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cripes.
the photoshoot is on, baybee. hahaha...
but i need a good camera.
IDK abt the one i have...doesn't seem gud... oh shucks...
we'll see how it turns out! =D
it's all or nothing !!
i still feel sick.
and grumpy.
but dear duckie has agreed to sub for my tuition tonight, so i can dun worry about it le =)
still so damn tired though.
cos i still gotta take care of the lil baby.
oh welll...
toodles
ok.
latest update.
I'M SICK.
fuck...
won't be working or going out until about thursday or friday.... -.-'''
damn lowgrade fever...so i dun think it's anything serious. and the doctor won't see me until i have a fuckin high fever so i can't even confirm what it is that i have, which means i have to stay home and watch endless tv. which basically just pisses me off. oh. and now i'm coughing but again i can't go to the doctors jus cos i dun have a high enough fever. like bloody hell?? if i can confirm it as a natural flu then i can go out le right????
this H1N1 thingy better end soon, otherwise people [like my parents] are gonna panic over every sneeze i have. lol.
anyway. im off to bed. makin use of the time to catch up on all the tv and sleep i've missed while workin.
so!
quickkk updaytee...
New baby in the family~ Rafiel [middle name yet unknown] Ye... no chinese name yet.. =P
He was born on d 8th of january, 2008..
Uber goodnatured and adorable... looks like a mini husky?
Yeah...
Likes bathing, following me around the house, and sniffing my other dog's ass. Also insists on sleeping on my double decker bed with me every night. The first night he was nervous of the height and didn't move the whole night. The next night he started walkin around on the bed. yup. Now nothing is sacred anymore =P
Anyway..
blog more later, im sleepy. and tired. cleanin dog pee ain't all it's made out to be. hahahahha =P
oooh hot damn i kinda like this skin.,... easier to see and stufff... whatcha think?? =P
and i think i mite, just maybe, start openin this blog up a lil more...
we'll see!
loves!
i have several good reasons for not blogging recently...
1- i've been busy. not in a many-hours kinda way, but in a run-here-and-there kinda way.
my schedule has basically been like, three hours in clarke quay at my mom's store, then two hours giving tuition. and other miscellaneous stuff inbetween like doin accounts and looking for a dog. which brings me to my next point...
2- It looks like we're not bringing in the cute puppy from china cos my darlin said that it's gotten big and it's only like 3 months, so there's a big probability it's gonna be huge. yeah. and that makes me sad, so i haven't felt like blogging.
3- i'm kinda losing motivation to blog... cos i wanna change my blogskin.. and also cos this blog is really damn private cos im afraid of the PUBLIC EYE but then it defeats the purpose of a blog...LOL!
4- i've been depressed cos i lost my phone and i don't like my new one and i'm gonna buy a new one but until i do so there won't be any pictures!
5- i need to go out more. ie: go sing K! shop! arcade! etc...! i'm bored... lollll
6- i feel like my brain is dying, desperate to start studying soon. [yes i know how diehardishly nerdy of me but it's tru]
7- i haven't gotten my laptop back yet. thanks my dear dumbshit southern. =P
ARE YOU:
1. A Bitch?: it depends on ur definition. to a select few i'm an angel. to the rest. sucks for you =D
2. Are you tall? im smurf height!
4. In your pajamas? yesss my oh so sexy slinky nightie -.-
5. Left handed? only if i'm bitchslappin u.
LAST:
1. Friend you saw: cheyannelowqingqing.. cos her momma came over to drill me on last min. accounts stuff.
2. Talked to on the phone: my 'delightful' baby boy...cos some GIRL nvr called me back! [or mayb i was slppin?]hehehe
3. Person to text you: ditto
4. Was today better than yesterday: hmm yes ! because i watched hours of tv, took a nap, and had laugh-filled conversations with my darlings.. =)
FAVORITE:
1. Number: 7. 21.
2. Color: black.pink.er...white? jewel colors
3. Food: banmian! sushi! spaghetti!
4. Place: with my girl/guy...
QUESTIONS & ANSWERS: and here the blonde alterego takes OVER.
Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
A: i flipped over for the masseuse to get to the other side.
Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
A: yes!!!! my shrink says i have many things that bother me. but he thinks that with time and patience i will overcome being a 'psychiatric case study in blondiocity'. He assures me that it's a good thing and i'm benefitting the medical community, im not really that sure cos like, blondiocity sounds like some city james bond would have fought in and stuff. so like, how could that be good???
Q: What's the last movie you watched in theaters?
A: i can't remember. i covered my face the whole time. cos like, it was a horror movie and stuff. seemed like a really good plot though, from what i could hear through my ear plugs. the vibrations sounded interesting though.
Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: LA, for this totally cool party. i left after ten minutes with this totally hot actor.....
Q: Do you smile often?:
A: not nearly enough. i figure if i don't smile too much then i won't get laugh lines so easily u know? and then i won't need to get botox till i'm like what? 25 years old? hahahah
Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: yes. i believe that the shooting stars carry my wish all the way to the great blone faerie. i heard like, she lives in LA?? and she's secretly dating michael jackson. oh no wait. she was. cos like, he's dead now?
Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: i am like SO friendly! i'm friendlier if u have a dick n lots of pretty dollar signs around ur head.
Q: Where did you sleep last night?
A: i slept in a random hotel in San Francisco after having hot n heavy sex with some random dude i picked up at a gay bar while in drag.
Q: Why did you sleep there?
A: cos i was too exhausted from the sex and too drunk on the tequila to do anything else. also. i couldn't seem to find the exit.
Q: When was the last time you cried?
A: i cried last night. dont' ask me why. the sex was great and the booze was even greater but like, i TOTALLY cry everytime i drink so like i just HAD to.
Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
A: i don't have any dry shampoo to use tomorrow!!!my life is over!! oh yeah, THAT'S why i cried.
Q: Rate life as of right now one being bad ten being great?
A: life is ten, cos it's great. but i mean like, you aren't giving me much choices you know?? it's just, great, or bad. why isn't there like, neutral, or like, good. or mediumly good. i mean, i was thinking about it just right now, and like, you could totally use a range of numbers to represent like a range of good and bad! instead of just one being bad and ten being great. see? it could be like five is neutral. and stuff like that. let the scientists figure it out. but remember ! you heard it here first!! =)
Q: What do you hear right now?
A. my lil' poochie bear crying cos i didn't give him his nightly doggie spa bath. sometimes i swear he's so pampered he wouldn't know what to do if i let him walk around the house on his own instead of being carried everywhere by his butler!
Q: Does anything hurt right now?
A: oh yeah! my head. cos i was trying to get orange juice just now and there was like no fresh juice and my maid was on sick leave. so like i had to try to open the can of orange juice? the instructions just said Concentrate. so i did. i really did try! but all i got was a headache and the can didn't open. ='(
Q: What's your favorite month?
A: my favorite month would be like the Year. cos it has all the cute lil girlie names like January and April and stuff
Q: How many kids do you want/have?
A: i want a football team! honestly i don't really know what that means but i think it means i want to have really successful children? and yeah, definately not more than one. i'd get stretch lines and baggy boobs and then i'd have to go for surgery which i don't really mind but hate the plastic surgery i'd need after that to get rid of the scars you know? like, plastic surgery is just SO fake.
TEN EMOTIONS
1. Are you missing someone right now?: oh yessss i kinda miss myself. haven't seen myself in a mirror in like, TEN minutes!!! omg.
2. Are you happy?: yes
3. Are you sad?: yes
4. Are you bored?: yes
5. Are you excited?: yes
6. Are you nervous?: yes [see, i'm practising to be a politicians wife! i heard like it's really easy. you just gotta say yes alot. i think cos it makes the politician happy. i dont' knwo what a politician is tho. i think it's some sort of like, police. u know. POLItician and POLIce. so yeah. and it's always awesome to be a wife of someone who could pull strings with the law if u needed you know!
7. Are you single?: oooo no i'm not
8. Are you tired?: omigosh YES!! i mean, shopping isn't easy! especially in those so-called designed stores like louis vuitton and yves st. lauren! seriously! you shouldn't have to walk to the cash register to pay thousands. oh for the good old days of a private room with private viewings and the billl brought to you on a silver platter so you wouldn't have to walk a step just to sign the credit slip. what is the world coming to!!!
9. Are your parents still married?: oh yeah they are. they both have boyfriends though! they call it an open marriage. i think it's cool!
10. Do you have a crush on someone right now?: omigosh. how did you know?? like i totally ACCIDENTALLY i swear dropped my luggage on this guy at the airport! and he was goin on about how his toes were crushed and stuff. but like, it wasn't my fault at ALLLL i feel bad and stuff you know but how could they put my ten thousand dollar tote with all the other ...PLASTIC BAGS on the baggage go-around thingy! and the stupid security wouldn't let my chaffeur come in to help me pick it up so when i tried to like pick it up by the little round things on the bottom, they started spinning and i lost my grip! and it crashed on the dude's foot. but if he wants to take this to court i TOTALLY would kick his butt. sheesh! come to think of it, i think he was blonde. sigh. dumb blondes these days..... -.-'''
aight!
so how was life today?
awesome. spectacular. informative. ok. writer's block.
i woke up at the early hour of eleven, dragged my carcass out of bed and thru degrees transformed it into what resembled a human being ie homo sapien. yes yes. i digress. so anyway, i actually made the effort to leisurely apply makeup and fuss with my hair ... found a super cute top somewhere in the depths of my closet. LOL. basically, rite now, if i have the time to get ready, i ENJOY it. cos often i have just enough time to get dressed and BOUNCE. yes, my life is a tragedy rite now. hehehe.....
went down to Wang's with dadds, cos i had a craving for mee siam. ahh, local flavors! after a fulfilling lunch, on me, cos i just got three pays [three because i seem to have an extremely odd collection of parttime jobs, but, they pay SHIT.], we WALKED[dadds insistence, obviously.] all the way from plaza singapura to SIMLIM SQUARE. it was drizzling, just for good measure. but hey hey, surprise. i enjoyed it! with dadds as an impromptu tour guide, we explored many new and old shopping centres. the last one we stopped in was the new one at bugis, no i don't remember the name. ate there. ohhhh. and i found Singapore's biggest LAN gaming den. have some ideassss running around in my head. lols! ANYWAY. SIMLIMSQUARE was super fun for me today. lots of PHONES for me to look at. found a store with very FRIENDLY service, goin back to buy a temp phone there tmrw. yeps. the temp phone is uberrrr cute...aft i get my w890i again then i can pass it to my dad to use...needs a change of phone too. so. after simlim, we went to the NLB. yep. picked up books....and then headed HOMEHOMEHOMEHOME.
it was tiring, and i'm exhausted, but it was really fun too! precious moments, eh?
too bad no pics =p
this is an extremely censored post. apologies in advance, but you HAVE been warned.
some bitches really really piss me off.
and that's usually only cos they were/are mean/unfriendly to me in some way.
i can never really be mean to someone that is nice to me. but i can definately be super mean to anyone who fucks with me.
see. usually i have nothing against people from MC. [MC does NOT mean mission college, it means mainland *****]
but once in awhile, i'm reminded of why when i see a MC girl on the street i my blood pressure cranked up a few notches. because some of those bloody bitches have no manners or ettiquette. that's what seperates u, from us. we have SOME idea of what is and what is not a nice thing to do. we have some CLUE, as to what is socially a positive act and what is NOT.
trying to take my dad out on the actual day of his birthday is a VERY bad move. the birthday day itself is like, for the family. so fuck the hell off. on ur parents' birthdays, do any idiotic bimbotic gaggles of girls try to take them out making it so that you prolly won't have time to celebrate it with him?? on my birthday, i celebrate with my family. and on my other friends' birthdays, i don't dare to ask them out on the day itself. why?? cos it's meant for them to celebrate with their FUCKING FAMILY. KNNCCB. yes i am perhaps slightly irrationally pissed but u know what? i dun give a flying fuck. because who the fuck do these bitches think they are to be like booking him one month in advance to spend his freakin birthday with him. they don't consider his family ? his wife? his parents? and his friggin DAUGHTER????? like, every year, except last year cos i had a stupid 4 hour toefl test and he had the jumble sale, but every year we always try n make it a point to have his parents over and we'll have dinner and his favorite lana's cake. we do this on my birthday, my dad's and my mom's birthdays.bloody fucking hell. and who do they think they are to try n fuck around like that? it's like my dad's birthday is on a monday, so when he finishes school it's like, afternoon. and then if they eat with him then, he's NOT gonna be able to eat with us later. i dun mind sharing, but if it's them or us, they're SO going down.
oh.
and to some asshole who thinks it's funny that i'm possessive, how about this. when it's my birthday, i'll spend it with a whole bunch of people who you think are annoying. and then, when u get mad, i'll tell you to just join us. cos anyway, u know, they are 'being nice' and trying to celebrate my birthday for me. yep. see what the fuck u think is so funny about that then why don't you. just BLOW me. and you're so fucking insensitive. you don't even understand, and you don't even think you should try to understand. so what if i'm being slightly irrational. [im not by the way what i'm saying is perfectly logical, but think whatever you want.] YOU should be standing on my side not on those stupid fucking bimbos'. if it's such a small thing then why can't you humor me?? instead u tease me about it, then when i get mad you go on to say that i'm overreacting and 'I CAN JUST JOIN THEM'... oh yes thank you very much. i think i'm gonna consider this seriously now. my birthday, my rules, u can join like, a whole bunch of us girls and you'll be super clueless and super lost and super out of place and super annoyed, and then mayb u'll understand how i feel around UR FUCKING COUNTRYWOMEN.
u know what?
enough is enough.
i'mm wasting my time bitching about this.
cos it's not really worth it.
i just had to vent some of my frustration and anger.... esp since the ONE who's supposed to be like, supporting me, is proving extremely useless. girlfriends are better. fuck.
oh.
and one last random fact.
u know why there's such a large percentage of MC UNIVERSITY STUDENTS selling themselves in online porn and webcam shit????
because they're fucking sluts.
one of my processes for coping with melancholy in my life is to become a bed potato. i'll curl up in bed with my lappy beside me and watch movies and tv shows for HOURS on end. yep. i did that last nite with my dad's lappy. why?
I LOST MY PHONE~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im gonna go try to track it down now. =(
it was the first phone i ever liked and chose and my daddy bought it for me toooo T.T
i'm like so FREAKIN sad.