Love, Dawn♥

why does everyone think i'm lying when i say

i haven't had SEX.

i have not engaged in SEXUAL INTERCOURSE with ANYONE. not even my super adorable sexy boyfriend.

sheeeesh...

i'm so open about everything, why wud i lie about this????

omigosh it's so ridiculous.

anyway...

this thought just struck me when i was on the MRT...

" I may be too cynical, but why does it feel to me like it's so much more a performance than anything else? you perform well, and you get rave reviews. people stop worrying about you for a couple of weeks. It's like you've got to get them to approve of who they think you are. Cos if you cause their disapproval? Then you have got to start performing again till you hit on a masterpiece that wins back their adulation. Or risk getting written out of the script. oh, Life! "

argh.
gettin forced by my mom to watch a sappy movie called Trail/of/a/Panda is NOT FUN.
gotta go later like around 5 -.-

it's just gonna make me miss MY panda more.
not to mention the incredibly laidback life just a lil north of here. sheesh.

anyway!
let's see....
thursday had tuition in the evening. super tiring day for some reason.

friday was D BOMB. hahahaa. it's been like HOW LONG since i've been to sentosa?? and to go wit me girl was the cherry on the cake. i can't upload pics so i've deff gotta depend on her to send them to me *hint hint*.. as my stupid laptop won't be back for like 2 more weeks??? so i can't risk uploading any 'incriminating' pics up onto my dad's computer. mwakakakaka. face and back got burnt slightly. worst was my stomach and thighs. like, ouchfuckshitman. yeah. but it was definately worth it. i feel much less white now. LMAO. i wanna go againgaingain!!!!!

hmmm what else??

oh yeah, im fat.
but tryna lose it.
and how the crap am i supposed to do that if i can't dance. cos i HATE running.
OH WHICH REMINDS ME i went to the gym on thursday. THAT'S why i was tired. brisk walking for half an hour. ran for 15 mins. rode [a stationary bike] for another half an hour. some weights. urgh. i have to agree with my babe, working out in a gym is boring as shit. not that shit is boring, but.. u get my drift!

hmm..
i gotta get one more day job for thurs and tues... and mondays. cos im bored stiff. today is just a reminder WHY i need another job. cos staying at home is boring and unprofitable. sheesh. AND there's that major risk of ur mom dragging u off to go see a freaky movie. man. her first time to go into a cinema since she got baptized and she's gonna do it for such a lameass movie?! at least i dun have to pay for it. mwakakaka.

anyway! where was i?? oh yea. and i gotta visit the library sometime before wednesday to borrow couple of books for dat lil girl..

SHIT i miss studying. too bad i just missed the closing application date for July's classes.
then again.
maybe i don't. slacking is oh so much fun.
IF i can find work AysAp.

what else what else....
nothing else.

reviews on the movie when i get back later i guess =D

awwwwwsh,,,,

im overflowin wit lurveeee for all my chicas....

you're all very much MISSED!

i miss u girls, and alll the others ...that i didn't post their pics up... but were still part of my life somehow.

lollls.

ehleh.

so diplomatic. anyway!

im veryveryveryveryvery tired.

so.

toodles!

so i've been getting a LEEEETLE bit lazy on my blogging side, and ii'll make it up to you by typing out a crazy long pieca shite, in celebration of the fact that i FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY got my long fake nails off! and can now type at my usual speed of X/wpm. HAHA. halleluuuujah~!

so where to start???
well, right before i went to DEHSAHRHU... for the church retreat 09, i got a p1 private tutee. hahaha. if there IS such a word. anyway. she's ahdorrrable, so i kept the job, even tho the pay sucks like a muthafucka. hahaha. so so so...

FRIDAY- SUNDAY:
dragged my sorry ass down to thomson at like 7 30am. got on the bus with my girl and grammy. uneventful. reached there, ate a horrifying lunch, and then enjoyed the freezing conference room. the resort was nice =) the food was shit. the people were alright. which is saying alot. and the prawns and the Silent Emo One and the alien and yanting and missy tan OBVIOUSLY were the only people i talked to the whole time i think. hahahahhahaha. okok ba.. i won't go into details. anyway! durian party was ahmayyyzing... so was swimming. did we swim on friday??? i can't remember. i think so! haha. then i couldn't swim on saturday. iiiidiot. but at least i tanned a BIT. hmm. hmmm... i despised getting buried in the sand. it found it's way into my underwear. ALL OF IT. i had a Sand Bra and Sand Panty liners. nuff said. so after that, the nights were pretty fun. well. one night was. the second night was...... AHEM AHEM AHEM! sry i caught a cold.. coughcoughcoughhhhcoughhhh. erm erm what else?? not much? trip back was uneventful other than the walking-induced stomach cramps i ENDURED. hahaha. ehh leh. power. reached SYAS again, and dumped my bags there . went to eateateat with dadds, and went down to the esplanade to catch the last performances of the Flipsideeee festival. aiiiihs. it was fun. wanted desperately to dance at the totally amusing old school rock n roll concert...but was too exhausted, and of course my dad was as unmoving and unconducive for dancing as the pillar he leaned on the entire show. ahhahaha. there was however this cute balding fat old man who danced his butt off during the WHOLE show. dudeeee that guy was like, FIT for his age....despite his potbelly and excess fats.. lolllls... he had madddd skillz, for real. haha.

monday-
tuition in the morning, make up for missing the Sunday session. then met Chris and YT for lunch, made Chris eat banmian. hahahaha. amazing. he actually did! then we went to orchard to run errands... bugis, had a totally IRRITATING DECEPTIVE ANNOYING encounter with stupid HERBALIFEEEEE people who said they needed people for customer service, but actually wanted more sales people, then went to watch an 'apocalypse' genre movie... completely noisy but pretty fun~ especially the sweet and touching parts [which were nonexistent]... hahaha! but i enjoyed myself IMMENSELY. at the expense of someone's name and dignity... haaahahaaa. oh well. that's what i like about english. i can torture people in english, but if they don't understand english, how can it be torture? ahhhh sweet sweet taste of their agony. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHHAHHA. sadistic.

Tuesday: uneventful. went to momma's shop to accompany her.... set my eyes for the first time on the sorry excuse for a guy that has started attempting to work there. sigh. went down to school to pick up my bags that i dumped there on sunday, and had lunch wit dadds. then went back home to SLEEEEP. ah sweet. slept all the way till the next day. cool huh??

Wednesday: tuition. tired. interview. tireder. fell down. MUCHO PISSED OFF. lol. then like that lo. it was a great day though. for some private reasons =D *winkks* cos i saw someone i haven't seen for like.....2 months? hahahahha.

Today.
4 interviews. or rather 3 interviews one form filling.the last one proved successful. im now the proud employee of a tuition center. teaching sec 1 and 2 english and whatever classes they can find to dump on me. oh well. pay isn't amazing, but it's better than what im getting for private tuition. about like, 20 an hour for a class of 5-8 kids. materials provided. should prove to be educational and maybe even a bit fun. oh the irony. if i was gonna be a teacher in the future this wud be great on my resume. but now? HAHAHHAHA.oh bloody hell. but at least i got a job. to pay for that too-adorable 0.8 kg ball of trouble.oooooh~ not to mention two very important people have very important birthdays this year! =)

okay. so. if i can earn two thousand in two months, that'll be ideal.but on this kinda tuition thingy, not so possible, so mayb 2 thousand in like, 3 months. and that's cutting it like, REAL close. hahaha. good thing is i can keep teaching after school starts =) cos the times are damn flexible ^^

whooooO~!!

thank you God ^^

i thought i was never gonna find a freakin job. =.='''

not with saturday off and my fussy requirements. lollll.

anyway!

now im gonna curl up in a ball and wait for my dinner to reach home. cos im exhausted and lonely. jahahahaa.

i miss my boy and my girl and my baorui!
i miss my parents too. well. i miss my mom. i saw my dad this mornin. hahaha.

baby makes me smile.
baby makes me scared.
baby makes me feel like i can jump higher than a mile.

baby makes me happy.
baby makes me cry.
baby makes me want to get oh so sappy.

baby makes me sparkly
baby makes me worry
baby makes me full of feelings so tingly!

baby makes me alive
baby makes me die
baby makes my heart either fly or take a dive.

good night baby! =D

hahahah wahhhh damn....rou ma. anyway~!!!! today had esplanade with my dadda.... after church... which some IDIOT didn't go to church cos she overslpt. still tell me can go to breakfast somemore. hAhhaahah!!!! aiiih.. den ... i was kinda emo.. cos my two ai ren nt around. nvr mind!!!
this week planned out le!

tmrw lunch with grandparents. and. yea =p
monday i gtg to the library and SMA.
tuesday shopping with chacha and hongjie.
wednesday? idk! hopefully can meet up with miss lyt. =P
ahaha.
thursday i wanna slp.
friday is the church retreat liaooooo. dieeee. i hope it's gonna be CLEAN. and fun. and i wanna get a tan. so i wonder if i can wear bikini. i wonder. hopefully this church camp won't be too retarded ba. =&

so yeah!!!! im lookin forward to tmrw!

and im missing someone le.
im missing three ppl actually.
or more.
i miss lyt, but im seeing her soon. =P
i miss chacha. but im seeing her soon too!
i miss mr sonofabitch zengshipeng! n he's taking so long to come back.
and i miss baorui..my cute baby boy...
and i miss liza tang & ashes!!! my crazy amigos in the US of A. lolls!!

im all missed out mannnnn....
T.T

& that's why we're meant to be, it's why i'm in love with you.

random much??? anyway! im really really really happy...and still missing him like crazy. but now we're gonna work things out and oh thank GOD im just going to be serious about things this time round i guess. [stop laughing assholess!!!!]

peace!!