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TIME TO BLOG!!!!
Argh.
okay. I've been having a crappy week...or month.. or couple of months..
Whatever..
Assignments have not been returned to me, and those that have been returned, aren't really spectacular.
Curtin's management is driving me up the wall... not in a good way..
Good thing is that tests are almost all over, except for one!
And exams are round the corner!!
Which means it's time for me to ground myself, and STUDY.
-.-
OH! And I need to go GIANT and stock up on groceriesss. hahaha ^^
also, need to work out, asap.
Can't wait for the holidays!!!!!!!!!!!
I plan to do sooo many things.
1. Starve myself.
2. Photoshoot with chacha
3. Sing K with ting [it's been tooo long]
4. Work out out out out
5. Improve my overall wellbeing..mentally, physically, spiritually? mmm we'll see about that.
6. Organize my Ipod, and tidy up my roomoomooomm.. !! Now that i have it BACK ;)
7. Store all my semester's papers, and get ready for a new term! =(
I have resolved, as i did last semester, to do better, next semester.
If i keep doing that, I may just start actually improving.. HAHA!
PEACE
i'm just so freakin tired.
No mood to blog.
Sorry =(
Been hanging out with my girls, cha n ting alot recently..
and now it's time to buckle down for studies.
EXAMS YO.
fmfl.
Sometimes I see the path others take, and it seems so frickin psychedelic, as opposed to my tiny lil world.
Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I just stepped foot over into that world.
Sometimes I question, if I would survive if I did.
Sometimes…
Why do I work out?
When im sad/stressed/emo, it helps exhaust me to the point where I simply cannot feel anymore. It helps me to feel stronger physically, and thus mentally, which in turn increases my confidence. It's all a part of the new me. I want to push myself to excel, to be much more than I am now. It's like, my pre-mid -life crisis. Or maybe it's just cos too much shit has happened and I don't know what to do anymore. hahaha. So. Yep that's why I work out... and oh yes, it's definately to feel better about my body! So I look better nekkid ;) My thigh and tummy bulges were draining away my confidence and energy!
Work out... would be, ~40 lunges, ~40 squats, ~60-80 crunches, ~80-100 weight exercises, ~40 butt exercises, 3-4 mins of stretches, and about 3-4 mins of booty rotations just for the heck of it ;) [I think i've said this before but Liza didn't see =P] ANYWAY! Anyone with ideas on how to increase this workout routine, pleaseeee lemme know! I need more ideas.... Before I fall into another rut and stop workin out.
My goal? Hit 45 kilos before June, which is not possible, so i'll settle for a toned body by June and 45 kilos by end of July! Cos July is my holidays and I can starve myself ^^Play, Drink lots of bubble tea, and don't eat. =D
School is streesssing me out. Which is stupid, cos it's totally my fault that i'm stressed, seeing as I don't study nearly hard enough. Time to step up my game! Go go go!!
Had fun wit Tatcha today! Yanting & Boyf tmrw ;)
What is happiness?
Happiness is me & momma chillin in a quiet corner of the heartlands, getting our feet massaged.
Happiness is me & daddy spending hours and hours AND HOURS in the huge-ass national library.
Happiness is me & yahnting & a shopping cart in Giant.
Happiness is me & Tatcha working out at unearthly hours on Tuesday mornings.
Happiness is me waking up and seeing my Poopoo rafiel stretched out next to me, and then kissing him on his tiny nose =)
Happiness is me working out till my body looks like I just walked out of the shower.
Happiness is watching my hamsters jump from the top of their cage.
Happiness is messaging Liza Tang at weird hours of the day, and knowing she'll still get my love&hugs&kisses even though we're a MILLION miles away.
Happiness is facebook chatting with Ashes and hearing explicit details of... yeah.. =D
Happiness is bitch slapping someone, someday.
Happiness is earning enough money to support your own crazy ass lifestyle.
Happiness is having the satisfaction of ignoring people who annoy you.
Happiness is shopping for awesome shoes/bags/dresses/etc and FINDING some.
Happiness is being able to dream, being able to tell yourself, that this is not all there is to life, there's more, there's SO MUCH MORE.
I'm happy~~~~~!!!!!!
& imma go walk Rafiel Xu nowwwies...
Aight. LOVE!
My second workout today =) Woke up, checked facebook, checked twitter, stripped my bed, walked the pooch, and then workeddddd out till I looked like I had just taken a shower, rested, then showered.
OHHH I feel orgasmic.
On my way to being a better me ;)
So i went out with my girlfriend today
Started talking shit bout small dicked freaks
Guess who's name came up?
When what i say hits you between the eyes
Tag yourself and then go hang yourself up with your ties...
Here's the deal you'r a wannabe, smartass, racist, and narcissist
If you wanna be a narc at least look better than a badly dressed wildebeest
Don't get it wrong ths isn't me doing random hatin
This is me sayin you need a Summer Selection two oh ten'
Wearin jackets when it's flyin higher den 33 celcius
Wearin 'em longer days than it takes to read all works of Confucious
[and that's sllllllowly, like mr naresh doin 'rithmetic with an abacus]
I'm like, Duude apple green plaid so ain't your colour-Get mama t' buy you new clothes, make you look less rehdiculous!
Now let's deal with how you're a muthafuckin racist
Hell im pissed and you aint' even against my own race
Saying how you assumin they all are poor, cos it's a Black Life
Oh oh did you really say that? Can't believe that! Who'da thunk that? Get ready to lose your sad life TWAT..!
People bein smart referring to happy things like cartoon celebration
You start sayin that means they had no childhood with no ed-u-ca-tion
Maybe grew up living off of gov'ment rations
Maybe tryna prove themselves cos they poor an need rehabilitation
Sayin you don't know what it means but you THINK it means this
Muthafucka shut up my Tiny Asian Ass you may kiss
If you don't know don't show, hell u make yourself so easy to diss
Make a story for kids bout you, imma make em laugh harder den Dr. Seuss
When you losin you say we sharin
"So no hard feelings let's get back to carin"
Fuckin' helllll no I wanna rip you up, make you featherbedding
Punch ya teeth in with my taser, talkin to idiots is depressin
Hearin your screams would be oh soooooo refreshin!
You say i make you feel like an idiot when you're not
Then why you let me get to you, actin like you got shot
Drop the act you ain't no big shot
Fool'd that pretty bitch but that's cos i'm hardcore and she's not
Truth is she's backed out on you guess you took a potty shot
Can't have pretty ladies hangin on you so you take da Not-Lot
Guess u do lead da life of a [haha!] laughin stock~~~
Go 'head and say i'm an arrogant bitchLeast im not a you wit a tiny dick
OOOO wait maybe that's why your bitch left you
Couldn't make her get no sa-tis-fac-tion
Stick a clit-o-ris in your face you wouldn't even know how to suck on it
Couldn't find pussy if a signpost pointed straight to it
But then you so tiny, it's be loose, it wouldn't even fit.
My girlfriend coined the "cover da face n attack d base'' -dat's some neat shit
But with you i think you gotta sleep with cadavers..or ooooh someone effeminate
Maybe that's why you playin da race card
Cos you're soft and they're hard
When you B.S.O.D they be httin RESTART
You'd fit my two fingers dey fillin both hands
My girlfriend says some even stick out the ends ;)
AIGHTS nuff hatin.. and i haven't even got to the part bout your smartassyness yet. but I better not cos if you read this you might just bust out cryin and kill yourself the next sec and we wouldn't want that now would we?
Sorry I haven't blogged in awhile.. =( been busy!
ANYWAY!
Today was a day, that made me feel pissed, basically cos I let myself get bothered by the little things. My main cause of stress is just some Barnacle... You know, those things that stick on and don't let go? Yeahh I got two of them in my life I wanna get rid off. One at school one at home. Disgusts me.
So this mornin I woke up on time, momma took the dog down for me, and i had breakfast for a change. Yay. Then we had a conversation that made me remember Barnacle 1. But i ignored it cos well, that irritation is ALWAYS there. and i mean like last night, i was watching tv in the hall for the first time in awhile... and i pauseddd my show for 5 mins cos my friend calls.. and she just goes '' girl you not watching already hor?'' and picks up the remote.. i mean, what am i supposed to say?? so i fuck off to my room.. lol.
anyway! back to today.. I start the day off okay, until i go to the liibrary after mornin class to wait for chrissy, and da damn librarian comes up and asks me, '' what are you doing??'' and her CB face just really pisses me off la. So i'm like, "watching movie la, can't you see?'' and she tells me to "turn it off plis '' cos apparently there's some regulation about computers only being able to be used for ACADEMIC PURPOSES. For goodness sake don't ever go to Curtin singapore !!!! The management SUCKS. NOT student friendly at all. Anyway. It's not like there was a shortage of computers, there was one empty one right next to me and several others around. NO ONE WAS WAITING, so why can't you leave me alone? So i turn it off and leave, but come back after walking halfway to the door, to ask her who is in charge of the library. and she tells me some random old woman's name and i pretty much loathe that one as well, so i ask for who's higher up. And she doesn't know. SO i go to the student's center and bitch about it to the admin [nicely of course cos the admin girls are really nice people] and fill in a feedback form. I think i'll try to make an appointment with the chancellor to FEEDBACK about my 260 lecturer. no one who teaches like that should be paid to teach. GOSH.
So since i am stuck with nth to do, i decide to go to TPY and buy a topup card for my broke phone. Crowded and hot TPY. 4 stores had absolutely NO topup cards at all! like wtfh???? So finally i get a card...from starhub. -.- and when i try to top it up, it doesn't work. cos the whole prepaid network is DOWN. ohemgee... and now i'm late for class...and i can't contact my friend to tell him to get seats for me...
stressss?
ok la... just overall pissed with everything today.
then i get to class and i hear that the fuckin quiz i studied all night for on saturday is CANCELLED. thanks to the lousy CURTIN service we never even knew.
damn fools.
so yep i get home and i force myself to start moving before i explode.
short but vicious workout... loved every minute of it!!
Gonna try to do that more. I mean, for someone with as many anger issues as me, imma get strong really fast =D yayyy ~