Love, Dawn♥

Some people try tooooooo hard.

if i ever try too hard.
Yanting, Chacha, Liza, Sha, whoeverrrrrr ,,, seriously let me know!

cos it makes me wanna throw up when ppl try too hard.

and btw liza, i just HAVE to say on here, your last poem thingy, was AWESOME.
Kudos, darlin! ;)

see this is how to unwind after comin home...

you sit down, with this gorgeous plate of spaghetti that momma made and placed on the table just WAITING for you to munch.. and grab your dog, put him on the chair behind you, and watch FRIENDS. half way thru the episode, you realized you lil doggie behind you got bored and tried to grab the panda sitting on the chair next to you, and almost topples head over tail to the floor. hahahahaha. seriously! i feel this jerk next to me and see him quickly retrieving him self over the armrest of my swivel chair! kekeke.. he's just adorable! and the pasta's allll gone... need to get more. NOW.

pissed off beyond belief.

and please people, before you start tellin me that my mom loves me blablablabla

I KNOW.

but that doesn't mean i can't get mad at her.

so fuck the world.
I'M PISSED.

exhausted.

on a happier note, this mornin was awesomeeeeeee =) had breakfast AND lunch with my darlin girl....exceptionally playful day too! LOL. taught her my new 'trick'..... yayyys =) days are usually cooler when she's around,..

had a relaxing afternoon and evenin with my baby boy =) awwww! he's sweeeeet... hehehe.. had fun laughin at FRIENDS together [the tv show]

imma hit the sack.

nights.

I've been thinking about the past and then the present...

it makes me kinda sad sometimes.

Cos some things got kinda messed up..

and friends got lost along the way..

and... idk..

i wish i had the power to make everything right.

but i can't.

and i can't help it if some choices affected some people ...

but i wish it didn't.

and then sometimes i get blamed for being evil and bad and malicious or smth..

and im stuck not knowing if really am

but then of course i'm supposed to believe in myself and what not

but it does hurt nonetheless

and it makes me wish i could change it

but i can't

and maybe if i could do it all over again i would....

like, with A... maybe i was insensitive, but i don 't believe in leading people on, and that was my of telling him it was impossible. But i miss our friendship.... cos it was honest and fun...

and with Jdfk, idk, we were close and then we were not and i always wonder what i did wrong...

i mean, yeah, with some people i know how friendship is, it's like this on again off again thing where they look for you every once in awhile and it's like nothing's changed and i like that too. but it's different in this case.

and i've moved on and put it behind me,

yet there's always that memory of broken friendships.

that actually meant something to me.

and yeah shure, nowadays i don't write uber emo lyrics or poems or stuff,
but my emotions are just as strong inside.
just with a different way of expressing them....

I'VE BEEN GIVEN A LETTER OF OFFER BY CURTIN!!!!

yesssss!!!!!!!!!!!!

so i'm officially accepted/offered a position there!

see the process is liek this. first i apply, then they send me a letter of OFFER, then i have to ACCEPT that offer. weird huh. i mean, DUDDEEEE i applied in the first place yo.

I'm psyched about this. cos i was jsut this tiny bit worried they wouldn't accept me cos i only have ACT results not SATS. but nope, no problemo, i'm in! just gotta reply their email and pay up. LOL.

less than a month and i'mma be on my way again! =)

so it was lunch, yogurty, running around looking for a Karaoke place, lots of decadent 'cabbing' around, andddddd lastly of course BK, where i HAD to bitch jus a LOT about unimaginative service =P but the K was awesome....

i think we gotta meet at least once a week if only for dinner before work la.

seriously lo! if not i'll have like, withdrawal syndrome or smth and i'll have to drink a cup of WANG QING SHUI. lmao. old songs galore today. kinda rubbin off.

so anyway! it's kinda our 2 and a half year anniversary today.....and i didn't realize it at first, i just felt that i shud GET my baby something, u know? sixth sense or smth. and so i got him this adorable cake from polar puffs. and omg he got me this cuuuuuuuuuuuteeeeeeee card with roses and hearts and AWWWWWWWWWW *snifffs*

anyway!!!!! im lazy to upload pics, cos my bloootooth is still unhappy about something. =P

LOVES! and LOVES to YT & SP cos today was wonderfulspecialawesomeamazingfunnyridiculous and just totally us. =)

okay.
today went down to apply at curtin.

strangely depressing.

shan't say more.
cheerio~~

ahhh i'm so accomplished.

I have, changed my blogskin, [a herculean task because believe it or not i'm SUPER picky], downloaded a bunchhh of songs from youtube, messed around on facebook, AND done this all with a shedding furball tryin to sleep on my lap. yep. OH and i've been textin too. ok. my work is DONE. i shall slack off and watch aimless episodes of friends and Psych. +P

ahhh the life of a slacker.

Tomorrow i shall clean my hammies cages, think about markin papers, go hang out with baby boo for awhile, workout [maybe] andOOOOOO mayb i'll cook lunch for him.

HMMM
maybe.
and that's a REALLLLY big maybe.

cos usually when i wake up lunch is over.

tsk tsk dawn.

things that i remember over this weekend.

COMMANDO.
LMAO.
'nuff said.

lesseee.....
yes yes! so today i was walkin down the sidewalk thingy... and i see this super thin girl in front of me. and i'm like, shite i need to lose weight. instinctive thoughts for any self-respectin female when confronted by a thinner female. LMAO. maybe not. but anyway! Then i see her friend, and she's equally skinny. and then i see this girl walkin in front of them, and SHE'S mad skinny too.
and then the bombshell hits.

HOLY SHIT they're too skinny. it was like watchin three moving skels with clothes on. and call me oldfashioned or wutever but i think femmes need curves! they need boobs and an ass.
SO you know what? i'm pretty happy with what i have. yeah i cud do with goin up a cupsize or two but heck at least i'm not a skel. LOL. however, i DO need to take care of that lil tummy bulge that prevents me from wearin skin tight clothes.

which reminds me. new resolution. instead of wearin baggy clothes at home, imma wear clingy ones, so i can SEE the bulge and be reminded to work on it. LOL.

im not gonna go by weight anymore, but rather by how i look n feel. =P and how well i can run in heels of course.

so that's my latest take on the eternal question: AM I FAT????

My pet peeve of the day?
I hate when people use this sleepy draggy out voice to talk to me for more that a coupla minutes. it's freakishly annoying. i mean, if you're that damn tired then don't talk to me ya? and if you're gonna talk to me then do it right ! it's aight if you're doin it for a minute or two, but drag it out thru the entire phone call and i'll be chewin you a new one. OH. and some americans have that accent too!!!! none that i love and know however so stop glaring at me liza! =P but like figures of authority or admin staff in southern tend to have that accent. that slow slow accent that suggests they think you incapable of understanding them. shit it pisses me off.

and now my ass really hurts cos i'm slouching so Rafiel can lie on my stomach and sleep, the ungrateful basterd. LOL.

i love that dog...

love u too. =P

nights!

funny thing today...

My mom was tellin me about this call she had with her good friend's husband today..
they were discussing these waist-slimming pills she sold him....YES guys actually buy it OMG.

Mom: Hey! How's the pills? feeling anything different yet??

the guy: no leh..no difference yet leh. OH! does it make you feel hungrier???

Mom: Errrr....noooooo~ .......????

the guy: hah. really ah. I feel hungrier leh.. i ate 6 GORENG PISANG [fried bananas] this morning know?!

Mom: *speechless*

so like, when she recovers from shock she yells at him about eatin 6 bananas while trying to 'reduce' his waist line....

hilarious shite. cracked up laughing over noodles and veg and tofu.. my favorite homecooked meal by mama.

My idiot boyo left me and went to mooch around orchard without me. hahaha. nvm it's good to have a social life!!! so i had a quiet dinner with momma without the boyos....cos dadda was out too LOL.

anyway. ohr! daddy bought me a tiny lil highlighter which is oh so superrrr adorable. hahaha. pink!

hmmm OH YEAH.
and i think.. i raelly think, my depression is over! o-v-e-r! imma be happy... and energetic...and hehehehee idk why i guess stuff like that comes n goes =)

im undepressed! and i've finally chosen a theme song for this month!

Should've said no by TaylorSwift! =)

today was a good day =)
cos i'm over my pmsin' so YES! even through the cramps i've had an awesome day HAHAHAAHAHA.

went out to tuition this mornin, came back for lunch and to take care of poochie, then went down to somerset to meet up baby... ;)

he studied, i fought with cramps then took a nap then read a book and did all sorts of weird weird stuff due to a happy high induced by two menstrual panadol caps. LOL. fun!

so yes. im waitin to go out with my darlin girl this sat, and i HOPE i get paid before that! sheeeshies.... hate it. that the stupid fucka admin prolly didn't hand it in for me or smth. which reminds me, hate her attitude man. lazy piece of ass that pastes on an attitude for some reason or other. lol.

and! i just realized this actress in a show actually made nail biting look cute! lol.

okay. im just miss positive today...so ignore me if you're in a bad mood! haha =)

LOVES!!!!!!!

insaneeee performance by lady GAGA. gosh you gotta love her guts. =)

looking forward to tmr with chacha and her lil devils. =P or so i've been told! hahaha..

one was when i blew him a kiss while he was makin bread and he kinda like fake-staggered back a few steps with a goofy grin on his face. HAHAHAHA. awwwwww.

and another was when i stole his bag n ran off and we had a 'fist fight' in the middle of boat quay.... retardedly fun. =P

oh.. and thank you darlin for goin all the way down to novena to help me get that cotton on piece i really really really wanted!! =)

Aight!

big things.

but first one tiny lil thing....

i was goin into the lift just now, and and and this cat came walkin up just as i closed the door, so it was like turnin away, until i pressed the door open and was like ''hey you wanna come in??''

so the kitty actually turned around and came into the lift! hahahahaha. and then it rubbed up against my leg once as if to say thanks! hahaha. it then sat looking up at the number display! hahahah. freakin' adorable =)

so anyway!

Day before yanting's birthy.... chacha came down to sengkang to help me pick up the cakes! then we took a cabby down to bedok to pick up SUNFLOWERS.. camwhored. hahahah.

chalet was relaxed! haha.. pretty fun... camwhored ALOT more. at the end of the whole thing i felt super vain. kekeeke.

so anyway. like.

this post is one day late.
i'm absolutely not inspired to bhlog. so. i shall not blog until i change my skin. maybe that will help. and btw smartasses i meant my blog skin.

LOVES =)

so it's like 10 am, and my two dogs are still snoring...literally...meanwhile me and my aunt are dragging ourselves out of bed to get ready to bring them down. like wth?

anyway!

meetin up with tatcha darlin and her biatch laer.miss that girl. haven't seen her in ages! lol.

so i was just thinking....
life is goooooood~~ ;)