Love, Dawn♥

today was church.
super long.
from sabbath school till afternoon talk.
speechless.
HAHA.

but it was fun =)

anyway! i'm watching this hilarious chinese movie called DrunkenFist2... JACKIECHAN!
he's like, awesome in movies...not so sure about real life =P

wut else wuut else...

oh yeah.
i repainted my nails.
and made flash cards for tuition.

hardcore slackin feels good.
might be good as new by tomorrow. HAHA.

nights world.

last night.
it's was FINISHED.
and this is hella overly dramatic..
but im sooooo sooooo sooooo glad the 1370 entry project is over. IT'S OVER!
excruciatingly glad! =P

today i shall slack my lil butt off.
goin to church wit girly later! =)

OH. and to top it all off, yeah, i didn't get ninety plus, but i got 81%! and that's a high distinction. and that's good enough for me to be MAD HAPPY! =D

so happy so happy so happy...
it's two pm and i JUST WOKE UP. feels damn awesome.

okay imma go walk my poor doggie...
HAHAHAHA.

it's come down to the last 48 hours!!!!!!!!

yesterday, assignment8 was completed....badly done..but completed. LOL!
today, is business law test 3..the freakiest one of them all.
Friday mornin, 9 am.. perdy is DUE.
and friday day, i shall relaxxxxxx.

this month from hell is gonna be over!!!!!!!!!!!!

o-v-e-r!!!!!!!

time to get down to tidyin my room and getting ready for CNY!
cny is fun...
i like qipaos..
LMAO..
oooh i wanna mail smth to liza too for asian nite. idk when is that still tho. tell me~!

and and and so here's the plan.

today, school, till 12. hopefully i'll ace my test. or pass. or at least get >70! hahaha.
go home, sleep till 5...or 7..., then start working on PERDISCY.
olllaaaa~!!!!!!!!!!!
if there is time, MARK PAPERS. ah damn. not looking forward =(

thursday, wake up and eat, mark papers, and class at 2 pm.
hopefully i will have time to meet chacha for dinner, see her new hair!! whooooo!
then tuition, home, supper...cos it's good for allnighters...
and i MIGHT do an allnighter for thursday night... maybe..
depending on how much i get done tomorrow for perdiscy.

yay!!!!!
then it'll be over and i'll be prettty much homefree.
next month has a measly 2 ASSIGNMENTS ... yayyyy!!!!!!

but then of course there's exam week right after the first week of CNY luh. so.
exams aren't that bad tho... easier than assignments! =P

who cares!!!
planning to chillllll next week.
might go for ladies night!
MIGHT.
not sure leh.. may be stressful.... hahahaha
but definately goin K!!! yayyyy X)
can't wait can't wait!
and i wanna squeezy banmian in somewhere soon. maybe like tomorrow before i go home ba. imma bring a book and eat emo-ishly.
+P

PEACE!

the countdown has starteddddd...... tick tock tick tock...

so.
i'm really excited!
my ex-teacher from high school... may have gotten me a job.
tutoring accounts!
YAY!

and like, accounting tutors get good pay. the market rate is 50 an hour per student. but cos i'm inexperienced/unqualified, i'll be charging like 50 for 2 students for 2 hours. which is like 25 per hour.

but he's saying i should charge 50 per hour per 2 students instead.

just think.
makin a hundred bucks just for 2 hours of sec 4 POA.

damn zai.
crossed fingers and pray hard !

and then i won't have to teach this freakishly annoying class of sec 2 boys.. hehheeh ^^

Ting: if i get the job...K is on me!

whoa!
way too much whining.

okay. so today i took a break.
and i went to watch TOOTHFAIRY with my one n only boyf!
awwww!!!!!!!!!!!! so damn cute.
it's a happy movie.. made me laugh like i was from IMH.
DWAYNEJOHNSON is bufffff! even baby says he's hot. which is unbelievable gay.. but... =P

lol!

if u wanna feel happy and like a kid again, go watch that movie!

so yea. totally fulfilling day ^^
an now he's off to play basketball =(
and im back to assignment numba 8.

wish me luck and kiss my butt!!!!!!!

jus kiddin ;)

major cravings for banmian...
MAJOR.

my body is like, in a selfinduced bulimic state. -.-
feels like it anyway.
every little thing i do makes me wanna hurl.
but i never get around to hurling, cos i hate the feeling and do all in my power to NOT hurl.
WHY!
WHY WHY WHY!
maybe it's the stress.
idk...
i currently cannot eat.. anything with strong flavors.
loveee currypuffs and now i don't dare to eat em. or drink tea. or coffee.
but the worst part...
is i can't eat till i'm full!
cos when im full ..... same feeling.
and i LOVE eating till im full.
haha.
-.-

oh. and strong odors turn me off too.
turn me off so badly i start gagging.

I WANT THIS TO ENDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
i want my ...relatively strong stomach back!!!!!!!!!!!
it's so frustrating to want to eat and then be like, oh i better not i might puke.
damn.

and im NOT pregnant.

i wanna boohoohoooooo!

MY SHOULDER HURTS LIKE A Motha%^&*~

like it keeps chou jing-ing.. and have no idea how to say that in english...
maybe...
cramping?
IDK.
it hurts.
and i just rushed two sections of my project. so i have like....7 sections left? TO BE DONE BY WEDNESDAY thank you very much. YAY ME.

plus one huge ass assignment and one huge ass test.
yep.
this week is HUGE.

save me?

OH SHIT i forgot.
PRESENTATION.

i haven't even started on it.
and we're meeting tomorrow to discuss,
AND.
it's due Monday.

*starts ripping hair out and running around screaming*

aights.
done.

NIGHTS

studying's over an tha weekend is HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
woot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im thinking of getting a counter for my blog.. but i think it'll be damn depressing. HAHA! like..
this is some ooloo corner of blogspot.

which is kinda what i wanted in the first place leh. hahahaa.
hmm.
decisions decisions.

last time i posted my blog on msn space i got into so much shite.
kinda safer now ... ?

idk!

decisions decisions.

gonna go for a late nite shower again.
love late night showers.
super cold...

i'm rambling..
i know!
but it's fun to ramble.
i like reading rambles too..

no studying for 24 hours.
yay.
not that i don't like studying..
but im drowning in deadlines now.
and that's not fun.
but the work itself isn't so bad..........cos it's accounting..and i like accounting, perverted freakazoid that i am.. ha! i just didn't enjoy the report i had to write. and the presentaations. which are SO gay.
so yep.

and i realized im getting antisocial.
i think being attached does taht to you!
hmm.
i think i just don't wanna get hurt.

LMAO!
and university is basically high school repeated.
for me anyway.
i don't know how i feel about that.
i kinda miss the challenge of a new social system to work and stuff.
hmm.
anyhoo!!!!!

damn. i should shower and sleep.
i should.
i should.
but i wont.
cos i woke up at 230 pm today!
awesome feeling...
hahahahah!
i miss sleeping till i'm not tired.
i really do!

waiting for holidays.
then i wanna do lotsa stuff!

checklist of things i wanna do:

Manicure! [for CNY!]
`Go play pool!
`KTV!
`Watch Tooth Fairy! i think dwaynejohnson is AHMAYZING.[BABY!!!]
`Eat many many things
[Banmian,
Sukisushi,
pastamania,
banmian
banmian
banmian..
OH! i suddenly wanna go eat china steamboat. but i can't cos my stomach is a muthafucka..
and i wanna eat these noodles from Orchard Central!
omg. so yeah i wanna eat alot of things!!!! =( ]
`i wanna go suntan too! but that's gonna have to be next month...[YANTING!]
`i wanna watch alot of movies. idk why i suddenly miss going to the cinema. damn. i think it's a passing phase. better be! otherwisee.... LIAO LUI!

ok i seem to think there's more things i wanna do.. but i gotta remember them first.
maybe in dreamlaand i will.
^^

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HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA omg

i feel like blogging.
im under inspiration;

like.
i just was walking home and i got really sad/mad..
cos i realized that... things have happened that were really shitty just because i didn't want to but someone else did and i didn't resist hard enough.
no is just a simple word.
i don't say it often enough, especially when it matters...

i think i've learned.
not to be such a softie.
next time someone tries to manipulate me like that.
IMMA FREAK OUT ON HIS LILY WHITE ASS.

hahahaha.
but im sure no one will.
cos then my boo will go kungfu ninja on their butts.. =)

yayy..

okay i shall stop being lame and take my depressed lil self off to bed.
today was sooooo tiring.

-.-

OH BUT DINNER WAS GOOD.
love pastamaniacamwhoringgirlchattingandcakestainedskirts!

xoxo people!
me love y'all!

"Hi I'm Ris Low...currently i majoring in my... diploma in health size,
And, hospitaterility and travetourism.
Right now I'm studying steel.
Well, I define my style as my own persnenelety.
I go by my moot.
If I filling naughty diao wear someting RAT.and-LAO.
something...you know???
*BOOMZ*
something and shouts ME!
the very thing that i worn... is a piss of bigini and just gins and strut down orched rod.
I rrrr know because I don't really care.
It's about ME. So...the fashion is...the fashion sense about me, so...
Yarr everthing about... how i si ma sell.
I guess that's my strategger... becuz.
Everybodies unique. Everybodies...
YAH.
Yes...I'm a HUGE fan of south africa!
I Love Safari.
I Love Leopard Preens.
You know? zipbra
Yeow, sort of thing?
Not...not. You can wear leopard preens with dark gins.
Is alright. You know? Neutral colours and...umm...Car key?
car key green...you can pull it off with leopard preens and zipbra preens, Ya!
Thats how i liked them... "

[hey Liza, have a go at reading this. read it out loud and you might be able to understand. LMAO. and well to the singaporeans, we allll already know who said this...]

ONE MORE BLOODY YEAR.

thanks darlin, i feel better after talking to you today.
haha.
i shall try my bestest to be Ms. Freakishly Happy next time i see you aights.
next time shall be FUN!

next time prolly be next month.

='(

anyway.
im not in a good mood.
my shirt and pink bra got stained blue.
WTF.
and apparently my chiffon[?] shirt got MACHINE WASHED.
fuck.
if u don't wanna do it, just LEAVE IT THE FUCK TEHRE.
but no. u gotta wash it.
but u don't wanna hand wash it.
but u dun wanna leave it there.
SO WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT.
me to move out???
i wish i COULD.
but i WON'T.

fuck la.
it's my shirt from southern's Iles game nite luh.
and it's muy fave pink bra.
so guess how pissed i am?
GUESS!

IM GOING TO HAVE A GOOD ATTITUDE TOWARDS WORK THIS WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!

i am i am i am i am i am!

LMAO.
watching House Bunny!!!

it's so hilarious...
tons of bimbotic quotes.

"my name is shelly and i hate long walks and rude people"

A- You're so vapid!
B- Oh wow thank you! that's so sweet! you're like the 100th person to tell me that!

"Excuse me? dyou know where the crapper is?? i need to drop off some timber.."
no girl, boys like it when you're mysterious. now go try it again.
Excuse me? dyou know where the crapper is?? I need to do a very mysterious thing in there!"

If i thought you guys were kidding, my heart would just fall out of my head!

first, you must highlight your eyes....the eyes are the nipples of the face.

i'm not really sure what you're trying to tell me...
well i'm not sure either!

wow you scared me!
my hearts pounding like a nail...

they prolly added soothing botanicals to the manhole
.... i lke that word.. maanholeee...

wait. so i have to learn things, about things, and stuff? about topics?

Lily you talked!.... and you're british???

i gotta meet this frickin bird!!!

OMG....
so brainless but so funny....

aight.
so on the way home from tuition and dinner with @yantinggggggs..
i was contemplatin deep shit.
and wondering why i can't feel anymore.
okay.
not can't feel.
but i get over things really fast.
is it cos i don't care?
or is it cos i don't let myself feel.
or is it cos i just lost a lil part of my soul?

it kinda scares me.
cos i don't want to lose....whatever it is that makes people feel.
and another thing is that i can't write like i used to.
what i write now is so...factual. when i write, and when i look back on what i write, i can't feel much. but when i read what i wrote in the past, the emotions are there, raw and painful, but they exist. now? i don't know.

am i numbed or is this part of growing up?
i don't like this change...
i want to find my soul again....

=(

okay, so i'm writing my interim report in ONE DAY. hahaha. ok not one day. like, half a day.
the actual writing started at 1:30 am.
now it's 3:30 and i'm almost done. well i'm done just need to do the executive summary which is some lame ass shit.

anyway. the point is.
i'm coming online to read a dirty joke... lmao... and fine, suan shi wo duo shi...but i got pissed la.
i mean, make any of my good friends that sad and imma be wishing i had a bloody six pack so i could make you look like a gangbanged nigga... -.-'''

guys.
they promise you the world and they give you ?
then they promise they'll never do it again, and ?
they say they'll be the best you ever had, but?

and they do so with all the justification and defensiveness that a mormon saint could probably have.

then it's all turned around and all of a sudden it's your fault, not theirs.

grahhhhhh.

ANYWAY.
im exhausted.
gonna type out the executive summary...maybe... then sleep.
or maybe i'll just do my presentation for tomorrow first.

yeah. prolly do the presentation.
more urgent LOL.

chill out, loves!

hah. it used to be up to my waist!

last time it was this short was like, sec 3....

and it's like those superrr guai haircut =P

this zuppa was awesome...

loved the deco..

Our date.. 21.12.09 LOL

Below his place...

i stained his shirt on purpose cos he made me watch a sad movie. =P that's eyeliner btw.

The day he brought me to chinatown to eat. the food was actually pretty damn awesome!

mango prawnny

spinach. =P

busy praying LMAO..

some cold dish...it's gooood...

would probably be going to that black party just to piss my friend off.

i mean, it's between skateboarding-when-i-know-im-gonna-fall , rollerblading-when-tipsy, asking-random-domino-delivery-person-for-ride-home, riding-a-rollercoaster-for-the-first-time-on-a-hangover, blahblahblah.....

i kinda got weird votes.
in my 6-person tag, three say cut three say DON"T cut.

in my one-on-ones, four say cut, three say don't cut.

facebook status, one to one. -.-'''

the public sureee ain't helping!!
i guess it really boils down to wut i think.

OOO three more say cut.
ooops.

looks like it's starting to get lopsided!
we have a winner!!!

bleh.

im gonna go mark papers since i have to. TOODLES.

im sleepy but can't sleep.
slept this afternoon.....
slacking but can't stop.
i have work to do!!!!
papers to mark but don't wanna get started.
die lo, tomorrow.

HELP AH!!!!!!

anyway.

in short....

AGAIN...

project meeting tomorrow @ 10am.
lunch with gramps and grams and dadds.

after that i shall come home quick, and mark all my papers. then bathe my stinky stinky dog. if i have energy left over, i shall get started on my INTERIM REPORT.
actually, not if i have time left over. i MUST GET STARTED.

overview for this week...
monday-tuition/interim report.
tuesday-study for wednesday's test/interim report/go to the libraryyyy
wednesday-INTERIM REPORT
Thursday- tuition/rehearse presentation
friday- do remaining ERGAs

yes. and then the week after that will be completely FOCUSED on completing my perdiscy project. hope i have enough time. T~T and a test tooo.

and then the week after ... im gonna have to cram for one test, one assignment, anddddd last min perdiscy work.

okay lah. getting used to the idea of torture le.

BRING IT ON!

hahahahahhahaa.

today.

i woke up, ate, studied, then went for my test..

the test was 50 MCQ questions. easy actually..maybe cos i studied approx 5 hours for it. LOL.
one question that stumped me was one where i had to choose Numerator or Denominator. anddd i forgot which one was the bottom one. -.- sad right??? so i chose denominator.. and i GOT IT RIGHT. well. the denominator thing anyway. hahahhaha. ^^ so i hope i do well. i really need the encouragement!

after the test.

went to novena.

originally wanted to go eat banmian. but got persuaded by my dad to go eat with him at novena.

all the better, i got a new cotton on outfit.

pink.
LMAO.

felt sooooo damn blonde.

met tingster,
drank corn soup at mos...
owe her 2 bucks and twenty cents.

after that.

went to attend the revelation thingy...
HAHAHAA...
I'm glad you liked it, girl...
as long as you liked it...
=D

super tired.
gonna hit the sacky sack.

dozy on 2 panadols... PINK PANADOLS.

BLONDE!

1- I really really really reallllllly don't wanna break up this year. lol.

3- I want to do well in my studies... after two years of slackin.. !

5- I want to be more.. spiritual. lol. yeah... doesn't mean i'll listen to pr *** though. -.-

6- I want to keep up a steady stream of blogposts even when i get crazy busy.

8- I want to be a better friend. Ok, u guys gotta help me k! advice advice..

9- I want to be more emotionally stable.. well, i've been improving ever since 2006 but still.. =P

10- I want to be myself. i know this sounds redundant but it's really easy to lose yourself!

SHANICE!
thank you for ur happy happy smiles.. that make me wanna smile too. hahaha. thank you for nvr judging and always hugging. =) thank you for being a really really awesome friend =) xoxoxxoo!

JEEREH!
you were ever ready to meet up and go chill when i came back during december. and you've been there during some of the shittiest times of my life! thank you for making me laugh soo much and for always nagging us to stay back for lunch. lmao. thanks gor!

JASSY!
thank you for being the one who's always up to going out. anytime anywhere. hahhaa. people don't appreciate that till it's too late. ^^ and thank you for livening my life with your random calls about this and that and the other thing. LOL.

AA!
Thanks for being a part of my life ever since i was born. And thanks cos i know if anyone ever does anything bad to me, you'll find a way to make themm pay. hahahaha. thank you cos you always got my back! xoxo!

MISSY TAN!
Grammy! it's been a long time since we've had lunch. hahhha! thank you for all the time you spent with us last year.. and how you were worried about me.. thank you for caring! And you took the time to talk with me to find out what was going on... thank you... so much! haha. Cos you really care.. and that's why i love uuuu =)

MR JACOB!
if it weren't for you, i wouldn't be studying accounting now.
and i wouldn't have gotten an A without attending half my classes while in Southern.
and i wouldn't be able to sleep through half of my financial accounting classes here.
THANK YOU! hahahahhaa.

OKAY! back to my thanksgivingy list.... LOL. before it's december again and i end up combining three years into one. -.-

LIZA!
where do i even start. From the time you walked in on me nekked and wrapped in the shower curtain and we laughed so so hard, till the time we hugged for the last time in the carpark... at frickin 3 am? and started crying out eyes out... u were an aweeesome roommate and friend. I can't thank you enough for all the times you were there for my rants about love, friendship, and school... and you'd play psychiatrist.. hehehe =D and our movie nights. and. thankk you for the lil sweet things you'd leave on my desk.. like animal porn and chocolates.. =P in the crazy world of Southern, my room was somewhere i could be myself ... and thank you sooo much for EVERYTHING. OH and the package u sent me too. hehe! I hope we'll always keep in contact.. and whenever ANYTHING [and i mean anything] pisses you off or makes you sad... YOU KNOW MY NUMBER. and u know my international minutes are free. =P ilu liza!! xoxoxo

ASHLEY!
also known as ashes, also known as crazy bitch.. =D i love you for prolly being one of the realest people. Because you don't care what people think of you. Totally laidback and easygoing. hahaha. You let me be myself, and im really thankful for that. I could be a total retard and we'd laugh about it together. I could fall asleep on you while you were talking to me and you wouldn't get mad. HAHAHA. [remember??] Thank you for being there whenever and whereever i wanted to let off a little steam and rebel. =P thank you for being someone i could count on to pull through whenever you say you will. And thank you for turning your room into a club, for so many nights. HAHAHAHAH. let's be creepy, RIGHT NOW! lol. ready? "Ash? i love you." lmao. And if any crazy ass black man tries anything funny on you, you know i'm down for helping you *ahem* him!!!! just be ready to get caught cos i doubt we'll get away with it =P xoxoxo

SHANSHAN!
girl, thank you for being someone i couuld talk to in my 'mother tongue'... and that once when i was crying my ass off, thanks for being there. we had some good times, yes? =) and somehow you always cheer me up with your random comments like, "dawn dawn!!! you wanna drink waterr??" hahhahahha.... spring break with you was fun! weird and crazy, but fun! yep. you were one fun chica. =) wanna see you again soon!

Da ge!
you'll never ever read this... but even though we never spent much time together.. you seemed to really care about me.. and you were the only one who cared enough to warn me. i'll never forget that. thank you ! and i'll always remember you as my 大哥！

Shifu!
YEA!!! hahaha. let's see... thank you for always being there when i wanted to go to the library and study! and for morning breakfasts! and the occasional vesper! and hmm.. oh yea! there was once when you gave me advice too! and that one time you tried helping me talk to my bf when we were fighting.. =) thank you, yea! ahhaha

Eli!
LOL here's thanking you for making sure i got into the dorm alright that once when i was sooooooooo wasted on russia, thanks for calling out F4 to help me in... and for staying with me the whole way even though i musta been a HUGE drunken pain in the butt! hahahha. And thanks for putting up with my many weird rambling phone calls... and for coming out soo many damn times when i needed to disturb someone. LMAO. thanks! oh! and also thank you for listening to my many issues -.- even though all you told me was that i had a lot of issues.. which was pretty much stating the obvious but THANKS. ^^ you're a good friend!

RANDOM PEOPLE WHO SHALL NOT BE NAMED.
Thank you for making life for that one year crazy, fun, and safe.
You, you were a very good friend, and somehow we screwed the friendship up, but thanks for the memories! I knew you cared for me.. and thanks for taking care of me. I'll always remember how you called me Kid. LOL.

You and you, were surprisingly good at comforting me when i was crying for absolutely no reason at all. and i'll not forget how you told me that i could look for u if i needed anything. which was totally random but thank you! haha.

You, thank you for always smiling like a split open pumpkin everytime we crossed paths. you're a super sweet girly and even tho i don't know u well at all, i really miss ur smile!! =)

and you, im sorry you got hurt but thank you cos you shared part of your life with me.

AIGHT! that does it for the american people! hahahaha

you just don't understand ...how shitty im feeling right now... and you call.. and you're like, did i say anything wrong?

it's never your fault..
is it?

and then you ask me if i'm feeling all better now.

yeah.
my day is peachy...
best day i ever had.

你变了。

i have a couple of things i wanna say.

firstly.
okay, first off people start to feel concern and pity for you, but when you keep making it public, i start to wonder if you're just looking for attention. Or maybe you can't handle the whole thing. idk. not judging, but this is my opinion.

secondly.
You have a problem with my upbringing, and you doubt my ability to be a good mother. well. you apparently never trusted me. I thought it'd be different now. & When i can't see a way, you're supposed to help me work through it. Not just tell me to find someone else. Cos that hurts like a motherfucker. and i don't deserve being treated like that.

OMG i haven finished my thanky-ing thingy and my new years resolution and ALREADY the new year is kicking my butt with assignments!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH