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♥Friday, January 06, 2012, 11:34 PM
2011: Where the heck did it go?!
Since i'm sure i'll be able to live 2011 out, what resolutions shall I make???These were my resolutions in 2011. Things added in colour are my comments now, in 2012. I'm so tempted to recycle my template for my post last year... but Ishant be lazy. in case you're interested -.-.... here's the link to my post in 2011. http://www.bleeding-ice.blogspot.com/2011_01_01_archive.html this year, I was just too distracted to post on the first day of the year, but it's....January 6th... and i'm sure.. it's still the first of January somewhere in this universe...Mars maybe..or Pluto... anyway! :) SO. Here begins my post proper.. about what 2011 has been like for me... which shall then be followed by my 2012 resolutions. Get it? First a summary of the year, then my new resolutions. Okay. Let's begin. TwentyEleven: I expected it to be hard. Expectation met. You know how every new year you hope that the next year will be less crappy than the last? Well it doesn't work that way. Unless you had a really horrible year and fell down a flight of steps onto the street then got run over by a lorry and had to undergo massive internal surgery... then yeah, you'd probably have a better year because the odds of that happening again are just..slim.) But it doesn't get easier, in most cases, you just get stronger. I'd like to think 2011 made me stronger. Physically, I increased my stamina and core strength. Worked out more frequently than in previous years. Thanks to my awesome yoga/exercise/make weird groaning sounds buddy Tatcha :D Also discovered a new way (in the last month of the year), thanks to my lovely babygirl lizaT, how to lose/maintain my weight. So yes. I've grown stronger. I can now run for 3 minutes without dying. Mentally, I can't decide. There were times I felt like I was literally going crazy. So many emotions and so many thoughts just bouncing around in my head until I felt I couldn't breathe. My rage is also a major issue. Only one person can make me scream and yell and kinda lose all resemblance to a sane homo sapien. But maybe that's just, a girl thing. I dont know. But I think i'm better able to talk things through now, which is probablyyyy a sign of mental health... I THINK. I know i'm happier right now. More at peace and focusing more on my future than anything else. Academically, I'm kind of satisfied with myself. I know to you people who've graduated and started your careers or even those of you who're attending 'better' universities and stuff, it may seem like an easy task to graduate from Curtin. But it wasn't. Or maybe it was and i'm just underskilled. HAHA. Either way, I'm really happy to have sucessfully finished a 3 year course in 2 years, while managing NOT to fail any modules. There were modules I thought I'd fail, [like Marketing 100, Derivatives, Finance Anaysis] But I didn't. :) It's definitely not on me... it's thanks to my parents who never stressed me out, my friends who helped make classes bearable, other friends who helped me study, my supportive and helpful lecturers (some) like Jeffrey PCH... (AHAHA) and Surya and Pearce and Mr Potato Head (I forgot his name) and the Young Nerdy Lecturer...I'd have failed if it weren't for all these lovely people. Socially, LOL. We all know how horribly awkward I am in large groups of people (read: more than 2)... so I'm just going to count it a win than I didn't lose any friends [I THINK] and I even gained one or two new ones... :) Spiritually, again, that's between me and God. I dont like publicizing my religion. Not because I'm ashamed of it, but because I dont want to come across as a hypocrite. Why would I tell you how many times I pray, or how my devotional life is, or what i've done to get closer to God? That's just kinda...showy.. to me. So no. But I do want to thank God for bringing my family and friends safely through another year. He's given me so much in this past year, sometimes I wonder what I've done to deserve it. He's helped me graduate, helped me keep my head up even when things got rough, and helped me learn many many many things. I dont know why, but everytime I think about 2011, I'm just going to remember a lot of pain and uncertainty, as well as happiness and memories. I may be learning to trust again, or maybe it's just me learning to be more independent. I dont know. Yet I feel a sense of...growth. I feel... stronger. I feel... free. I feel... like my own person again. Maybe it's time to make some changes to my life. I do not know. But I know that 2011 was a good year for me. I learned a lot. The learning may have been painful, but it was worth it. I don't have any changes to my life plan as yet.. Still want kids by 26-27, retire by 33-35, switch to part time jobs and take care of my children... Although it may not be possible, it's alright to have a plan. :) Right now, in 2012, I'm going to focus on my career. I need to get a job. I need to work, and learn as quickly as possible, gain experience, and become an even stronger person. I have resolutions... quite shallow ones, but here they are.
Here's to hoping 2012 is a marvelous year that will teach me much much more [hopefully in less painful ways]....and it is my sincereeeee and heartfelt wish that all relationships and friendships will only grow stronger and never weaker.
Me.
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