's the rules i dun have anything against it but i gotta enforce it.'' lamo. you could have totally told us to just change for next time. sonofabitch but whatever.....

OH OH OH...and then while we were practising...guess who walked in the dance room?! omg. i was like, oooookay, WHY did you have to come in right now????
*deep breaths*

did i also mention that i spent approx two hours in the same room as someone i hate on tuesday??

ok. seriously? i gotta make life simpler. from here on out i'm starting new and anything that happened before isn't gonna count.

dose sonsofbitches can just go xcrew their own empty heads =)

ooo okay my new blog is pretty now. =)
i wanna change the skin for this bloggie too, but i can't find anything that's perfect enough.

urgh..
i'm so exhausted....
and hungry.
i think i'll cook. hmmm. yes good idea. =)

one more thing, i know the skin is ugly, but i'll put something better up as soon as possible! anddd a tagboard too. so no worries. =)

argh.
this blog is doomed.
but at least i'm trying y'all....
at least i'm trying

FOR d sake of my parents' state of mind, i have invented a new blog. don't worry, this juicy emo as hell thing is still staying on, but it's time you guys get in touch with the better side of me. the daily monotonous routine that i shall begin to elaborate on at www.innocent-lyfe.blogspot.com
yep people, since i dun write much details here, cos i fear to bore people to death, i have begun a new blog to record the mundanities. ENJOY, all those who desire to torture themselves with the details of my oh so intriguing life. ^^

arghhhhiesssssss i'm tired............
convo and worship at 7pm.

thinkin of droppin by cafe to pick up some stuff
or i might jhust go back to the room and SLEEP. =P

decisions decisions.
ANYWAY!

now.
tomorrow's plan is basically, finish my final essay draft, read history like crazy, and then start studying for wednesday's review for friday's test. =.='''

life's an endless cycle of studying eating sleeping. even though i have peeps to go with me thru all this shit... still bores me. -.-'''
anyway!
i need to do smth interesting

where is your default picture taken? which default pic.....

what is your current mood?blur

what color underwear are you wearing? white

what color bra are you wearing? black

if you could go back in time and change something, would you? nope everything happens for a reason and i like it that way

do you still like your ex girlfriend/boyfriend? yessss =)

ever had a near death experience? no. good thing.

ever had a 1 night stand? noooooope!

something you do a lot? sleep!

the song stuck in your head? Meng Li

name someone with the same birthday as YOU? LKY

when was the last time you cried? can't remember...

have you ever sung in front of a large audience? uh. a church?

if you could have one super power what would it be? invisibility

what's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? looks.

what do you usually order from starbucks? whatever yanting recommends

what's your biggest secret? hmm.. nothin

favorite color? right now, it's white and black and red

ever lie to spare someones feelings? yeahhh

do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows? YES. love cartoon network n nickolodeon. i want cablee!!!

what are you eating or drinking at the moment? water and gum

do you speak any other language? mandarin anddd that's it!

what's your favorite smell? i have many =)

if you could describe your life in one word what would it be? perfect

when was the last time you gave/received a hug? yesterday!

ever been kissed in the rain? i dont' think so!

what are you thinking about right now? greys anatomy

what should you be doing? looking in the cafe for food

who was the last person that made you upset/angry? hmm. none of yo business

do you like working in the yard? nope. unles it's stomp d yard. =P

if you could have any last name in the world, what would you? Xu

do you act differently around the person you like? i don't act, i just basically freeze

what is your natural hair color? dark brown

who was the last person to make you cry?hmm stupid nathan

it was a good reunion dinner!

made up for people pissing the hell out of me these coupla days.
seriously.
take me seriously for a change, why not? when i say something i fuckin well mean it.
jeez.
but!

today was hella fun!!!
had like, 20 people all in all?
pretty re nao! and noisy!and fantastic^^

left my charger in d friend's house. dammit.
so all the pictures i just uplaoded to facebook! check it.

tomorrow is Chu Yi! the first day! Gong xi fa cai everyone! lol...
niannian you yu, bubugaosheng, shenti jian kang, xue ye jin bu!

blablablabla...
ok. now back to doing homework.
how depressing. =P

miaows.
the great lesson of 2009.
my parents and him are the two elements in my life that HAVE to be there.
and i'm gonna rememeber that and appreciate that from now on.
=)

i'm pretty good.
feel happy.
sometimes lonely here, but still happy. because my important elements are there. =)

anyway?
i'm right in ashes bro's house again... lol..very chill night =)

tommorw is a good day ^^

i have literature homework. and that always always always kicks my ass.... T.T
gotta read ONE chapter, one story, then write an essay about the story. ARGH.
thennnn i have a TEST tomorrow. BUT, i missed the test review yesterday, so i'm pretty much SCREWED.

yayyyyy.
the only good thing in my life now is you. and you're like, half a world away.

finally updated my ipod songs y'all.
YAYYYYYY!

but i'm still moody and grouchy and about to bite anyone's head off.
lmao.

whatevs.
i just found this superrrr dirrrrtttty song by Ludacris- what's your fantasy..

damn.

do you know how to spell "royally screwed" ???

it's spelled like this...
D-A-W-N C-H-E-E

YUP.

story of my life.
well.
for this year it seems.
everythings changing.
first my changed life plan.
then now my parents on my ass about shit.
it's not i don't wanna tell them! it's just .... i don't wanna disappoint them for no reason. i KNOW i'm gonna stop soon anyway, just let them remain blissfully ignorant for now. and then one year later i'll be like, '' oh you guys, i DID try shit in US but i don't anymore''.....

i mean, i don't really mind my friends finding out cos i don't have a responsibility to protect you guys feelings about me? and it'd be hypocritical of me to pretend to be good when i'm not? but my parents... i jus don't wanna hurt them, esp when i'm so far away. i just.....

i don't know.
forget it.
pretend like i never said anything.

today.
sleep.
alot.
class.
shopping.
sleep more.
but i have alot of hw to do yo.
blahhhs.

[hope ya hives never come back.]

okay! imma out.

today. woke up at 4 pm. sweet.
so anyway.
did accounting hw.
tommorow i only have like, one class. LOL. at....330!

but then day after everything's over....sch as per norm T.T
makes me wanna hurl...
i'm bored....

it's been awhile
heads spinning hair flying
people up against walls dancin
strobe lights flashin
heart beats racin
it's time for us to get free it's time for us to be BE.
you gotta let go of yo inhibitions
and go with the flow
just ride the surf of the pounding beats
throw your hands up touch the sky
get low get freaky get what you want then rock it
dont care bout those people hatin they don't know what they missing
spin around then drop it
turn around then grind it
be rough be tough be whatever you feel
step out no regrets
morning light makes strangers of us
we're straight

WHOOOOO hot damn.

it was good.

started out boring, and then i was like, nope, this night ain't gonna be goin down with no shit happenin..

so we went in the dance room.

and FUCK those strobe lights were hottt hott hotttttt!

frickin made everything look hotter. hahaha.. slo-mo effect... loved it.

boring people tho...exceptin my girls of course!!

didn't drink much...kept it sober-ish... cos like, there was only beer and i don't really like it.

but it was a kegger, and the keg was in the open, so it was FREAKING cold beer.. so at least it didn't taste THAT bad ya?
jumped on the trampoline with nads... LOL at least i did it with my clothes on!! two freakish guys took their clothes off and jumped on the trampoline in freezing cold weather... no joke... they were butt-naked too.. they held their dicks as they jumped. thank goodness i was spared the details cos i was like...many metres away... LMAO.

DAMN.

it's been awhile....

ashes got really wasted.. HAHA! but that's her story to tell..

what happened while we were together in the dance room however... HAH. she describes as...''hmm...we were dance whores''

and that sounds nastier than it actually was...but we're both single and i guess that's aight.
hmm... yeah.. but technically that ain't true cos i only really dance with either people who look hot and i have no idea who they are, or my good friends, just like, friendly dancing. lol. and when i dance with someone i stay with them i don't move around. yepp. so i guess it's more of a dance fling than a dance whore? OKAY. enough discussion.

...we made a smokin threesome. hot damn we rocked it girly! =)

but white boys can't dance. lmao. they can only grind. but im not sayin that i can either! oh well. if you wanna see hot dancers, you gotta check the blacks.... or the half blacks... but theyre dangerous too..so ...yeah. white boys are safer...but i lose interest faster....

anyway! it's out of my system now... one less thing on my to do list.. LOL. jus kiddin.
and some random dude from brazil started dancin wit me and askin me questions just when i was gonna leave..
hmm..
i was like..
sorrwieeee, on this dance floor i make the call and i sho nuff didn't call on ya booty! hahahahah.

it's nice being the guy once in awhile... =)

i just can't wait to go home and rock it out wit the only guy i really wanna rock out with. ^^
cos i know he's the one person who isn't gonna bore me, an that's why i'm goin home to himmmmmm! haha. oooo bayayayayaybeee..... u prolly shud go make-out or fuck around with some random chicks too before i get back and claim you for a long long long long time. =)

oooo i shud stop typing i think i'm still kinda high....strangely....it's been a day already..... lmao!
OH YA after curfew we sneaked out and went to ashes bro's house to sleep over... real chill apartment, went there to sleep off the buzz and had a lovely breakfast in the afternoon after wakin up =) loved!
just got back awhile ago.... still have a shitload of homework to do after my SHOWER! YES! ^^

hmm.

bored.
tired.
movies tonight again.
and food.
hmm.

vespers was fun..
felt like home...
oh well...

i'm tired now.
as usual.
WHAT TO DO.
cant get no energy

Went to d partaye at skate house then later the pizza place. oh gosh. pizza with avovado is HEAVEN i tell you. HEAVEN.
came back and camwhored, then watched movies in mai ladies room down d hall ^^
Underword one and two. dammit i wanna see the third movie now!

1
How would you first ask me out?
In a casual conversation but you sound sincere about it.
call me up in the middle of the night when you think about it and then hang up once you get the answer.
In a pointless conversation that you built just to ask me out.
2
Where would you take me?
Somewhere you haven't figured out yet when you asked me.
Somewhere casual and fun.
To a really expensive place.
3
How would you be like on the date?
Like yourself, just happier.
Like yourself, just more considerate.
Like yourself, just quieter.
4
After the date and we go 'home', would you contact me in the next...
24 hours
12 hours
6 hours
5
What kind of person do you think you are?
Humorous, easy-going, thoughtful, carefree, dreamy, sweet-talker.
Outspoken, extroverted, child-like, hyper, confident, always moving or talking!
Down to earth, funny, non-judgemental, mature, spontaneous, good listener, positive, you can be quiet sometime and enjoy it!
6
What animal do you like?
Dog
Lizards
Lion
7
Which line has the most words you understand and can give a definition to?
celebrity. quiz. relationship. create. interenet. games. children. funny.
hilarious. extroverted. intense. responsibility. miniature. educational. opinion. character.
Advocated. insipid. encompasses. ethnocentric. commonwealth. conscientious. pliable. susceptible.
8
If I'm bored what would you suggest I do? [because i was VERY bored making this quiz...]
Do homework!
Go out with you and TP a car!
Go watch a movie!
9
If I was crying what would you do?
Sit next to me and don't say anything
Keep asking me what is wrong till i tell you
Try to cheer me up with jokes and lame stories
10
How many girlfriends have you had before?
Less than 5
Less than ten
Less than 1
11
Are you enjoying this quiz?
Yes, because you'd be bored without it.
Yes, because you think it's interesting.
Yes, because you have no life.
12
How many questions do you think i should have in this quiz?
12
20
14
13
If i did something random and SOMEWHAT stupid, you would....
Laugh with me and tease me about it later
Stare at me like i'm the biggest idiot you've ever seen
Laugh with me and shake your head in surrender =P
14
If i had to write an essay, which title would you tell me to write with?
Abortion
What is rock music?
Dreams.
15
Last one! If i had a problem with another girl, what would your advice to me be?
Let it go and try to forget about it. It's a small thing. =)
You wouldn't give any advice and just ask alot of questions to understand the whole situation.
You'd offer to see who was right by flipping a coin.

Let's Get Away lyrics(feat. Jazze Pha)[Chorus (T.I.)][Jazze Pha] Hey, let's get away and get a room on the other side of townHey shawty, I was thinking of you(Was you thinkin' of me, ay, ay...)[Girl] Hey, let's get a room, shawty we can freak somethin' if you down(Whachu would do?)Hey daddy, I was thinking of you[Verse 1]Bet they be like "I know he tired of the nightlifeHe want a wife, he just lookin' for the right type"Yea right, I be ridin' through the city lightsMy hat bent, gettin' high behind the 'lac tintI'm chilllin' with Brazilian women, heavy accentsThey black friends translatin', got'em all ass naked, adjacentHave relations wit'em many placesLeavin' semen in they British facesMake'em kiss they partners with it in they facesYoung pimpin' sprung women 'cross the 50 statesGot young ladies requestin' "What's Yo Name" on 50 stationsAskin' me what's a pussy popper, want a demonstrationBut I ain't waitin' til the second date, I'm so impatientRelieve'em of they aggravation, take'em rollerskatin'On them Dayton's, tell'em "Baby, stick with me, you goin' places"Go replace'em, draw erase'em out my memoryMoist panties and wet sheets when they think of me[Chorus (T.I.)][Girl] Hey, let's get away and get a room on the other side of townHey daddy, I was thinking of you(Was you thinkin' of me? Ay, sing it for me, pimpin')[Jazze Pha] Hey, let's get a room, shawty we can freak somethin' if you down(Tell'em shawty)Yea baby, I was thinking of you[Verse 2]Yo, yo... uh..From Miami to Cali, from Vegas to JerseyGot'em in Houston, Virginia, New Orleans, ya heard me?All the classy ones like to act like they a virginAnd the nasty ones like when I talk to'em dirtyBut I'm breakin' the ice, got'em laughin' and flirtin'They be, removin' they skirts when they hop in the 'burbanOnce the flick start playin' and the E start kickin' inHer girlfriend lickin' and she beggin' me to stick it inThat's why, I like chillin' with women who like womenLightskinned... Asians, Jamaicans and white womenIndians, Italians, Haitians and Puerto RicansThey be itchin' for they chance and waitin' in me to freak'emThey say..[Chorus (T.I.)][Girl] Hey, let's get away and get a room on the other side of townHey daddy, I was thinking of you(Was you thinkin' of me? Ay, tell'em for me, pimpin')[Jazze Pha] Hey, let's get a room, shawty we can freak somethin' if you down(Ay, listen to me)Yea baby, I was thinking of you(Was you thinkin' of me?)[Verse 3]Excuse me shawty, but I been watchin' you now for a whileYo whole style, from yo toes to the way that you smileAnd I hope you ain't offended by the way that this soundsBut uhh... all I keep thinkin' bout is layin' you downAnd I'm, keepin' it pimpin', I ain't playin' aroundAin't got that kinda time cuz this the only day I'm in townSo come and, chill in the cut if you willin' to cutAnd when you, give me a hug I be feelin' yo buttNow so while for while we talkin', I'm fillin' yo cupWe killin' the bottle, wake up in dirty linen tomorrowBut tell me would it trouble you if we ended up at the W-Sippin' on a malibu pine apple juice and a blunt or twoNow whachu wanna do? Opportunity's right in front of youKnow you used to meetin' dudes, dodgin'em for a month or twoBut young pimpin' spit linen to the young womenI'm T.I.P., known as pussy popper to some women[Chorus (T.I.)][Jazze Pha] Hey, let's get away and get a room on the other side of townHey shawty, I was thinking of you(Was you thinkin' of me... ay, ay...)[Girl] Hey, let's get a room, shawty we can freak somethin' if you downHey daddy, I was thinking of you(Oh yea... c'mon, tell'em)[Girl] Hey, let's get away and get a room on the other side of townHey daddy, I was thinking of you(Shit I'm on my way)[Jazze Pha] Hey, let's get a room, shawty we can freak somethin' if you downYea baby, I was thinking of you[Jazze Pha talking]Whoa whoa whoa..Ladies and gentlemenThis... is a Jazze Phizzle, T.I. collaborangelle..King of the south! Oh boy!Jazze Phizzle, T.I., Grand Hustle daddy!So smooth... futuristic..Pimps up daddy!

okayyy. i'm all done for the day!
today was a depressing day.
i seriously honestly don't know why...
like, i'm happy, but at the same time i'm so bored i'm depressed.
then again, it's not like we don't do fun shit, it's just, not crazy enough to take my mind off missing him. so that makes me depressed. why dyou think i got crazy last sem? cos i missed the bloody ass. and i missed everyone back home. same shit happenin this time.....

ahhhh.
it's depressing to miss you, you weirdo. hahaha.
nvm!
i shall find ways to cure depression!

so anyway.
after my weird lunch i met up ashes, we went for our conferences.. and along the way i was jus laffin with her about some funny shit that i can't write here cos imma get in trouble for it??? but it's funny aight. >.<>

PS: i still feel like laughing...about what me n ashes talked about!!! geez.. imma bad person. but c'mon, every chica has a right to b mean yeah? =)

peace!

there are just some people that you can't talk to unless you're stone ass drunk.

i'm serious.

maybe cos i get bored easily too?

dammit appt with international advisor like, at 1, conference at 2, class at 3 30. then some random thingy at 7.

and all i wanna do is curl up and talk to him on the phone.

fuckkkkkk.

Our very own mid winter partaye 09...
Theme: no drugs, no sex, no booze!
LMAO.
i think it's scarier when you do crazy things without being drunk, ya?

Oooookayyyy.......?

This picture leaves me speechless.....

I found my new hot dance partna....

We stonin... hells yeah... LMAO.

Look at dat, ashes is right on my butt! hahaha.

And oh, nads, could you spread those legs any wider?? lol! =D

Four chicas in one bed, what more can you ask?

loved. ^^

happy times my friends, happy times....

and right now, im so damn tired. still. had a two hour nap, but it didn't help!

so i'm kinda screwed. oh well. as long as i finish up my outline and reading soon i can go to bed till about... 12 pm tmrw! so yeah. hopefully. ^^

I MISS XIAO GUAI WU.

i miss him alot.

alotalotalotalotalot.

i wish we both never had to sleep so tht when i'm not in class we can talk.

ok.

wait.

that's a lil extreme.

but...

you get the idea!

T.T

i'm exhausted still...
my only consolation is that someone is gonna wake me up tommorw morning.
and i LOVE love love love love waking up to his voice.
and i love love love love love how he laughs and says he's gon spank me when i'm mischievious. hahahaa.
and i love love love love love how i just know how to make him laugh and he doesn't make me feel like i'm stupid.
shud i go on?
i think i should...
hahaha..
i love how he claims to be oh so numb but i know he cares about me. LMAO. yes i know you do.
i love how we talk about the most random things andyeah sometimes it's an effort to communicate but dammit it's worth it when we do.
i love how he calls me sha gua. >.<
i love how when i yell into the phone he gets really quiet for a second then pretends to be angry. [and then threatens to spank me again. -.-]
i love love love love how when i wake him up in the morning he sounds so sleepy and he's trying hard to wake up. hahahaha.
i love love love the way he tells me to go to bed when it's so late and i'm being stubborn staying up.
i loveeee the way just lying on my bed talking to him makes me warm inside. [as long as he's bein nice!]
and i love how i smile stupidly at the pandas on my bed while talking to him.
and lastly, i love hearing his laugh.
it's the best thing i've ever heard.
well.
one of the best things.
the other best thing i heard was my dog barking.
cos i love them both oh so much, hehehe.

i need to focus. and get my work done. and go back home.
cos i know what's good and that's a long ass way away.

but on a totally unrelated note. something is slightly disturbing me.

whats there to be so emo about..
nothing..
i only have a ton of literature reading to do tomorrow yes?
and not to mention i feel like there's something i'm missing here.
something.
i dont know what it is.

there's something in this picture that's missin my eye.

i've come to d conclusion that im sick of people in general.
prolly shud just follow d example of others and make me number one in my life.

im jus sayin.

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anyway!
difficult situation solved, and im strugglin wit my essay outline now. oh damn..
shoot me in d fuckin head.

man i need a break.
and school's barely just started

just two hours ago i was all like..

''ahhhhh i hate my life...
i wish i went back this weeeeek..

im so effing confused.''

then...
we talked
and i realized.
i have the best guy ever waiting for me back home >.<
thanks for understanding.
you don't know how scared i am to lose you.
and what you said and how you understand.. means so much to me.
it really does.
as long as you stay close in contact with me, we'll be fine baby. we'll be fine.

i can't remember what was the last thing i posted..
but nevermind!
imma make up the lil card and pressie for my friendy then i'll try n take a nap before class at 3! lol! exhausted... and after class..... PASS OUT! yes! hallelujah! =)

readers response 3.

One of the most important principles I learnt from the reading is that what you choose to read must be uplifting to both mind and soul, and that is must not cause or encourage skepticism. To me this means that the book read must contain a positive moral to the story if a work of fiction, and if it is a philosophical text, it should not question or attempt to undermine principles laid
down by God through the Bible.

I believe that C.S L.e.w.i.s’ M.e.r.e .C.h.r.i.s.t.i.a.n.i.t.y is a book that this principle approves. Firstly, M.e.r.e. .C.h.r.i.s.t.i.a.n.i.t.y basically proves why there is a God. It doesn’t promote skepticism; in fact, it removes skepticism regarding the existence of God through reasoning and logic. This book appeals to the same group of people who would be attracted to skepticism, as it allows independence of thought and free use of logic. However, it does not seek to undermine God’s authority in anyway, but instead proves that God has authority through a process of complex reasoning. Furthermore, M.e.r.e. .C.h.r.i.s.t.i.a.n.i.t.y improves and strengthens the mind as it requires focused and concentrated reading, unlike simple storybooks. This is a book that uses logic as its main attraction and thus the reader would require a steady and capable mind to follow the author’s train of thought.

The book also feeds the soul as it reinforces and convinces thoroughly of the fact that God does exists and is very real even today. Knowledge of this is important for those who have always questioned the existence of a higher being and also for Christians who might begin to doubt God’s presence in the onslaught of skepticism and atheistic ideas in the modern world today. Also, the later part of the book goes on to explain how one can be a true Christian, and that will benefit and encourage growth in one’s soul.

In conclusion, I believe that M.e.r.e. .C.h.r.i.s.t.i.a.n.i.t.y is a book that is approved of by the principle discussed in this response. It not only discourages skepticism but also benefits the mind and soul of the reader, thus proving to be a text truly worth reading.
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it always amazes me the kind of bullshit i can come up with in the middle of the night or even early morning..
this wasn't the best though.. cos i was trying to be sincere here. lol. the best was the one i wrote for my S.o.u.t.h.e.r.n. C.on.n.e.c.t.i.o.n.s class... i wrote a more than 300 word response to a book that i read approximately 5 pages of. or less. hahahahahaha. damn. come to think of it.. i should post it here!

im so freaking tired.

i dont' think i'll take the job after all..
just keep my spending down.. that's about it..
cos..
i don't see the point...
the stress of having a job, to earn only about 60 a month? thats depressing. i dont' think it's worth it. hahaha..
what do u think??

see, my only for workin if i work would be to screw the sch outta money.
but i can find less troublesome ways of doin that!
like...
not getting any fines..
and faking attendance slips. lmao.

basically it's troublesome...BECAUSE> i gotta get a damn Social Security number. and that's annoying as hell.

yepp.
so idk
WHAT SHUD I DOOOOOO =(

we had our own midwinter party in d dorm y'll..
was good...!
dancing and jumping on beds and screaming our lungs out.. yeah.. camwhorin..

then we decided to watch a horror movie...

do NOT watch The Farmhouse....

it's grosssss and makes me wanna throw up....

but then i was so tired i managed to fall asleep after the movie....
and this morning ''lil weirdo'' called me up and woke me up! wheee~

pics later ~!!!!!!

My new godfather.. LMAO... he looks OLD yo!

'' i look up, you look down. ''

''hissa dawg tryna be a chinaman yall''

yuppps. so that's basically the midwinter ''party''.......

dangit! im getting urges to get real partyin done yo..

this annoys me..

i wish i cud go back rite now..

but i need to finish this semester so i dont' feel like a freakin failure! lols.

so anyway...

i miss you =(

angels. yep. that's rite. -.-'''

awww my lil happy people~!

my girl friends yo!

today was a really up and down day....

i woke up, felt really contented...

then felt crappy after talkin with my mom ..

then we resolved shit and then i felt contented and calm again...

then i slept... had an awesome lunch wit Ashes..

lol..

then...

dinner wit nads..

chilled at the guys dorm awhile..

but the cafe ''atmosphere'' kinda killed my mood. ah crap..

i dont' even know why..

i think it's a self-esteem thing..

wellllll at least it'll teach me nvr to do smth like that again.

cos it only leads to lotsa embarrassment.

LMAO.

then...

went to the dudes dorm... nads ditched me. kaos. played some card game with my roomie and her self-proclaimed ''dominating'' bf. haha! and the gentle giant? omg. cracks me up when i think about it..

so like now..

i'm debating whether or not to go for the fancy dress partaye..

''party''

i dont' know how they can call it a party if no one gets hammered drunk or makes out. dammit. weird school weird partys... i need to attend a real party.

and by that, i do NOT mean some ghetto party. God. enough of that!!!!!

okay! so like...

imma dress in black short dress plus heels.

real simple =)

pics l8er i guess ^^

ARGH i hate this!!!!
MY WHOLE LIFE HAS ALWAYS BEEN SETTLED...
AND NOW..
I DONT' EVEN KNO WHAT'S GON HAPPEN NEXT WEEK.
wait.
no.
i don't even kno what's gonna happen this weekend.
it's either im leavin this week. or at the end of semester. or im not leavin at all.
all depends on whether i can get into NUS.. or if he even wants me back.
dammit.
people aren't workin wit me on this one!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DHE75K3Lszo&feature=related
this is a pretty song =) title is Chong Lai..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3iZf1rbrAw8&feature=related
this is a hawt song.. black music is always hot..
n dis is lyk ghetto fo real..

LMAO. enuff. can't do it...
and im getting sick of talkin abt food already! like, wtf,,,
we started with popcorn.. went on to hotdog..and now we're at like... funnel cakes [whatever that is] and i'm like, okay, tomyam noodles. lol.. so.. we'll see... i'm jus killin time.. and keepin on standby.. how do i put it? entertainment? in case my heart breaks all d way thru. it's holdin on by a hinge rite now.. and i injected it wit painkillers.. but if it breaks all d way. yep. imma look for entertainment fo sho. let's see.... i hope it dun come to that. all i want to do is go home. =(

that's all i want.
go home to him.
is that so hard.
yeah i know i realized it too late.
but im human, im not smart.
and yeah.
all i need is just two words.
and i'll come back.

Non voglio dimenticare nulla.
ti ricordi di male come cazzo ma
I'm gonna ricordare loro
I'll take che il dolore e far vivere in me
il tuo sorriso e le tue lacrime
i miei sorrisi e le mie lacrime
Non posso dimenticare i loro così potrebbe anche ricordare loro.
forse un giorno ..
mungkin nanti ..
che non porterà più il dolore.
forse un giorno io possa ricordare e sorridere.
forse un giorno, il mio sorriso non si nasconde una smorfia
forse un giorno, la mia risata non sarà pianto copertura
forse un giorno, come i può essere insensibili come lei.
forse un giorno mi perdere questa intensa voglia di correre ciecamente la strada sperando un giorno a raggiungere dove siete.
haha
io onestamente così stupido.
ma gli umani sono così.
apprendiamo attraverso errori.
Ho appena visto ciò che hai scritto una volta nel corso di novembre,
e ha detto, in ur nick,''se vuole andare e io ti permetterà di andare''

ma lei mi ha promesso che non si lascia andare più facilmente.

你跟我说过，说你不会轻易放手。
到最后你还是放手了！
我也知道这不是你的错。但是，假如。。。。
假如你当时不放手呢？
那时我很不想和你分。只是以为没别的办法。。。
所以就不说声对不起。也不试着解释我怎么会那么疯狂那么不体会你的感觉。
你现在就不会读这一写，我就可以写！
知道吗？我每次喝醉时，跟别的男生出去玩。不管是谁，我都会在他们面前哭。说我要我男朋友在我身边。我承认，有一段时间，我有对一个男生有好感。。。好感吗？还是有点喜欢！但是我每次喝醉了去找他，到最后不会跟他说我喜欢他，反而又会哭，一直叫他带我回家，带我去找你.
你知道吗？我跟别的男性朋友一起出去玩时有多么想他们是你。。我恨我需要和不是我男朋友的男生花了那么多时间！但是我也不喜欢每天一个人呆在房间。。

我。。。像疯子。。自己写给自己读，给自己哭。
应改不再说了嘛。。。是自己笨，自己犯了错，应该乖乖受罪，不怨的接受自找的心痛和眼泪。

哈哈。。。
不说了。。。
天快亮了。。。
明天还有课。。明天还有很多戏要演。。

okay. so today was an extremely tiring but pretty fun day thanks to my dear lil roomie =)
first i had to start classes at 8 am.. but Rm 1128 decided to go for breakfast and start off the school year with a hott BANG. ^^ damn straight we did.. hehe! dear lza wit her shiny rebonded hair and me in my aquamarine dress ... ooo and star rings! ^.^

class at 8 was accounting. oh man. it's awesome.. i have a great seat mate, and the lecturer seems amicable... classroom is fuckin awesome with long desks and lotsa space to chill. mmm! love love love it!

after that, i was walkin out and met up my friend.. and he was like tellin me i shud get into his RELB class! but it was full.. so i was like, damnn. but he said he'd ask d lecturer if they cud squeeze me in? onli if the class was fun tho! mmm. thas nice of him =)
we'll see i guess. i need a religion class.. mite join L's but hers is at like, 10? so it's d same time as my next class., dammit...

anyway! so then i dragged my ass down to buy my textbooks wit lza.. and almost passed out carrying it back to the dorm. OMG. SO effing HEAVY .... rested for 5 mins after dragging my sorry ass into the room, then headed out to my next class!

LITERATURE.
omg.
idk about high school lit, but college lit.. I HAVE THREE FREAKING intense books to read. o m g.

it's gonna be intense...
very intense...

then i went back to the room..
and i was like ''where is da lurrrveeee???''
n lza totally showed me da lurrrrve. awwwww. so comforting to have her around esp when i was being depressin. haha. i guess it was the first time i cried infront of her when i wasn't drunk? mmm.... after talkin with my dear live-in-psychologist/fellow-psychopath... i calmed down a lil.. and yeah. pretty good! went to my third class of the day! which is a FITNESS class. Oh goshhhh. the homework? i gotta do 150 minutes of exercise over 5 days. EVERY WEEK. if this doesn't get me fit, i don't know what will!

after class i was just hyper... till i landed my ass infront of the computer again.. then i was gonna get stupidly emo again? but someone wrote me something and i cheered up! whee! reeses! hehe.. but jus as that was wearing off, thank God for Lza! hyper lil girl wanted to go OUT. so we went to the SA centre to play pingpong and pool... was good! then i finally got a bit of an appetite and we SHARED a dinner. DAMN. i practically NEVER share food. i'm like this wolf that eats n is like, rawrrr stay away from my food. well not exactly, but like, i don't split MEALS. haha. but i did! and hey! it's really a good idea!!! damn! cos when u split it you eat less, and that's a perfect diet! hehe! awww i love my girl ^^

anyway. still can't find my damn phone. and also.
no ones makin my day wit more messages.
imma jus gonna go to bed.. lols. i shud study actually. but . wtf.
sweet dreams peepols =)
tmrw i haveeeeeeeeeee to figure out how to get a job, and also, engl and hist class. gon suck balls man! but it starts at like, 2 pm. so i'm good =)

xoxo~

The Top Ten Loves:
sp
lyt
chacha
sha
prawnny
duckers
liza
ash
lii
C'lang

The top 3 hates:
L.i.n.l.e.y the bitch that used to live nxt door.
July
whatever bitch at southern is taking all our fines money. LMAO.

The best moment:crying my eyes out in his arms cos even tho i hurt, i loved.

The worst moment: was a moment when i opened my eyes and realized i'd been lied to.

The Best thing that happened: me learning to not be afraid to say what i want and what i need.

The worst thing that happned: not realizing that there were two sides to a coin earlier.

The most bittersweet thing: those nights where all i could think about was flying back to him.

The most Regretted thing: letting down my guards.

The most UN-regretted thing: telling him i didn't want to let him go.

The people i spent the most time with outside of class: liza, ash, nads, drey, lii, shan2, jdfy.

The people i spent the least time with out of class: the 2000 students on campus i don't know.

The Boyfriend of the year:zeng shi peng.

The Girlfriend[s] of the year: ting, cha, sha, lizaaaa, ash

The One-who-helped-me alottt of the year: in SG, dna. in US, lii.

The One-who-got-under-my-skin alot of the year: this dumb girl at Southern who i dun really kno

The most Un-judgemental adult:Ms Margarett Tan! <3

The new food of the year: quesadillas and MAC N CHEESE.

The new shopping place of the year: pacsun, charlotte ruess

My favorite fash. of the year: jeans. =_+

My total of long cuts: erm.. i think.. one?? can't remember...

Number of times getting wasted: hmm. tournament. atl. dorm. dorm. dorm. guys dorm. friend's house.... and maybe once or twice more that i can't remember? idk..

Worst tasting thing: cough syrup. seriously.

Worst hangover cause: tylenol overdose. damn that thing sucks.

The biggest joke of the year: the shop i worked at closin down!

The biggest tragedy: earthquake in sichuan. haha.

The longest moment: on the escalator for the last time, hugging him and then his hand on my head.

The shortest moment: when i was getting on the plane in august and i only had that short moment to look back one last time.

What i wish i had done: nothing. =) i've done all i wanted to do.

The best day: 21 april.

The worst day: hmm... there've been alot. lol. but the WORST probably... was... 13 dec.

The most fucked up statement from others to me: ''i'll use my pinkie ....'' [well it was fucked up. trust me.]

The most fucked up statement from me to others: i can't seem to think of any leh.. =P

The most painful goodbye: to those people bak in SG.

The most permanent goodbye: none, thank goodness.

The best hour: havin ban mian with lyt. and K with chacha! ^.^

The worst hour: hmmmm. yup. it was exhausting and annoying.

The best pastor ever:Pr Philip Ko!

The sweetest couple of the year: Lizaaa&sammy

The shortest couple of the year: YT and RL

The greatest shock of the year: what was behind those jeans. *ahem*

The Funniest statement of the year: ''i'm bored, say something else.'' [no seriously. in context, it was hilarious. to me. duhh.]

The saddest statement of the year: If ever one day you find your feelings have returned, promise me you'll look for me.

The Best pet of the year: Caesarion!!! my fat white hamster who loves to sleep and eat and stare at me. ^_^

Favorite playlist of the Year: jay chou, li sheng jie, zhang shao han. akon. usher. any song that has a great beat. =)

The Greatest Gift: a second chance.. which i still blew.. but well. shit happens for a reason! =)

鱼儿爱上了飞鸟。　　

鸟每天飞过蓝天，在空中划优美的弧线。
有天当它以同样完美的姿势掠过水面时，矫健身影的倒映在水中，也倒映在了鱼的心上。
飞鸟眼神里的温柔融化了鱼所有的矜持。鱼儿是没有泪水的，因为它生活在水中。　　
鸟儿恋上了鱼儿。　　
这里没有喧闹，没有浮躁，鱼安静的摇摆在水中，永远沉静的守着自已那份温柔。
飞鸟以弧划过天际时内心也是孤寂的，因为它的翅膀注定要四处漂泊，飞鸟流浪的心需要归宿，而鱼温暖的怀抱是它的追求。　　

鱼儿与飞鸟相恋了。　　
鱼儿与飞鸟诉情话，浅唱低呤。　　

它们在有星的夜里风花雪月，在有太阳的日里寂寞等待，这份寂寞是凄凉的也是美丽的。鱼儿每次送走潇洒的鸟儿，目送着它远去的背影，鸟儿每次凝视着温柔的鱼儿，总想把它永远拥在怀中，是天空与水成了世界上最坚实的墙，这种甜蜜后的凄冷像冬日的雪使鱼儿颤抖。　　

鱼儿竭力跃出水面，贪婪的张望，呼吸，它看到深情的飞鸟，看到没有过的清晰，但却没有了水。飞鸟努力融进水中，它嗅到鱼儿的芳香，眼前没有过的混沌，没有了翅膀还能叫鸟吗？　　陷入爱情时总想为对方改变自已，甚至失去自我，失去方向，但是这样就可以长相厮守了吗？没有了水没有了翅膀的爱情又能维持多久？　　

依然是风花雪月的时刻，鱼儿与飞鸟依然相拥着看花开花谢。鱼儿深情看着飞鸟：“鸟，我想我们能永远这么快乐的在一起。”鸟儿看到泪光在鱼儿眼眶中，闪着金光。“鱼，我们会的。”它们紧紧拥着，似乎想让灵魂从此连结在一起，美丽的玫瑰洒满整个天空，伴着鱼儿珍珠般的泪。　　哭了。　　

鱼儿的哭是没有人知道的，因为它在水中　　
飞鸟的哭是没有人了解的，因为它的完美与孤傲。　　
世间精灵可以相恋，可以疯狂，却不能厮守一生。
可以为爱情憔悴，可以为爱情落泪，但天空飘落的芬芳玫瑰，却没有一片是属于它们的。这是多么残忍的事，为什么爱神总要吝啬，给了它们美丽给不了长相守，给了它们相逢，给不了它们永恒。　　

不能厮守的爱情，它们无奈的分手了。　　

鱼儿汹涌的泪水浸在水里融化，飞鸟洒落的泪化成冬日的第一场雨。鱼儿回到那个舔舐伤口的角落，飞鸟孤寂忧伤的的身影在天际划过最后一道弧，爱情是那么脆弱与无奈。
　　
它们从此成了两道平行线，生活没有了交点。　　

也许若干年后，鱼儿的娇颜老去时，飞鸟的英姿苍老时，偶尔，它飞水面时想起曾经的美好与忧伤，问候一句：“鱼儿，你还好吗？” 　　

后记：这不只是鱼儿与飞鸟的爱情，也许也是你的，也是我的，也是他的。

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see.
i fucking hate that after hearing this story..
i cried like fuck.
and never can stop crying.
it was just a bad day..
but...

as long as he doesn't need me, i need to stay away.

最後的疼愛
是手放開.

the only thing i need ..
is that promise..
that one day...
ru guo you yi tian...
he will know what to do.

OKAY. im gonna try to blog about happier things now..
liza darling is back..
nads is back too!
dreydrey back, saw him briefly..
jdfy is back, hung out with him a bit durin d last days of break...
Lang3 is back too... hot DAMN. muahaha.
and other random people i'm not really close to...but... yknow...

oh man. today was like, TRAUMA.
i had a bad phonecall in the morning... but it helped me straighten out some things.
then i took like, 8 Tylenol, and that knocked me out SO damn bad. i Promise never to do it again. damn. it was worse den a frickin overdose of vodka. anyway.
then JDFY called me, woke me up, and so i showered and we tried to go buy textbooks. damn. he bought his buttttt my card had probs and they were bitches and said i had to fix my card before i cud buy the damn books. FINE. so i go to try to activate my card, AND THE FUCKIN THING IS CLOSED. ok. so im about to cry cos im jus emotional like that,,, lol.. and then i went into the dorm, i saw nads!!! so i was so happy we both started screaming and then when we hugged, i had this insane urge to cry again. like, WTF, big crybaby. hahahaha. ok. then we chilll and do some stuff, then we go to dinner. HA. dinner. i thought i would feel better after coming back from break but i feel just as.....traumatized. ok. traumatized is too strong a word.. but... just.. well i didn't feel too good! but then .. hmm.

after hours under nads company and 3 movies, i feel better! well. i feel numb. haha.

numb is an awesome feeling.
better than Tylenol. Tylenol sucks. please. to people who consider usin that shit. DON'T. it is fuckshit. yup. haha.

so yep. what else what else..
oh yeah, im havin a fooooood discussion with someone.. and it's nice and funny. im happy i guess? we're up to hershey's kisses now. LMAO. it started from... popcorn? but at the same time..it's just not the same.. it's just.. not him. not the one i want.

OH GOD SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO BE SELFISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck.

我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台wo ba zi ji guan qi lai zhi liu xia yi ge yang tai每当天黑推开窗我对着夜幕发呆mei dang tian hei tui kai cheng men dui zhe ye mu fa dai看着往事一幕一幕kan zhe wang shi yi mu yi mu再次演出你我的爱zai ci yan chu ni wo de ai我把电视机打开听着别人的对白wo ba dian shi ji da kai ting zhe bie ren de dui bai也许那些故事可以给我一个交代ye xu na xie gu shi ke yi gei wo yi ge jiao dai你要的爱我学不来ni yao de ai wo xue bu lai眼睁睁看情变坏yan zheng zheng kan qing bian huai人怔怔看情感概ren zheng zheng kan qing gan kai不能给你未来我还你现在bu neng gei ni wei lai wo huan ni xian zai安静结束也是另一种对待an jing jie shu ye shi ling yi zhong dui dai当眼泪流下来伤已超载dang yan lei liu xia lai shang yi qiao zai分开也是另一种明白fen kai ye shi ling yi zhong ming bai我给你最后的疼爱是手放开wo gei ni zui hao de teng ai shi shou fang kai不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海bu yao yi zhang shuang ren chuang zhong jian ge zhe yi pian hai感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白gan qing de wu dian jiu liu gei shi jian man man piao bai把爱收进胸前左边口袋ba ai shou jin xiong qian zuo bian kou dai最后的疼爱是手放开zui hao de teng ai shi shou fang kai不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪bu xiang yong yan yu la che suo yi xuan ze bu ze guai感情就像候车月台gan qing jiu xiang hou che yue tai有人走有人来you ren zou you ren lai我的心是一个站牌wo de xin shi yi ge che pai写着等待xie zhe deng dai我把收音机打开听着别人的失败wo ba shou yin ji da kai ting zhe bie ren de shi bai啃咽的声音仿佛诉说着相同悲哀geng yan de sheng yin fang fu su shuo zhe xiang tong bei ai你的依赖还在胸怀ni de yi lai hai zai xiong huai我无法轻易推开wo wu fa qing yi tui kai我无法随便走开wo wu fa sui bian zou kai感情中专心的人容易被伤害gan qing zhong zhuan xin de ren rong yi bei shang hai

im so blloooooodddddyyyy bored...
but it's good.
givin me time to settle down after like, ten days of nonstop rushin around.
=)
im really contented..
lookin back,,,,
i met all the people i wanted to meet.
well, some of them i'd have liked to spend more time with...
but that can be solved in may!
lol..

i met..
chacha
tingster
shashameimei
jeerehs
missy tan
mista yaaacob
mista fammm
beta jj
duckers
my two lil meis..
chrissy uncle..
zoee
geraldine soo ying xiang.
da ge.
all those church peeps...
my couscous
relatives
siao eh senior
and others.....who...i can't seem to remember....

oh shit.
im really afraid right now.
afraid for myself.
this is prolly the last turning point for me..
i'll change back for you.
well. not change. just. be good ...i guess?
im nt gonna do it for anyone else.
they have to jus love me as i am.
but for you im willing to make this effort.
cos i realize it's the only way we can be together.
but if it doesn't work out.
if you can't go.
if ther's no way we can be in the same place.
i shudder to think what will happen.
well.
not shudder.
i'll just accept it..
but inside i'll still be scared.
see, cos anywhere wit you i wont' be scared.
here, i am scared.
im scared of myself.
cos i know i can b crazy, and im not sure that's a great thing.
it's just....
i dont' care where i go with you cos i know you will take care of me.
jus take me with you.

new year's resolutions????hehehehe...

let's see...ther'll be 18 cos im gonna be 18 this year! =)

`first and foremost is the decision i made practically on the first of january itself! i'm gonna put you first. i'm going to hold on and fight for this, because it was always me giving up on us before. i'm going to really really try to go to where you are, because, i think it's worth it~! i think you're worth it.
`second, i made this decision in singapore while on break... i SO gotta lose at least 3 kg. and soon. lmao.. i felt freakin obese compared to those skinny chicas back home!
`third, i wanna be a better daughter. =) cos my parents are really jus.... awesome ^^
`fourth, i'm gonna try alot harder in my studies this year, last semester i was basically slacking. This time round is fo real. +)
`fifth, i gotta improve my temper. mm.. cos this short fuse is gonna get me in trouble one day! =P
`sixth, im gonna keep trying to live my life with no regrets! pretty successful so far, but gotta b careful! and never say never! hhaa!
`seventh, poke jeereh prawnny more!
`seventh, go to danz class with meimei so i can pinch her cheeks more. LOL.
`eigth, get a really good tan in summer with yt!
`ninth, improve my mandarin....speakin and writin,,.... argh, hard, but necessary!
`tenth, not get any damn fines in Southern this semester!
`eleventh, feed liza more chocolate!
`twelfth, mmm i wonder if that's how you spell it, but anyway... i wanna find a job at Southern. whee~!
`thirteenth, i gotta be vague about this but i wanna repeat dat weekend before finals! hella fun... ^^ ashy and liza, dis time tgh!
`fourteenth, i wanna go visit new york, chicago, and california, soon!
`fifteenth, im gonna appreciate every single one of my close friends even more than i have. im gon appreciate them as if im gonna lose them in one day kinda appreciate. lmao!
`sixteenth, life is short, i'm gonna take chances, and go for what i want. just as long as it doesn't hurt anyone!
`17th, here's to keepin safe! Liza yknow what i mean 0.o
`and lastly, b more mature... and b calmer.,,! =)

so dats my new year's resolutions!
loves, everyone! =)

let's see..
personal...

my parents: i love you guys. see. after going to the states, without you guys around...it feels weird.. empty.. yeah i have more freedom, but i miss being with u ! thanks. for all the support you both have given me ... no matter how we fight, i love you mom n dad! =)

yt: let's see.... it was really d hardest leaving u when i first went to d states. i honestly dint knwo what i wud do without having those times with you when we would get crazy and have an awesome day.. well, getting drunk is a poor replacement, but i can't wait till summer when we can have tons of happy days completely sober yeah! and you with all ur nagging about me changing =) i kno u still love me in spite of it! =P this last round u were crazy busy with alot of work and exams, so sad couldn't spend more time with you, but the times we spent felt to me like we never spent any time apart. sleeping in church.. lmao.. rushing off to gucci.. WAITING for you at bedok.. nopes, nothing's changed babe. and i love it. =) i love you!

cha: girly! u n yt are like my two best girlfriends ever... u know what? those times going shopping with you and especially this last holiday, catching up with you, gossiping till i lost my voice, going crazy in kbox,, damn girl, you totally get me, and you're a chica after my own heart! rushing around singapore to with me to meet my uncle.. playing pool, cam whoring! and especially you helping me make that decision to buy the lovely LBD! we are awesome shopping tgh girly. i love love love you +) may you always stay as happy and crazy as only you can be =)

sha: my lil mei has grown up! omg! it was hilarious when i went there , saw you among all the lil sec ones n twos or whatever they are.. and it totally hit me n jireh at d same time! you've so grown up! hahaha! i love that... and u know what, thanks for all your support of me. i nvr really expected it but jus knowing u r always there, n will still love me no matter how i change.. well , you be good and have a great year darlin! =)

zoee: YOU and I both KNOW what you NEED! so . yes. my support 100% of the way sweetheart =)

and now for the guys.............

jireh: hanging wit you this break was relaxing n refreshing... it's good to be myself and chill yknow? with you.. haaha.. oh! and shopping! hahaha.. anyway, i wish you the best of best of best of luck in ur studies, ur love life, and everything okay? =) be good now!

Jasper: you ! u know what? i can't wait to meet up with u again aft ur attachment.. movies, shopping, food... we had fun =) and we'll have fun. yeah? haha! come back safe and dun get cheenafied ! =)

duckers: you d best man. i knwo you're emo and all, but you'll be aight. cos u always pull thru! =) and that day, u were so patient with my whispering and all, cos i totally cudnot talk and you had to fine tune ur hearing sense? haha.. awesome.. and all the crazy shoppppppping in bugis.. OH and trying on that cute gay shirt for me! =D take care duckers! loves!

dana: jus wanna say im damn proud of you for finding an awesome gf and being GOOD to her. count your blessings my dear! haha! and you're becomin a good boy too, more mature? that's rite.. be good now, santa will be back before u know it, n so u better be nice, yes? hehee =)

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so now for those.... people in Southern....
hahahaha....

Liza: damn it was interesting getting to know my first roommate ever!!! i love the way we have stuff in common.. i love how we wake up swearing.. i love how we try to feed each other n get each other fat. lmao..i love talking about random things when we should be studying. i love how i influenced you to start wearing shortshort dresses..and how Sammy boy is gonna kill me for that, HAHAHA. i love our crazy midnight photo shoots...[ we seriously need to find jobs yah??] anyway! *raises shotglass* here's to d cutest bestest roommate ever yo!!! cheers!!

Ashy: girl i miss you! yo're coming back in like two or three days but well, just hurry up! see, the one thing i'll always remember abt you is.. ur creeeeepyness! hahahha.. but u know what, i dun really find it creepy, it's just real sweet and i appreciate it! so feel free to 'creep me out'.. yep! i'll b there for you when u wanna talk about KARMA.. or... yknow.. STUFF like that. =) energizer bunny stuff? let's go walk d greenway again!!! =)

Nads: oh man, somehow when i think of you, i think of two things... crazy impulse dancing then running out to fetch ashy, and ....eating apples..?... in the bathroom. OMG. that was funny,,.... i miss you lots girly... you need to come back and we can be random and crazy again =) let's see, we could start with finishing the apples in my drawer! LMAO> jokejoke.. but seriously. fly back asap! here's wishin u an amazin new year! =)

shanshan: you'll prolly never see this! but nevermind! it's always awesome spending time with you, and talking with you, even tho mandarin is kinda hard for me rite now.. but u keep me speaking it! hahaa. and oh, i love the way you EAT! hahaha.. inspires me to eat more! and i just love the way you love life ^^ rock on sista~~ =)

lyly: let's see.. ur one of the first friends i made around here. wait. first guy friends. =) and i really can't thank you enough.. for all the times you had to more or less babysit me? ESPECIALLY the time....well.. let's not go into details.. but yknow, that time when i didn't wanna go back to the dorm and threw ur phone around? yeah. anyway! thanks for always trying to be there for me.... esp the party thing.. i didn't know u tried to go down.. that really made me smile. haha. im gonna try not to b so crazy anymore... try... hahahah! =) oh! and thanks for introducing me to like, community work! cos if u didn't i'd nvr know that it was actually fun! arigato!

dreydrey: duuuude...we've had probs... haha.. and so i don't really know how we stand rite now, but looking back i wanna say thanks for those super long talks that made time fly by so that we didn't even realize how late it was? haha. thanks for helping me out with getting my medication the last time too. and yeah... those times bowlin and skating... good times yeh =) well, here's wishin u d best year... settle down already! n start studyin ^^ [ yes i can hear you sayin that u don't need to study..! ]

JDFY: hmm... you're the first person that ever managed to wake me up so damn early to go eat breakfast! and you knwo what? i love that! cos breakfast early is good.. let's do it again next semester! =) u know what else i remember about u? that night in the guys' dorm, both of us having problems with our long distance relationships! shifu! ni hao ke lian oh! haha.. this semester, let's study harder! and you shall pass your TOEFL =) anyway. im actually waiting for u to wake up now cos i wanna go buy food =_=''' ciiaos~!

Tintin: see, when i first met you, i didn't like u cos i thought u were a racist jerk. then later i thought you were a racist jerk who tried to kill me in his car! see, urs was the first car i ever cried in here. hmphs! AHHAHAHA~! seriously im bein honest here. but then later, i realized you are a really nice dude and fun to hang out with, but ur still racist =D anyway,.. dinner at KR's again sometime dude! =) good luck in catchin whoever u r tryin to catch! +D

zhizhi: it was fun havin u in speech class! =) u nver gonna read this, so i'll keep it short! jia you and wish u all the best for the new year! =) keep working hard oh! xin nian kuai le, nian nian you fu, bu bu gao sheng, shen ti jian kang, da ge! ^^

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and now for someone special...
i just need you to understand.. if i give up my planned future for you, please, pleaseeee make some effort for me okay? study harder, cos u gotta know that even makin this decision, i still believe that education has gotta come first before relationships. this is just an exception i'm making. ahhahaa. cos, i just really didn't wanna lose you. and... well... it's the only way! let's see what you decide =)

aight aight! if i forgot to write u up in here, tell me! cos my brain is seriously half dead the whole time i'm doing this! so yeah! cheeers~! =)